Over the time that I have been a completely closeted cocksucker, I have harbored an ideal encounter. On those nights when I find myself alone, I masturbate to this fantasy and it always brings me to an exquisite climax. But despite having sucked countless cocks over the past 20 years, I have never experienced the perfect meeting and given the perfect blowjob.
How did I become a closeted cocksucker? That story is for another time. Let's just say that I acquired a taste for cock in my 30s and soon realized that I wanted to please other men orally. I found some patient teachers, who allowed me to improve my skills and explore fantasies. As I gained confidence in my abilities, I realized that I was born to serve and fell in love with cocks and cum. Big, small, cut, uncut, thick, thin, it mattered not. I craved cock and its reward. I needed nothing in return. Just the thought of servicing another man with my mouth got me hard.
Eventually, I discovered Craigslist and began a string of anonymous encounters. Although I enjoyed them, they were not perfect; there was always something not quite right. The cock was too small, the load was not full, he came too quickly, he didn't cum at all, he wasn't my type, he wanted to kiss, he wanted to fuck, he wanted to be fucked, he wanted to suck me too, etc. I just wanted to suck and swallow, or if the guy preferred, receive a facial. I tried to be as clear as possible in my ads, but once a guy gets horny, his own inhibitions disappear and he wants to participate. Of course, eager to please, I would let him do what he wanted or follow his orders, but I was always slightly disappointed after he left.
I began to dream of a perfect encounter and this fantasy became my goal. I wanted to give the perfect blowjob. By that, I mean I wanted to walk into a dark room, get down on my knees in front of a good-looking, fit man, suck his perfect cock for at least 30 minutes, make him cum purely by using my mouth, swallow, and leave. Completely anonymously. No gay bar, no small talk, just me servicing him to completion.