"Hurry up Tracy, we're going to be late" my brother Callen bellowed up the stairs.
"Travelling" I hollered back grabbing my hockey bag and sticks as I head through the open bedroom door and down the stairs. My brother is standing by the front door all intimidating at 6'3", and about 200 pounds all muscle, his hair dark blonde and curly but cut and sat perfectly, his tongue just poking through his white perfectly straight teeth, (this tells me he is a tad annoyed with me) with his hockey bag and stick in one hand and the other on his hip with the keys hanging from his thumb, giving me the 'You're a pain in my ass' stare. Me on the other hand, I have unruly curly blonde hair, white but not perfectly straight teeth, am barely 6'1", lean with a little definition not because I exercise but because I am always slogging around wood and metal daily. I just grinned, opened the door and skipped out to his red Ford 250, threw my gear in the tub of the truck and hopped into the passenger seat.
As we're driving to the ice rink I looked over at my brother while he concentrated on the road, taking in how much older and tired he seemed these days. He's always so serious lately and wears a permanent frown like the answer to life is just one thought away. When we were younger he was always so much fun, taking me places with his friends or just by ourselves. Back then he wore a perpetual smile and laughed a lot. I wish I knew what he was thinking now so I could make things a little easier for him. I'd give anything for him to be happy again. If anyone deserved a break or some happiness it's him.
When I was in my senior year of high school our parents were killed in a wreck and Callen was just starting Law School at Harvard. He's a smart cookie and makes me look like a walking plank of wood in the brains department. After the funeral my brother decided to transfer to Duke and stay in Durham so I could finish high school with my friends. I didn't think about it at the time but I'm pretty sure it was a huge sacrifice for him and he didn't have to do it. If I remember correctly he'd had a girlfriend and a future they had mapped out together. However he went up to Harvard to collect his belongings and returned. After Callen came back from Harvard there was never another mention of his previous life at school or the girlfriend. If I brought it up his eyes would just glaze over and he would turn the subject of conversation back to me without my knowledge. Callen is crafty no wonder he became a lawyer. He threw himself into looking after us and going to school. I selfishly went back to school and never skipped a beat of my life thanks to my brother's sacrifice he made it as easy as possible for me. God I love my brother. Every day it amazes me how wonderful and how big Callen's heart is, especially considering how much I complicate his life. I don't really remember him dating much if at all or having a social life since my folks died. I'm not even sure he had time to grieve. Thankfully our parents had been good with their money and assets. We were able to keep the house we grew up in and there was enough money to pay for Law School and Art School for me.
After school had finished for us both, Callen went to work at some affluent law firm in Charlotte. Taking a wild guess that he is very good at his job, he has just been promoted to a Junior Partner and moved to a bigger office in Florida so he moved us both. At first I refused to go, I could look after myself is the argument I presented. He insisted we are family and I was moving and staying together. After a lot of back and forth I gave in and so here we are in the State of the Sauna.
I looked pensively at my brother and asked "Do you regret moving back home and taking care of me?"
"Not for one second bud." He turned and smiled at me, reached over and squeezed my shoulder. "What brought that on?"
"I don't know" I stared down at my feet and mumbled "it just seems like you have had to sacrifice a lot and haven't received much in return."
"Are you kidding me, I've had the pleasure of watching you emerge into this amazing man. Tracy, you are kind, thoughtful, intelligent and so creative. I envy that about you. You're also fearless when you go after something you want to achieve and not mention handsome, of course you take after me in that department" He chuckled and settled on a mischievous grin and followed up with. "I didn't think I would make it through your senior year of high school but other than that you've made it a pretty easy job."
"Uhh!...Yeah!, sorry about that who knew my best friend of 10 years Matthew Mack and his A-hole of a father would be such homophobic, hateful pricks." I said bitterly and then chuckled a little before adding "Who by the way, according to Facebook, is now in a relationship with someone named Chad."
Callen stared at me for a second. Then looked back to the road and out of nowhere he hooted and just about wet himself laughing whilst trying to say. "I wish I had been there when SenΓ³r Mack found out, after the hell they put you through and had you kicked off of the hockey team."
I was laughing at his laugh. God I love my brother. "I went and looked through the pictures and videos he uploaded and 'Chad' is flamboyant, effeminate and I'm pretty sure he was wearing eye makeup." I told my brother. He was now slapping his leg, trying to breathe, laugh and drive at the same time. If he was going to kill us on the road, now would be a good time so the last thing I saw was my brother laughing. I've missed that laugh. But I'm not ready to go yet. Sooo I grabbed the steering wheel so he could get himself together.
Once he had settled down he looked over to me and smiled and said "I love you bud".
I returned the smile with "I love you too Callen".
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Thankfully his best friend from high school Alex Blundell ended up here in the State of the Sauna after college. Everyone calls him 'Chewy', so at least we know one person well at least my brother does. From what I remember of Chewy he was this big bear of a guy about 6"4', dark brown hair every wear and ungroomed, slobby dresser, totally obnoxious and for some reason a girl repellent. Go figure. And for some reason thought it was cool to call me Tracy or girly girl in a girly voice. I think it used to bug him that Callen was happy to take me wherever they went as long as he got me home before my curfew. Once he got his licence we would hang out all day and then he would drop me home before my curfew and then they would go out with Chewy again. I would always complain to my Mum about Callen taking out his furry creature instead of me. She would chuckle and say 'be nice'.
Chewy had organised for us to join his hockey team as soon as we moved here and today is our first game. We pulled into the parking lot at the ice rink and as Callen turned the truck off, I turned to him and said "I hope that hairy beast of a friend of yours doesn't start his usual crap with me I'm not twelve any more I don't have to take it."
We hopped out of the truck and as we were grabbing our gear from the tub he looked over squinted his eyes at me, sighed, and kind of demanded in his lawyerly way "Tracy it's been 10 years let it go, I'm pretty sure he isn't the same person he was then. Don't forget he didn't have to help us get into this league. Also we will be going back to his place after the game for BBQ with the team. Just give him a chance. You'll see he is not the same. It's been a long time. Can you do that?"
"Alright, I'll try. I promise. Just don't tell him I'm gay I don't think I could take the ongoing torture and harassment from him." Hopefully pleading my case to Callen for some backup.