Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me
Lifehouse ---- Hanging by a Moment
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A pair of large limestone obelisks marked the driveway; I pulled in and stopped the GTI between them. The drive of fresh pea gravel ran straight back towards a large forecourt paved with rough granite cobblestones. The house reared up just beyond, a substantial brick five bay Richmond neo-Georgian, circa 1938. Slate roof sporting five ample dormers; copper gutters and drains. Wide chimneys rising from high gables. Matching one level wings stretched out from both sides. Authentic working shutters gleamed in a dark hunter green gloss, as did the big front door. Splendid broken pediment door surround, with ample Doric pilasters, sidelights and transom of leaded glass. Everything shone with obsessive maintenance and pride; discreetly substantial, cooly welcoming, effortlessly tasteful. It was the home I had known since the sixth grade with Vera and Jasper; my stepmother and father.
I turned to Anders whose wide eyes with raised brows were taking in the scene.
"Whoa. Fuck all the way around, Trav! This is...a lot!" he said with some apprehension.
I took his big warm hand in mine. "You can breathe now. It is just a house, with hallways and bathtubs and sofas and shit. You would not be here if I thought you could not handle this. Plus, I love you all the way down to your extra wide furry feet, werewolf boy, and that is just a fact certain. I will have your back every minute. Just be yourself and they will adore you."
"Thanks Trav, I love you too. I will do my best." Anders said softly. Back in gear, the GTI crunched the pea gravel as we rolled slowly towards the forecourt and the long weekend.
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Three weeks previous, I was hanging out with Griffin, sprawled back on the plaid dumpster sofa in his flat. We were sporadically blazing a spliff while watching an obscure Joan Crawford film called 'Flamingo Road'. Joan and her eyebrows played a feisty displaced carney dancer who marries up. Murder and mayhem ensue, but Joan hung onto her man and all her shit. Not Joan's best, but not bad either.
"I am taking Anders home to Richmond for Easter weekend." Grif gave me his look of mock horror.
"Whoa. Are you sure about that?" he paused the film.
"Yeah, It is time. Anders wants to go and he will do great. Are you going home to Mobile?"
"No. I waited too late and the flights got too expensive. Mom is pissed; she told me I can sit here alone and eat cheap Ramen noodles out of the microwave. Fuckin' family. Oh well." Grif sighed.
"Do you wanna come to Richmond with us?" I asked.
"Hell no, but thanks. You need to be there with Anders sans any distraction like me. Besides, Vera don't want my white trash Bama butt on her flawless Sheraton dinning chairs. I will eat from Saphire Thai, get LAX Jose and Caleb stupid-high and try to coax them into a threesome." he clowned.
"That sounds really good, actually." I laughed. "Can I just do Easter here with you? Make it a foursome?"
"Nope. You guys need to do this. It is time." Grif was serious. "Prep Anders. Thoroughly. Make it a really good weekend for him. Do not let Vera and Jasper scare him off," he advised. Shrewd wisdom wrapped in bad boy scruffiness.
Anders arrived, pink and grinning from the gym. Ringer tee, old sweatpants with undone drawstring big hangin' up front. His very presence and physicality lofted me, like a magic carpet. He and Grif did their ritualized team jock-bro shoulder hug thing with fist bumps, which always made me smile.
"Hey Trav...." leaning over the back of the sofa kissing me while Grif fetched us all three cold bottles of Amstel. We settled back on the sofa, Grif pulled over his desk chair. "We need to get you a real chair, Grif. Do some dumpster diving; we've been out of the hunt lately. The lesbians have all our best spots by now." Anders teased Grif.
"Yeah, or maybe just go to a regular store." Grif mused.
"Now you sound more bougie than stepmomster Vera. Always be true to your roots." I mocked Grif.
"Yeah, Trav? Be true to this root." he stood, grabbed his junk in loose gym shorts and shook it my direction, laughing.
"Any ol' time, Bama boy!" I shot back while taking Anders' hand.
We settled down, slurping Amstel, passing the spliff with no sense of urgency in even keeping the thing lit.
"Trav, what clothes do I need for Easter, I mean what should I be wearing?" Anders looked at me, eyebrows raised, blondish cinnamon scruff right next to his pink velvet lips.