Winter break had come and gone we had said goodbye to 1977 and hello to 1978. My winter break was spent in complete and total bliss. I had spent the holidays with Tye being his adoring companion. I catered to his every need and kept his little tiny one-bedroom apartment in immaculate order.
Being a poor college student on break from school I concentrated on putting in extra hours at the sandwich shop that I worked at. But when I wasn't working, I was out playing ball with Tye at whatever rec. center we could play at. Then back to his place where we lived our make-believe life of being a couple.
Again, this was 1978 and living in a gay lifestyle out in the open was something that nobody ever dared to do. At least not in a small town in Texas. In public we were just a couple of guys doing guy things. I was a few months away from my 20th birthday very young and still somewhat naΓ―ve about how the world worked. But I wasn't so naΓ―ve to know that certain things you kept to yourself.
As I lay there in Tye's arms after one of our sessions my mind started to drift to how it all began. I wondered about Martin my first lover. I wondered how he was and where he was at. I had come to find out later from my grandfather that he had been the one to run him off the farm and away from my world.
He had caught Martin fucking me in one of the supply sheds during that first summer of my sexual awakening. I had just turned 18 and Martin had just taken me a month after that. Months had passed and it was September. I was getting ready to move into the near by city to attend the local University.
Martin had come looking for me and found me cleaning out one of the supply sheds on the farm. One thing led to another and suddenly I had my pants to my ankles, leaning forward holding on to the stack of cotton seed, slightly bent over. Martin had his big fat cock sliding in and out of my hole.
There I was panting and carrying on like some school girl in heat while Martin penetrated and stretched my hole causing me to blow my load all over the bags of seed that I was holding on to. Martin had figured out where my prostate zone was and he knew how to hit it just right causing me to orgasm within seconds of him hitting it.
I remember sitting next to my grandfather's hospital bed as he told me about almost walking in on me and seeing us, how did he put it? He said he walked in on Martin and me, "Having a moment." I just lowered my head because I knew exactly what moment he was referring too.
He said that after that he put it all together. How I had changed over the summer. How I seemed happier and more alive than he had ever seen me. He started noticing the amount of time that I was spending with Martin and he noticed how we looked at each other and behaved when we thought that nobody was looking.
My grandfather knew that I had fallen in love and even though he did not approve of what was happening he knew that if he said anything it ran the risk making things awkward between us or worse. Besides as he said, I was happy and to him that was all that mattered. Later on, after I had gone off to college, he noticed a change in my attitude, he couldn't help to wonder what had happened.
Then his girlfriend, yes, the old guy was quite the player. When his girl let him know that his daughter was dating the young man that worked with him on the farm, he understood what must've happened. My grandfather knew that the young man that she was referring to was Martin.
So, he quickly figured out that I was heartbroken. My grandfather told me how he waited until I moved away to my new town in December. After that he told Martin to pack his shit and get the fuck off the farm. Listening to the old man tell me the story from that hospital bed had me both embarrassed and proud at the same time.
His girlfriend's daughter, Janie, was my best friend up to that point in my very young life. I confided in her with every little detail of my life. Janie always looked out for me ever since I was 13.
It was because of her that I had gotten the courage on how to first, go about confessing my love to Martin. Second, the tutoring on how to prepare myself for the first time that Martin would fuck me. I was every bit a virgin but with Janie's help I would experience my first love and lose my virginity to that love.
Janie was everything to me growing up and in one afternoon she threw it all away when she fucked my man. Even thou I had nothing to do with the betrayal I watched as it happened and I even participated in a small way. I still remember how Martin had her pussy stretched. Then her screams as she came and Martin dumping load after load into her pussy.
Why did I sit there? Why did I hold her hand and comfort her as she struggled with Martins cock impaling her pussy? Why didn't I just run away from the very beginning...
My love for my grandfather was always strong but knowing that he knew about my joy and the pain that I had endured that year just made the bond stronger. The old man never made it out of that hospital. A part of him never left me and he took apart of me with him...
That thought of my grandfather had me wiping away a tear that had escaped me and as I took a deep breath my mind moved on...
Tye had his arm around me as he slept. I loved it when he spooned me especially after we made love. As he lay there his body pressed against mine, I could still feel his cock pressed against my ass. It somehow gave me comfort knowing that even in his sleep his cock was still slightly hard and not completely limp.
My mind started drifting again and it brought me to Casey. I never understood how I truly loved that girl. Even in Tye's arms with his cum barely seeping out of my hole I thought of her and immediately felt love in my heart.
When I first moved from the farm and into my new town Casey was the girl that caught my attention. She was a co-worker of mine from the sandwich shop located on the first floor of my apartment building.
The sandwich shop, yeah, the sandwich shop. The thought of my job and the place where I met Casey was rudely interrupted by the thought of my first job in my new town...
Have you ever had a thought come into your head that is so loathsome, so embarrassing that you let out an uncontrollable groan?? I caught myself from making that sound so not to awaken Tye but the memory of my first job flooded my brain.