The easiest part of this challenging task was over. Aaron's parents knew. They knew and they still loved him and were guardedly optimistic about this relationship with Fred. Fred had not forgotten what Rob had said about him and his track record with relationships. It was true that he hadn't had any long-term relationships with anyone really.
He would date women for a while but when it started to get serious, when they got too close and began to notice the weak points in his carefully constructed armor, he would cut them lose before they could decide to leave him.
Aaron knew all the weak points, knew most of his sore spots and knew the history of them. And it didn't scare Fred that Aaron already knew them all. It was strange but it was true that Fred wasn't afraid of Aaron's knowledge of him. He knew, even after only a few days, Aaron wouldn't leave him out of the blue.
At first, he had chaffed at Rob's comments about his lack of commitment and declaration that he might possibly jerk Aaron around. If it hadn't been for Vicky inadvertently lightening the mood by revealing that Aaron didn't know how to do his own laundry, Fred might have brooded over it the whole way home. As it was, he only started brooding once he pulled his car into a parking spot in front of his apartment building.
"I should probably go home tonight," Aaron sighed. Fred looked up at him.
"Why?" Fred asked.
"I haven't spent the night at home since we got back from Vegas," Aaron said. Fred shrugged.
"So," he said. Aaron regarded him for a second.
"Do you want me to stay?" Aaron asked. Fred's face flushed and he fiddled with his keys.
"Yeah," he said staring down at his keys. Aaron reached over and put a hand to Fred's face.
"Freddie, what's up? I thought tonight went really well," Aaron said. Fred snorted.
"Yeah, it did, except your dad thinks I'm a piece of shit," Fred moped. Aaron blinked.
"He does not think you are a piece of shit," Aaron said. He gripped Fred's chin, turning his face so their eyes met.
"Hey, you're not a piece of shit." Fred's eyes shimmered for a second and he swallowed hard. Aaron released his chin, caressing his fingers slowly up Fred's clenched jaw.
"I don't think you're a piece of shit," Aaron said. Fred sighed and nuzzled into Aaron's hand.
"Do you want to stay tonight?" Fred asked. Aaron glanced at his watch, which read 8pm.
"I'll come up for a while," he said. "Let's just see where the night takes us." Aaron smiled trying to get Fred to perk up. Fred just nodded and the men made their way up to Fred's apartment.
Fred was in the kitchen grabbing the two lonely beers from the fridge before he and Aaron turned on a show to watch together, that would probably go ignored as they cuddled on the couch.
"You know it's not too late on the west coast," Aaron said tentatively. The fridge door swung shut and Fred closed his eyes, turning his face up to the ceiling. He rolled his head forward and blew out a breath.
"Yeah, I know," he said. Aaron noted the strain in his voice.
"Never mind," he said, shaking his head. "Let's just get something on the TV. What do you feel like? Horror?" Fred flopped on the couch next to Aaron and handed him a beer.
"I know what you were going to say," Fred said.
"I know you know Freddie. But I also know, you're probably feeling a lot of anxiety about it so I'm not going to push it. We can do it later." Aaron shrugged and sipped from his beer. Fred slung his arm over his shoulders and kissed him on his temple.
"I appreciate that, but I also hear you. We're on a roll, right? We might as well get it over with." Fred put his beer on a coaster. Aaron put his on the table. Fred grimaced and put it on a coaster.
"Sorry," Aaron said. "We really don't have to tell him tonight." Fred nodded and leaned forward, his elbows on his knees.
"Telling your parents was... weirder than I thought it would be. And I know it's going to be so much worse with my mom. But my dad..." Fred paused and looked away into nothing for a second. "I think my dad will be OK. So why don't we just do it?" Aaron studied Fred's face.
"Are you sure?" Aaron wished he hadn't brought it up. He'd been feeling encouraged by his parents' reaction and was riding the high from that success. He felt like he had pushed Fred too far. But Fred only nodded and pulled his phone from his pocket.
He held the phone in his hand, scrolling through his contacts to his dad's number.
"I'm going to call him then put him on speaker so we can talk to him together," Fred said, his knee was bouncing up and down rapidly. His stomach turned as he pressed the call button. Aaron put his hand gently on Fred's knee.
"I'm right here, Freddie," he said quietly. Fred smiled at him tightly, but his knee stopped bouncing and he put his hand over Aaron's squeezing tightly.
"Hi dad," Fred said then paused. "Yeah, good. It was fun." Another pause and Fred took a deep breath.
"So, there's actually something I need to tell you. I'm going to put you on speaker, OK?" A pause and Fred nodded then cradled the phone in his hand, thumbing the speaker button.
"Can you hear me?" he asked and immediately felt a horrible sense of foreboding wash through him.
"Yeah, I can," his dad said. "What's up?" There was a tinge of worry in the question.
"So, uhm, Aaron is here with me," Fred said. He looked at Aaron his eyes bugging, he mouthed the word 'fuck' and clasped a hand to his forehead, before dragging it down his cheek. Aaron shook his head and rubbed his knee reassuringly; he was doing fine.
"Oh, hey Aaron!"
"Hi Paul, how's California?" Aaron asked brightly.
"Nice and warm. What's this thing you need to tell me Fred?" Paul asked.
Normally, he would have made more conversation, but Fred was making him nervous. He'd never heard his son so on edge, so out of sorts as if he didn't know what to say. Fred always had something to say, even if it wasn't always the right or best thing to say.