Our sex life pretty much ended after my wife started to cheat on me. She and I had never had sex before we were married, so we were all that each of us knew. After a few years of marriage she was seduced by a co-worker who introduced her to real sex and it was like a light turned on for her. She started to crave sex and when her behavior in the bedroom changed I quickly figured out that she had been exposed to a different perspective of sex outside of our marriage. When I confronted her, asking her where her new-found knowledge came from, she readily admitted that she had been cheating on me with a guy from work and she had no intention of stopping. In fact, she said that she was trying to find other guys to be with so she could expand her sexual horizons.
Crestfallen, I tried what I could to ignite any kind of sexual spark between us, but that ship had sailed. She claimed that she still loved me and had no desire to leave me, but that she was not sexually excited by me at all. I had basically two choices; leave her or find a way to deal with the situation. We had made a pretty good life together which I had no desire to walk away from. Over the first few weeks after I fully realized that I was never going to get her back to monogamy I satisfied myself by searching out porn and masturbation.
Initially the porn that excited me was straight, one on one sex. It migrated towards porn centered on blowjobs (straight blowjobs, glory holes etc.). After some time I began to experience a change in my mentality towards what I was watching on the screen. I slowly morphed from imagining myself as the guy getting sucked to the girl giving the blowjob. I started to become more and more focused on the cock in the scene and more and more imagining myself as the one giving the BJ. I tried watching some gay blowjob scenes but I found zero attraction to any of the guys. Only the cocks. Subconsciously I began to fantasize about giving blowjobs to strangers, but I knew I would never do something like that.
I usually got home before my wife and since she has been having affairs with more guys her schedule has been completely unpredictable. She comes and goes to no set schedule. Because I was usually home alone, I took to masturbation more frequently and I worried less and less about her catching me in the act. Frequently I forgot to lock the door to my office where I wanked at my desk while watching porn on my computer.
One evening, I was sitting in front of my computer watching cock-sucking hypnosis porn and stroking my dick. I was getting close to cumming when I heard a noise behind me. Just as I was but to cum I turned my head to see my wife standing in the doorway holding hands with a large black man.
"Don't mind us honey, go ahead and finish what you were doing."
I hadn't stopped stroking my dick, and I came all over my hand. I was embarrassed to be caught jerking off in front of my wife and this stranger. I turned away from them to hide my shame. My wife grabbed the back of my chair nd turned me back around to face them both.
"Oooh, that looks yummy. Go ahead and clean it up."
As I reached for the tissues, she said, "No, no! I said it looks YUMMY. Go ahead and clean it up with your mouth. Don't let it go to waste."
Believe it or not, I had never tasted my own cum but I had always wanted to try, so I brought my hand to my mouth and licked some off my fingers.
"Go on, lick it all off, but don't swallow it yet."
I licked and slurped until I had a mouthful of my own cum. I played with it in my mouth for a minute and she said, "Show me."
I instantly obeyed, opening my mouth and pooling all of the cum on my tongue and showing it off like the prize it was.
"OK, now you can swallow it."
"Did you like that?"
I nodded sheepishly.
"Oh wait! Where are my manners? Let me introduce you to my friend, James. James delivers water to our office and we have become friendly over the past few weeks."
"We have been fucking in his car as often as we can and I just decided that since you and I haven't had sex in so long you wouldn't mind that I brought him home to 'spice thing up'"
"I was on your computer the other day and saw your browser history with all this sissy porn. Is that what you like?"
I could see where this was possibly headed, but I was hoping against hope that she was just trying to tease me. Again, the sheepish nod.
"Now, you know how much I dislike giving blowjobs, and of course James loves them just like every other guy."
(Oh no! please don't go there.)