I'm on the table waiting for the masseuse. My eyes are closed and in my mind I am working on another chapter to my "Sensual, Sexy Massage Therapist" fantasy.
I watch as that hot little vixen goes down on my girlfriend when, in the distance I hear footfalls drawing near.
My eyes fly open and there I see one of the spa's male attendants. He's got sandy, blond hair, cut surfer-boy style, deeply tanned skin, clad in white shorts and a matching tee shirt that cling tightly to his superhero-like body.
I am in total awe and cannot help but stare.
Christ... he looks like a mountain of solid muscle...
He turns to me and says, "Hi, I'm Lonnie."
Silence...
...Silence... still staringβ¦
My mind hiccups and jiggers, sputtering to access the speech functions...
"I ... ah... ummmmm... hi...," I stutter, coughing to buy time. "... I'm Charley."
"Hello Charley⦠nice to meet you." Lonnie looks down at his clipboard. "You're here for a full body, deep tissue, yes?"
I stare back at him.
Silence...
That's what I said I wanted when I made the appointment. It's just that I'm not so sure about
having a GUY give it to me...
"Yeah...," I finally say. "But... ummmmm.... I wasn't expecting you to be a guy.... Where's Jenna, the girl who usually takes care of me?"
"Oh... Jenna's moved on to another site. Promoted her to manager," Lonnie smiles before finally adding, "Hey man, don't worry about it. I'm a professional."
"It's just that I've never had a guy... well, I've never had a guy touch my body like that," I confide, blushing.
Again, Lonnie smiles. "I hear that all the time. Don't worry about it, man. Like I said, I'm a professional."
More silence as I ponder my decision and every possible implication from every possible angle.
What would it mean to have a guy touching my body for so long?'
What if I get an erection? Does that mean I'm gay?
Is HE gay? Not that there's anything wrong with that...
What'll I do if he tries to put the 'moves' on me?
What if I like it...?
He preps his oils and towels while my head spins with crippling and circular inquiry. Before I know it, Lonnie gets started....
He's a true pro and can clearly sense my unease. So he makes small talk, guy talk mostly: Women, sports, dirty jokes - topics to put my homophobia to rest.
There is a certain quality to his voice - velvety smooth and calm; it makes me WANT to hear him talk. He goes on and on but I'm not hearing what he's saying as I am lost in the sound of his voice.
I close my eyes and relax as Lonnie talks and works away. My apprehensions fade and I drift off into a semi-dreamlike state. I feel my body grow warmer and warmer under his magic touch and before long I am putty in his hands.