I was a virgin, well in one way I was. I'd been with girls, and I liked being with girls, I also like wanking. I wanked a lot, but then again I think all men do.
I was 19 and the internet to me was a world of porn, yes there was other stuff on it too, although I think there's more now than there used to be.
When I think of the time I used to spend connected to the web, at least 90% was porn related. Now with shopping, social media and news sites, its more like 20% porn related. On my favourite porn video site, the first screen always asked if you were over 18, and the next whether you wanted straight or gay. I always clicked straight and then started my search for the dirtiest gang bangs. I loved and still love seeing a woman or women getting gang banged senseless.
It was the sound of the grunting from the men, the guttural moans of the women, the sound of flesh on flesh and squelch of their cum filled pussies taking another pounding, from yet another dick stretching their holes further. It made me hornier and hornier. The videos where they looked drunk on sex were the best, where they let go of all their inhibitions, where they seemed to love it in any hole, harder the better.
Then sometimes where there were two girls getting fucked, sharing the same dicks, sucking and fucking them all and sharing the cum that flowed into their mouths or even better, out of their used Ass holes. Then one day one of the videos took a bit of a turn. One guy was fucking this girl missionary, while she licked and fingered another girl's asshole, and when the camera panned back round it was no longer a girl having her bum hole licked, and fingered, it was a guy, and he seemed to be loving it.
As I watched this I slipped a finger over my premium leaking dick, and circled my hole before working my finger inside. I came so hard and so much that I swear I saw stars.
A few hours later I went for another wank and thought fuck it, and clicked on the button that said gay. It was strange though, as I started to get more into seeing men fucking men, it was the older men fucking the younger ones that I was drawn to more. It was especially the ones with older couples of males and females taking turns with a 20 something year old, that I got off on most, and as I watched, I became more convinced that I wanted to be taking it rather than giving it.
A few days later I plucked up the courage to go into one of the local 'sex' shops. It was full of videos, but thats not what I was I looking for, I wanted a toy. As I wandered up and down the aisles of videos I was feeling really self-conscious even though I was the only person there, except for the attendant/owner who was sat behind the till. Then his voice rang out and startled me as this man in his 50s asked if I was looking for anything in particular. I felt my cheeks go red and I kind of stuttered and fumbled the words out, that I was ok and just looking. he said no problem and if I needed anything he was here to help. I was lost in thought and stopped walking. I just stood there in front of the shelf and stared at the DVD covers, without even taking in the pictures or titles. As I stood there with thoughts of panic rushing through my head and trying to calm myself down I started to compose myself and ran through things in my head.
1. Being in here was fine.
2. This guys must have seen thousands of people come through his door over the years.
3. Why dont I just ask him if he sells toys here and if not, where else does,
And then I felt a presence. He was no longer sat behind his desk, he was next to me. And then I realised I was facing the gay DVDs.
My cheeks went redder, I felt them burning and then I got butterflies in my tummy as he picked up the one in front of me and said it was one of his favorites and that its about youngsters having their first times.
I reached out and took it from him and agreed that it sounded good.
I didnt want that one at all, I didnt want any DVD, I could see similar stuff for free on the internet without the risk of leaving the incriminating evidence around the house for my parents or friends to see. I followed him to the counter and as he searched through the draw for the right disc for the case, he asked if there was anything else I wanted, the words left my mouth before I'd even processed them...
'I'm looking for a toy'
he smiled and led me to a curtain at the side of the counter and pulled the curtain to the side and I strode through into a room full everything imaginable.