At 47, I had my first gay sexual encounter. For decades, I knew I was interested in experiencing sex with men. I'm definitely not gay, but have reached the conclusion I am decidedly bisexual. I still find women attractive, but steamy encounters with men was something I decided I had to act on. I've previously written about my first encounter which was essentially a surprise threesome. It wasn't what I was out there searching for, but it was what I got. It was incredible and still arouses me when I think back on it.
I don't hook up with guys with any regularity. When I get the itch, I scratch it.
I've chosen to write about the instances that leave a mark. Something beyond the routine quick fix. To scratch the itch, I maintained a Sniffies membership. As everyone experiences with that platform, it was a mixed bag. Sometimes you find a hookup, other times its just guys on there teasing around.
I had an opportunity on the horizon as I was going to need to travel to Tallahassee for meetings with legislators and state agencies. I'd be up there for four nights and surely by the third or fourth, I could find an opportunity.
After arriving at my hotel, I got settled in and popped open my laptop. It was time to update my sniffies profile so that I could put my bait out there. I felt like I wanted to be the giver for this experience and to keep things simple.
I updated it to read: "It's all about your cock. Come to me and let me service your cock until you finish. Reciprocation is not necessary. Clean and well groomed is a must. Please be at least 30."
My profile photos have remained the same since I first opened the account. Shots of my cock and my asshole. And one pic of a dildo in my ass.
The bait was cast, so I decided to take a shower and get cleaned up. I was trying to be realistic that the magic might not happen that night, but I should be ready if it would.
I took a shower and took my razor with me in the shower to clean things up. I keep things clean shaven downstairs, but some maintenance was necessary. I got my balls perfectly smooth and for good measure decided to clean up my taint and ass. I was advertising for a blow and go situation, but it feels sexy to be clean shaven back there.
I came out to the computer and there were three new chat requests. I opened each one, and to no surprise, every one of them started with the typical "Hey". The third one on the list was an anonymous cruiser who sent a picture of his cock. It had great form. The photo was taken when it was hard as a rock. Didn't look too large, guessing about 6 to 6.5 inches. It had a nice upward arc that was appealing. I'd respond here first.
"Hey, nice looking cock. Do you need some help with it this afternoon? I'd me more than happy to take care of that swelling for you."
It was cheesy, I know. I'm not too experienced at this.
About 5 minutes pass and I get a response back.
"Definitely on here looking for some 'service.' What are you thinking? Let's see if we are looking for the same thing."
I replied, "I'm serious about what the profile says, I really want to focus on someone else's cock. I want to suck you long and slow and gradually increase until you are fucking my throat. I've never handed over control to a guy and let him do that, but I want to try. At the end, I want to taste your cum. Every last drop."
I sent the response, and it sat out there for a couple of minutes.
I was beginning to worry I had lost him that quickly.
He responded. "That sounds pretty awesome, but I think I'm looking for a little more tonight."
I knew I was losing him, so I quickly responded.
"I'm not saying that I'm not open to more. What did you have in mind?"
"I want to be able to fuck you any way that I please. Whether it is your throat or your ass, it's mine for the night. Your cock is irrelevant in this transaction. Your role is to please me and do whatever it is I want. You have the right to object, but know that it is a turn off for me and you said this is about me. Do you have that in you?" he replied.
Wow. That was a lot to take in.
Was I willing to give someone control to that degree? The idea frightened me and turned me on at the same time. I knew I had to decide right now or the line may go stale.
"I'm open to it. But, let's figure out what the non-negotiables are first. How old are you? Are you okay using protection?" I typed back...trying to regain some level of control of the direction this takes.
"I'm 24 and I'm on PrEP. I do not want to use protection, but see my prescription bottle below. I take it as prescribed and was only prescribed it after passing the screen," he replied almost immediately. The reply was followed a minute or so later by a picture of a prescription bottle labeled Descovy and of little blue pills in his hand.
A couple of challenges here. I had stated that I wanted someone over 30. He's claiming he is 24 years old...that's a full 6 years shy of my target. Second, I've always required protection to fuck me. He's telling me he is on PrEP, but I have to trust that he's actually on it. I have to dive deeper.
"Two things. I'm concerned because you are younger than my sniffies profile asks for. Why does a 24 year old want to do this with someone who is pushing 50? Second, I always use protection. How do I know that you aren't sending me pictures of someone else's prescription and a random hand holding pills from the internet?" I replied.
After a couple minutes of thought, he responded.
"I'm a graduate student at FSU. I'm into older guys and I like to flip the script and be the one dominating them. I guess it's a power trip. I spent my younger years following the directions of older men, and now I want to be in charge. With regard to the PrEP, look at the pictures below and tell me if this is enough to provide you with comfort."
He sent two pictures. One was his driver's license with his face covered, next to the prescription bottle. It showed his name with a Miami address and the name on the prescription matched.