The days piled on with Lan.
I was in my right mind. I kept telling myself that. I texted on and off with Rhonda. There was a smirk and a concern in equal parts in her messages. She offered to meet for drinks, but I had to tell her I was staying away from the bar. "Oh, Lan's on a campaign to get rid of your belly, huh? Good for you, you fat fuck," and I laughed and shook my head as I read the text. I got hard as I remembered Lan's beautiful cock slapping my belly from the side. "I want it hard like I am. Do you want that?"
He never let my dick get near his ass. I agreed that was for the best, staring at the floor, getting hard.
Was I in my right mind? How did I get here? I was going to the gym for this man. I was making food for this man. I wasn't drinking. I was wearing a discrete lock around my neck with his name for me, Thor. I was staying away from the bar. I'd met Rhonda for a big salad lunch today. She looked me up and down like she always did, smirking at the old kilt that I had lost 15 pounds to get into. "About time we got you kilted up again!" and then her breasts were against my pecs, which I could feel were bigger - not her, Rhonda had always been blessed, but a man's blessing depended on his effort.
I did my job. Better than usual. Dudes checked me out on the train. I smiled, and just looked down knowing those pups would never, ever give me what Lan was giving me.
He'd been out of town. I thought of him ferociously. I felt like I needed a mental version of a no-lick dog cone.
He was coming tonight.
I hit the gym with a fucking vengeance. I was that red-faced guy in a rugby jersey doing squats til he shook and his neck bulged with veins. The pained yells letting the weights crash on the rack were real. I was that older guy who ignored your pretty ass as you did bent over rows, and his jock bulged as he did skull crushers set after set.
I chafed at the woman smell of lavender in the bath salts Lan had bought for me. But the thought of Lan and the fact he'd bought me a big box of salt to soothe my tired muscles made my dick twitch and my hole feel warm - which frankly still annoyed me on some distant level. But fuck levels, and fuck me, and oh, God, I wanted him to fuck me before I forgot how fucking good it was, and I didn't want anyone to find out that I couldn't get enough of this little dude's huge dick up my ass.
And I was hard. And not touching myself. My fat pink dickhead poking up above the water, telling me like it usually did that I was a viking and I should take what I want. And the feeling in my smaller belly was that I was taken now and needed to be good to get the real pleasure I deserved.