Disclaimer: Hey guys! I decided to spread out the remaining story in two chapters to give you all a little more content. For all of you expecting to see the wife, sorry she won't be making an appearance. I want to keep this story just about Cory and Nick. Please let me know what you guys think. Any and all feedback is greatly appreciated. I'm still working on catching all the errors in my writing so please bear with me. Final chapter is in the works. Thanks for reading.
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CHAPTER 9: Promises that can't be kept.
I didn't bother telling Cory about my confrontation with Connor. I knew that any word of it would only bring two of us into a similar argument and truth be told, I was tired of arguing. The ride back from Ty's was quiet. I spoke enough so that Cory didn't think something was wrong. But I couldn't let go of Connor's words: someone had to get hurt. It was either going to be me, kicking myself for starting something I couldn't finish and having to walk away from the one person who actually made me feel alive. Or maybe it was going to be his wife, the only one out of all of us who was completely innocent. She didn't deserve that, and for a moment, I felt guilt. Or it would be Cory- the man who found himself spread too thin, straddling a yellow line between two very different lives. Only time would tell who it would be.
As we pulled into Cory's driveway, I looked over to my house, knowing my parents would be away. Normally that would serve as an invitation to hang out longer, but I wasn't up for it. We sat there for a few minutes, listening to the Arctic Monkey's song that played off Cory's radio. He looked over, grabbing my hand in his, "Nick, are you okay?"
I looked over, snapping out of my own daydream, "Yeah I'm good. Just got a little caught up in my own head- happens sometimes." I let out a chuckle, trying to play off the honesty in that admission.
He gripped tighter, trying to find my eyes, "It's just- you've been quiet since we left Ty's. And we're kinda just sitting here." He caught them, piercing me with his stark greens, asking, "Are you still thinking about the other day- when you called me?"
I quickly replied back, "No- no that's not it." Swallowing down a hard half-truth. I looked over at him, running my hand on his thigh, offering, "I'm just nervous about tomorrow. First day jitters, you know?" He nodded.
I continued, "I'm just scared it's not gonna work out." And there it was, the needle of truth hidden within a haystack of lies. I wanted to tell him that work was the least of my worries. But at that time, it seemed like the best excuse I could come up with.
He gripped my hands tighter, softening his face into a reassuring smile. "It's gonna work out", he stated. And I agreed, wishing he wasn't just talking about the job.
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At half past six, my alarm went off. It didn't wake me up, rather it told me that I had been awake for two hours already. I memorized the pattern of my popcorn ceiling and watched the sun slowly brighten from dark blue to yellow- desperately trying not to dwell on my own inhibitions. Still, I was determined to start today anew. Today was about work and I knew that my problems with Cory would still be there when I clock out at five. Part of me needed to know that even if it wouldn't work out, I'd still be okay. So I chose to be okay. Even if I forced myself to be so. I progressed from a shower to a change into freshly pressed clothes to breakfast. Hell, I even caught myself actually laughing through my dad's whole "You're now a working adult" speech rather than feigning humor, as I previously did.
After my parents left for work, I sat there at the kitchen counter for a second, just taking it all in. I was about to grab my bag and head out the door when I heard a knock. Opening it, I found Cory standing there, dressed in a camouflage green that rivalled his eyes. He stepped closer, taking off his cap and placing it on his heart as if he was swearing to every god there ever was. He grinned, "Damn Grayson, you clean up nice."
I chuckled, "I could say the same for you. Green is definitely your color." I darted my eyes away for a second. Something as simple as eye contact with him had a drastic track record of turning into something more.
He blushed, muttering, "Aw shucks."
I stood there for a minute before letting him in. It felt nice- comforting even to just be around him. God knows that yesterday was a train wreck I didn't see coming. But somehow it didn't feel like that this morning. At five feet away, he stood dangerously close to me. Like even an inch of movement could break my walls, leaving him flooding into me.
He looked over at my keys, "Hey, I wasn't interrupting you was I? I was about to head off to work myself, but I wanted to come over and see you on your first day."
I shrugged, "No no, I still have a few minutes before I have to head out." I gripped his wrists, continuing, "I'm glad you came by." And with that sentence, I felt a single drop of his being sneak past my barriers.
Leaning in, I closed the gap between us, pressing his uniform against my thin shirt, still able to feel the warmth of his body on me. I leaned in for a kiss, inhaling his aftershave as my lips met his. I let out a soft moan as I felt his hands roam down my side before resting at the small of my back. Pressing my tongue against his lips, I practically begged him to let me in. And he did, but only for a moment before pulling away slightly.
He breathed out, "As much as I would love..." he raised his voice in emphasis "love... to continue... I actually came here to give you something".
I stood there as he pulled out a small box from one of the many pockets in his pants. He presented it to me with a sheepish grin. For a second, he seemed embarrassed, like he, being a macho guy, wasn't allowed to show small acts of courtship. I took the box, opening it as he explained, "It's a tie. My dad's a traditional, born and raised in the South. He told me that you weren't really a man until you wore a tie. Now I know it's a part of some twisted old school logic, but think of it as a symbol. You're not a kid anymore Nick."
I took in those words. Subtly shaking my head at how often I had been hearing more or less of those words in the past few days. Taking the box, I held on with one hand, "Thanks Cory. I really appreciate it- I really do." Pulling it out, I felt the soft fabric against my skin. I looked up to find him analyzing me, trying to determine if I actually liked it or if I was just being polite. I supressed his worries, offering, "It matches my shirt. Why don't I put it on? Hopefully it could bring some luck."
He raised his hand up, rubbing the back of his head, "You really don't have to."
I protested, assuring, "No, I want to." I saw his face soften to a smile as I pulled up my collar, swinging the tie around the back of my neck and tying it into a double Windsor. He raised an eyebrow, impressed at my abilities.