After school, I walked out to the parking lot and toward the car I shared with my twin brother, Will. I couldn't wait to get out of there and start the vacation. I wasn't surprised by the number of people who had heard that I had sucked Tyler's dick during history class, but it had been annoying getting the questions about it in the halls between classes and even more annoying having guys come up to ask me to suck them off, too. While I might have taken some of them up on their offers, it was the mocking way they did it that made it bothersome.
I approached the car from the back due to the way it was parked and saw Will already in the driver's seat waiting. When I opened the door, his head turned to me and I saw barely restrained anger on his face.
"Tell me it's not true," he said through clenched teeth.
"Don't tell Mom and Dad. Please." My voice openly conveyed my fear. Despite my words, I didn't fear my parents finding out I was gay. Pretty much everyone knew though I had never said it. I was afraid of what Will might do to me.
Even though we were identical, Will had more lean muscle on his body from his time on the soccer team. His blonde hair was longer and displayed our natural curls in piles of whorls on his head. We got along very well, but like most siblings we occasionally had some serious fights and the look on his face told me I was about to get my ass kicked like never before.
"I don't give a fuck about Mom and Dad," he said trying not to yell. "You sucked Tyler's dick. In front of the whole school."
While I wanted to correct him, I knew better than to make the situation worse. "I'm sorry."
"You're sorry? That's all you got?"
I turned my head away and looked out the window trying to hold back my tears. Of everything I had thought of at the time, I hadn't considered how sucking Tyler's dick would affect my brother. Like his teammate, Will was a fairly popular guy and what I did would most likely negatively affect his reputation even though he wasn't involved.
On the other side of the car, Will said nothing as he started the vehicle and drove us home. We were quiet the entire trip, which thankfully didn't last too long.
"Fix your face," he said harshly as we pulled into the driveway. "And you better stay out of my way for a while."
I did.
Unlike most of our classmates, our family didn't travel for spring break due to our parents' work schedules. I avoided Will as much as I could even though we shared a room. Thankfully, he was generally only home for meals which made it easy. Bedtime, however, was tense. After two days, I found it easier to retire early and lay in my bed facing the wall in order to avoid the angry glances and not so gentle shoves he gave me if I was near him. Normally I would have fought back but I understood his anger and was still fearful of our parents finding out what I had done.
The weekend before our return to school, I could sense his growing frustration and began to worry that he was really going to beat the shit out of me. And as we drove to school Monday morning, the tension and his rage were palpable in the confines of the car. He also seemed a little sad but I was in no position to try to ask about it or comfort him.
As he pulled into the school's parking lot, he said, "I love you, bro, and will always go to bat for you. But if I get fucked over today because of what you did, Mom and Dad finding out will be the least of your worries."
Not daring to open my mouth, I nodded my understanding.
In hindsight, we both should have known it was not going to be an issue. With the weeklong break in between, what I had done had been forgotten and no one, even in history class, brought it up. Conversations were focused on what happened over the break, who was dating who now, and who had broken up. Combined with the revelation that one of the cheerleaders was pregnant, my public blow job didn't rank in the school's list of scandal. Even Tyler behaved as if it never happened. He ignored me in the same manner he usually did when I entered the classroom.
"You lucked out on this one," Will said as I met him at the car after school.
"I know," I said hesitantly.
After we were on our way home, he continued, "Look, I don't care about you being gay and doing gay things. Suck as many dicks as you want. Fuck 'em, too. Just stay away from my friends, please. Especially Tyler. And don't do it where anyone else will see. Not just because I don't want to hear about it, but because that was just fucking stupid, dude. I can't even imagine the trouble you would have been in if you had been caught."
"You're right. I really am sorry, Will." My spirits lifted somewhat when I felt him punch my leg. It wasn't hard, just a fraternal show of affection.
"I know. We're cool." He let out a chuckle and shook his head. "I cannot believe you sucked a dick in the middle of class. Who does that? Are you that hard up, bro, or are you just a cock sucking whore?"
Though his word choice left something to be desired, I knew he had forgiven me.