Ron stood there in the entrance to my bedroom, shirtless, me kissing him, nerves were taking over him, he was terrified, scared, but I could tell he wanted me as much as I wanted him. I had him pressed to my bedroom door as I was kissing him, his arms at his sides, mine holding his face.
"Tom Please I can't do this, I'm your boss, it will complicate things, I have to go Tom before I am tempted to do something I should not do." Ron told me holding me back from him.
"Tempted to do what Ron? Kiss me, hold me? Fall for me? Make love to me Ron?" I asked him looking deep in his eyes.
"Tom it's complicated, we can't do this, it's not right." Ron told me gently pushing me away.
"Ron you know whats wrong is you have two men who are in love with each other but feel they are not allowed to show it to each other, Ron I know how I feel for you, if you have to go then go." I told him as I released my grip on him.
Ron picked up his shirt, slowly putting it on, looking at me the whole time, his eyes glassy, I could see the longing in his eyes, he wanted needed affection from me. Ron grabbed his keys and opened the apartment door.
"I'm sorry Tom but I just can't." He said as he walked out.
I sat on the bed and cried, but at least I had tried, Ron called me the next day, it being Saturday we always hung out, he made an excuse that he had to do a few things and could not hang out.
"Okay Ron I am sorry, but I had to know if you felt the same for me, enjoy your life, again I am sorry." I could not hold back the tears as the last of it came out.
I gently hung up the phone and cried, I was heartbroken, I love him, I know he has feelings for me, but can't seem to express them. I stayed home moping around doing absolutely nothing. I had a nap, then I would watch a movie then early to bed. I was all cried out, crying off and on all day, I did not look forward to Monday meeting him face to face.
After my nap I settled in to watch a movie, some sappy thing, guaranteed to make me cry some more, I was all bundled up in my blanket, dam it smelt like him. I heard a soft knock on the door, I got up opened the door to Ron.
"Ron I did not expect to see you today after last night." I said to him.
"Can I come in Tom?" Ron asked as he walked past me.