I kept up with my gym routine and the changes in my diet. You never see the changes yourself but I noticed I was getting the occasional glance at the gym and in the office. My gym clothes felt tighter on me, in a good way.
And while I was always hungry, I now stayed away from my previous comfort foods. I hardly drank and when I did, it was no longer beer, which no longer appealed to me. I passed it off as part of my fitness kick, but my wife looked at me with disdain as I sipped something while she continued her enjoyment of IPAs.
However the change that was most notable to me was at work. I found myself unable to function at my previous level whenever I was around my work friend Michael. I was tongue-tied and needy, entirely focused on him. All of him.
I found myself thinking about him while I was on Zooms or in meetings. Stray images of what his cock was like would float into my mind at random moments, even when he wasn't around. I imagined him kissing me passionately, pushing me against a wall, my mouth open to his tongue. More than once I had to use the bathroom stalls to relieve the internal tension.
This was not conducive to productivity in the office, but he seemed to enjoy it, making time to come around and message me. I was beginning to believe he was taking pleasure in my behavior.