My name is Harry. I will admit, it seems like my dick controls my ideas more often than my brain recently. The problem is, I'm 18 years old and really horny all the time. It has turned into a problem since I live with my parents and can't do anything with someone else to release these feelings because I'm too scared of them finding out, mostly because I'm also gay. Ever since my last birthday, I've been wanting to finally experiment with my sex life, since, of course, as a virgin, I haven't been able to do much, even romantically speaking. I've been going to college the last few months, and my horny brain has not let me study and pay attention in class, especially when there's so much eye candy in my class. Most of my peers were men, muscular and bearded, like Michael; tall and confident, like Jesse; dark and handsome, like Devon; hell, even the teacher, Mr. Howard, had an amazing body underneath his white button-up that you could see during those hot afternoons, with a gorgeous face underneath fancy glasses and tight black pants that gave away his thick thighs. How could I keep my mind focused on the lectures when there was so much to look at? I had to do something about this.
I was beginning to forget whole lectures because I was contantly distracted by the numerous hunks around me. So, one Friday, when I got home, I decided to jerk off after class, an activity I was pretty much forced to do to keep my mind off the guys I saw during my lectures, until I started to notice that it was finally not enough. I needed more. In fact, I was more interested in a completely different position. I have to admit I wanted to feel like I was on the bottom, and jerking off didn't really satisfy that. My body still felt hot, burning up with emotion. All that heat wanted to come out somehow, and that need was not something I was able to accomplish on my own. My brain went haywire. It was my dick that started making the decisions, as I started to search online for places to satisfy these urges.
I found out about a place that was en route with my college that could be an easy fix to my problem: a sex store. I had class in about 3 hours, so I could just leave home early and head over there first so my parents wouldn't suspect a thing. Next thing I know, I'm walking to class 40 minutes earlier than usual to make sure I had enough time for my little detour. My heart was racing like crazy, and my body was still scalding hot; you could almost see the sweat evaporating off my body, creating clouds of vapor. I finally walk next to the store and wait a bit outside, just to make sure nobody I know suddenly walks past and sees me like this. I mean, is this normal? I felt so nervous. I haven't done anything like this before. What if I get judged by the staff? A guy buying a dildo? That sounds embarrassing... What if I buy it and it falls out of my backpack in class? What then? So many thoughts went flying across my mind about this whole situation. Was it worth the embarrassment? Would I even be embarrassed? Fuck it. I walk in the store, and my nervousness spikes; the walls are all lined with so many types of toys, all shapes and colors, some I didn't even imagine how they were used. My eyes darted around the place until I saw what I was looking for. There was a whole shelf of them, so many colors and sizes.
It must have been a couple of minutes of me looking until I heard someone behind me. "Can I help you with anything?" A masculine voice asked behind me.
I turned around, embarrassed, and shook my head a bit. "No, I, umm..." He looked like a really tough guy, very muscular, his arms filled with tattoos. He even had a couple of face tattoos barely covered by his elegant rectangular glasses and full, neatly styled, long beard. "I was looking for one of these..." I pointed back at the shelf I was looking at.
"Looking for something specific I can help you to find?" He asked. His expression was pretty relaxed, not the least bit intimidating even with how tough the rest of his body looked; hell, he was wearing a tight black t-shirt with leather pants. He had some leather cuffs on both of his wrists, some of those spiked ones that look like dog collars. To be honest, the more I looked at him, the more attractive he seemed.
"Well, I..." I turned around to look at my choices. There were so many options. "I don't even know where to start." I admitted. It didn't help that I was a virgin who didn't know how to even use one of those.
"Well, you want something big, average size, something that vibrates, maybe a fantasy shape?" He began explaining my options as he picked up some of them to show. He was completely relaxed by the conversation. He made me feel quite comfortable after being so scared to enter. "If it's your first toy, I recommend not going for anything too big to not hurt yourself." He continued, clearly realizing that someone this nervous hasn't been in a store like this before.
"Thank you, yes, I would like something for a beginner." I finally built up the courage to say.
"Great, well, I recommend something like these..." He said, pointing at three very similar-looking dicks, they were maybe 13 cm to 15 cm in length. "They're a good enough size to pleasure you up there, but not too big to start with." He explained as he picked one up. "They are made to feel just like the real thing." He said, smiling at me, stroking the fake cock up and down. I couldn't take my eyes off it. He continued to fidget with it, stroking it up the shaft, stopping at the tip every once in a while.
"Yeah, I'll take it..." I say, still staring at the store clerk stroking the dildo like a real dick.
"Cool, do you need any lube? Maybe something to clean yourself out?" He asked as he placed the toy on the counter with a bottle of lube and a small douche next to it.
"Sure, I'll take those too, thanks." I say, as I become ready to pay. Taking some money out of my wallet, as I'm close to the counter, I notice a hallway behind a shelf next to the clerk, hidden away from sight. "Oh, umm..." I move my head over to see what is behind there.
The clerk seemed to take notice of my curiosity as he took the money off my hands. "You good, buddy?" He asked. "Yeah, so what's behind that?" I asked back. "That's our little play area. Not many sex stores have something like it, but we decided to have a slightly hidden place for certain events or clients, if you know what I mean." He began explaining as he packed the items I had bought in a black plastic bag.
"Play area? What do you mean exactly?" I was even more curious about it all. It was probably my dick thinking for me, but I needed to know what was back there. "Well, it's mostly a bunch of holes in the wall for public use-type events, glory holes, and sex swings." He explained, leaning over on the counter towards me. "What? Are you interested in it, boy?"
That was a new word for me to hear. Boy. It made something inside me feel excited. "I, um..." I got a little nervous again, but this time it was for the fact that my dick had gotten a bit hard by the thoughts of what was being told to me, plus the attitude of the store clerk really didn't help the situation. I tried to hide it with the plastic bag filled with the toys. It was pretty ineffective, since the clerk immediately looked me up and down, noticing what was happening.
"Listen, boy, come here Sunday at 9:00 pm. I'll show you around for real; there will be an event. However, I need you to bring someone. You are only allowed entry to this event if you get someone else to join." He began to explain as my head started to plan out what I needed to do.
My brain wanted to say no, but my mind was not being controlled by it right now. I began to think about how I was meant to come here with a partner--with whom? "Can't you just lend me a favor?" I asked, thinking with what was between my legs, which was enticing me to do this even if I'm a complete amateur.
"Oh, I already have a partner, but I know I'll be seeing you there." He grinned and winked. I didn't know what to do in response; I stayed there looking at him for a few seconds until my brain gave me the wake-up call I needed. I needed to get to class! Without saying anything, I stuffed the plastic bag I was holding deep into my backpack and started running towards my college. Thankfully, I didn't take all the 40 minutes I had extra from leaving early at the store and managed to get to class in time. I had a little problem during class, though. My mind wasn't thinking about anything but the rooms back there at the sex shop and how I needed to find a partner by Sunday. My eyes darted around the room, trying to find someone who might be willing, even when I didn't even know if any of my peers were gay or not. Michael, Jesse, and Devon, as I said before, were all hot as hell, but could I risk asking them to join me? My brain finally started to think straight. I couldn't just ask them something like that. I knew them, and we have been talking a decent amount since we started college together, but could I risk the relationship with them by asking them to meet me at a sex party? That would be too weird, too awkward. So, I decided I didn't need to go to that back room. I had my toy; I could play at home with it and not risk all the risk it took to go to the sex store again.
So I went home that day without asking anybody to go with me to the party. While I was home, I decided to wait to play with what I bought; after all that had happened in my mind today, it really did not feel like the right time. I needed to focus on something important, so I decided to study the material Mr. Howard gave me. I read through it all, and I did all I could all night, until I fell asleep at my desk. That morning, I ate breakfast, only being able to think of the party, and what was worse, I didn't have class this weekend, meaning I couldn't distract myself to no longer think about it. I started to regret not asking anyone over. My mind was racing again, controlled by my urges, so I decided to go over to the store again. I was hot with sexual energy again, just like yesterday, but this time, I had a bit of a surprise on my way there.
As I tried to enter the store, I bumped into someone familiar. In the same white shirt and tight black pants, Mr. Howard was blocking the shop's door, with a black bag in hand. "Mr. Howard?" I reacted.
"Oh, umm... Harry!" He jolted back.
"Didn't expect to see you here!" I said, blocking the door, curiosity getting the best of me. I wanted to pry out why he was here.
"Same to you..." He said awkwardly.