But I expressed it was for me the most wonderful thing to do, that I had always liked him and yearned to be intimate.
He looked surprised and perhaps relieved at the same time -I could tell something was going through his mind.
"Penny for them?" I asked inquisitively.
"It is just that being with you, Alex I find it a wonderful new experience, that I am realising something of myself that I have for a long time not understood, but Alex, you have really brought me out and I want to show you just how grateful I am. Is there anything I can do for you, like what you have done for me?"
Of course I wanted that, to enjoy the feel of another doing it for you is wonderful, because doing it yourself can never be the same, because you are able to anticipate moves and touches and besides, as much as I have tried, and it is quite funny thinking about it now, I could never suck myself off.
I told James this, we needed to understand each other, our mutual desires, our wants. I wanted to know if he was a taker or a giver, I wanted him to he a giver because the female hormones inside me were overruling the male ones I knew that - and had often wondered how it would be to be a girl.
Imagine the relief and happiness when James said he'd prefer to give, that he loved the thought of that. And that was the prelude to a so wonderful new relationship.
He told me how he had always longed secretly to be with another guy, and a guy like me. And as he started to make love with me I soon realised his deep carnal wanting - loving his explorations as he explored me, his delightful tongue working between the crevice of my hind, the feel of his hands actually stretching and the feeling of knowing he actually wanted me there, all the time I pricked him up, that is how he wanted it, he said so in those words, and he said also that he wanted to see my all and feel the squeeze of my hole as it took good hard prick deep inside so that he could really fuck me silly.
How wonderful it was to be all ass for him, it was an experience so new and so wonderful I was in my heaven. The feel of Alex so wonderfully teasing and touching me, the feel of his tongue and lips probing my being For those next few days we found each other, got to know everything about each other, different ways of doing things was always so very exciting to the core and now my ass has been fully initiated and constantly serviced with the full thrilling fuck of James, and the things you would hardly imagine, like when he has me full spread over the edge of the dining table, the way he just stops in mid fuck and holds me so steadfast, then I know why - he is loving to feel our mutual throb of each others fuck deep up inside, and all the time his strong hands groping, nudging and squeezing my ass cheeks, stretching them wide apart, as he did when he started to take me over the table, his mouth lavishly enjoying into my hole, his tongue working there, his mouth sucking me there, all these things revving me up to the full quality of his fuck of me. I wanted that and so much, I simply wanted to be all ass for him, all everything for him - we'd do it all sorts of ways, back, front, me on top, balling him as he fucked, him alike me in the scissor position was nice too And afterwards our sessions in the shower were just perfect.
With his frequent fucks and his 'seeing to' as he loved to call them, when he planted me across his knee for the occasional light spanking he knew I enjoyed as a pre- fuck experience, sometimes he loved to do it when I wore my tightest of tight blue brush jeans and other times, according to his moods, he wanted me in boxer shorts when he'd massage baby oil into the redness of my fresh spanked ass - and having gotten an extreme hard-on, planted me on all fours on the rich pile red carpet and fucked the ass off me
With James it is so nice. After our wonderful sessions I still feel him inside me for ages and feel so good that I have given him the thrill and happiness we both share. Even that taste of him in my mouth after I have sucked him. Imagining the sniff of him still there in my nostrils.
I guess I shall never ever tire of James. And you now guess what?, he says he has got some handcuffs to experiment with.
Such relationships as mine and James's evolve more and more with new experiences that we both what and enjoy. Watch this space ...