I have held a secret for the past twenty or so years that no one that knows me would ever suspect. The reason I am writing them now is because I am having these urges again. You see back then I experimented in gay sex and now I am working hard to get my body back in shape to possibly do it again.
Even though it was over twenty years ago, I can remember it like yesterday. I was just out of School and working as an entry level draftsman at a small company in Dayton, Ohio. The shop was union, and the shop restroom always seemed to have at least a couple of porn magazines in it. I was glad to see the reading material myself. Mostly Playboys or Penthouses, occasionally there would be something like a Hustler or Club or something along that line. Then one Tuesday there was a swinger magazine, Ohio Swingers, in there. I was immediately drawn to it. Here I was, at 20 years of age, looking over ad after ad of women who had placed ads looking to "meet for fun and more." At the time, I wasn't dating regularly, still nursing a broken heart. I wasn't a virgin, but I didn't have a whole lot of experience either. I always seemed to have problems closing the deal. This magazine seemed to be a way to end that. So I took it home to see how to answer a couple of the ads.
In my bedroom, at the time I still lived with my parents, I looked the ads over and over. Masturbating regularly for the rest of the week. Then over the weekend, I decided to answer two ads, one from a 40 year old divorced woman and a 24 year old black woman. I decided that the older woman could give me the experience I was seeking and I choose the other simply because I thought it sounded erotic to me. So I sent replies as instructed and waited.
Two weeks later and many jack off sessions later, I was now looking over the latest version I had bought. I saw the same two ads I had responded to, feeling bad about not hearing anything. Then as I was looking through it again, I happened to look in the men seeking men section. Now I didn't really consider myself bi at that time, even though I had twice sixtynined with a buddy, always very drunk. Still my horniness was getting the better of me. Then I saw the ad. It was the typical black and white picture with a description of what this guy was looking for. The picture, taken in a mirror, showed a naked man holding a ping pong paddle. Even in the picture you could see that he was well endowed. The ad read as following. "Well hung (10") man seeking men (preferred) or women to spank until your ass is red then fuck in the ass. Serious replies only, if you don't like it rough this is not for you."
Try as I might, I couldn't shake that ad. I kept looking at the picture, seeing the paddle and the semi erect penis in it. Never had I seen such a large one outside of a porno. I had never even considered anal sex before, not even me screwing someone else in the ass. Still here I was masturbating daily thinking about it. Finally, my curiosity got the better of me, and I answered it along with one to another woman. Five days later, I got a phone call. He introduced himself a Jim and that I had replied to an ad he had placed. Nervous, I said yeah that was me and we made plans to meet half way between us, at a mall, that weekend.
We met near the food court, I asked him if he wanted anything, his reply stunned me. "My ad told you what I want." My cock was immediately hard. Then he asked me about my experience, how many men had I been with. When I told him he only smiled. "Oh this is going to be good. You sure you want to go through with this? Because I will drive us to my house and once there, your ass is mine, got it." His forcefulness was really turning me on. I told him I wanted to. "Tell me want you want." Looking around, seeing a lot of people around I hesitated. He leaned back in his chair. "Either tell me want you want, or I walk."
Embarrassed, I spoke softly, my voice cracking, "I want to be spanked and to have sex with you."
