My pulse raced as I typed the words out on the screen in front of me. "Would you like to meet up?" I stared at them not knowing whether to hit enter or backspace. I'd only been trying online dating for a month and though Cody and I had been chatting the entire time, I hadn't actually met anyone in person. Sure we had chatted on skype a few times, I had seen his face, I knew that he existed. Hell I had even seen him without a shirt during one of our skype sessions. Still I was nervous.
I closed my eyes. My teacher always says we regret the things we don't do, not the things we do. "Fuck it." I thought to my self and slapped the enter key, sending my message across to Cody.
Cody was 20 and a very hot looking guy. Six foot tall with a swimmers build and a smooth body. Also he was a great guy. Very funny and never once pressured me into meeting up. He knew I had never been with a guy before. That wasn't exactly true, I had given a few head jobs at school but never truly been with another guy if you know what I mean.
Me, I was 18 and straight out of school. 5 foot 8 and very slim. I wanted big muscles but have never been able to develop them. I also wanted to start acting on my sexual urges. I wanted to experience and explore. I was way too nervous to go any gay bars alone, so the internet was where I went.
Cody replied. "Sure." I felt a wave of relief wash over me. "There's a bar on 12th, Shorty's. Let's meet there at 8. My parents have gone away too, so we can go back to mine later if you like. No pressure."
"Awesome! See you there."
"Can't wait to finally meet your cute ass." he added.
I was so excited. Finally I was going to be able to act on my urges. I was 18 and essentially a virgin. I craved having Cody fuck me. That was all I wanted when I thought of being with him, or any man I liked. I don't know why, but I just knew I was a bottom. I had never been with a man before, but I knew that when it happened, it would be me giving my ass to him and not the other way around.
I arrived at the bar a few minutes early, hoping to have a quick drink to calm my nerves before Cody arrived. Shorty's is now the first gay bar I've even been to. It looks just like any other bar really. The place was almost empty. Just me sitting alone and on the opposite wall, three men sitting at a table drinking bourbon. I drank my wine in big sips, hoping it would take effect before he arrived. A man on the other table stared in confusion as I finished my drink in only a few minutes. I glanced at my watch, 8:05. Where was he? Has he stood me up? Surely not. I mean, everyone is politely 15 minutes late anyway. As the first drink began to take effect, I ordered another wine while I waited.
The same man on the other table kept glancing over at me in between the laughs of whatever story the others were talking about. Three of them all looked in their 50s. Two balding, stocky looking guys with their backs to me and the slim grey haired man who kept glancing over.
Oh shit. We just made eye contact and he smiled right at me. I immediately looked away nervously. Where the fuck was Cody? I checked my phone. It was now 8:30. He was properly late. "Hey I'm here. Where are you?" I texted to him. I looked back at the grey haired man. He was back in conversation with the other two. He reminded me a bit of my neighbour Carl. He would mow his lawn without a shirt and I would look at him through the window, perving on his muscled hairy chest. He was the first man I ever had a crush on. Unfortunately he moved away last month, after living next door for less than a year.
More and more people started coming in, but none of them Cody. The place was really starting to fill up now and people were taking the empty chairs from my table. Still no reply from Cody. The three men all stood up laughing and shook hands with each other. The two stocky men walking out together. The grey haired man looked at his phone briefly before looking over at me again. I looked away.
"Is this seat taken?"
It was the grey haired man. Oh no, he wanted to talk! What do I do?
"Oh um, I'm waiting for someone." I stammered.
He laughed. "You've been waiting over an hour now. If he was coming, he would be here by now."
He was right. Cody was a no show. "Come on, I'll buy you another glass of wine." he said as he sat down.
"So tell me, this guy who stood you up, where you meet him?"
"Online." I murmured.
"This your first meeting?"
"Yeah." I sighed.
He laughed again. "Chin up son, there's loads of fakes online. Hell, half the boys I arrange to meet never show up either. Don't worry about it. You're a good looking kid."
"Thanks man."