As for Matt and Josh, my father had no words of wisdom for me. Josh never stayed mad at me for more than a few hours, but the fact that he moved out without telling me was heartbreaking, even more so than Matt being mad at me. Relationships may come and go, but best friends—those are the people you really need. Unfortunately, both had blown up pretty badly for me at this point.
By the time my father dropped me off again, I felt much better about things. I had a game plan, and I was a little less hurt by all the stuff that had happened with Matt. It helped to have an uninvolved, objective third-party hear things out and tell me their opinions. My father had made it clear he would be supportive, no matter what happened. However, he was dead set on the fact that I had to go to graduation for some closure before I could start my summer. He had pretty much told me that running away to Italy was a terrible idea, but if I still felt that way after I finished school, he would help me make it happen.
I managed to make it across campus without being noticed again, but I was still relieved when I finally made it to my room. Shutting the door behind me was even more of a relief, until I flipped on the light and found Matt sitting on my bed, staring up at me with those damn puppy dog eyes I found so irresistible. "What are you doing here?" I sighed as I set my stuff on my desk. "I told you I don't want to talk to you."
"If you don't talk to me, I can't explain to you what happened, and you'll stay mad at me forever." He answered. The calmness in his voice irritated me. How can he be so relaxed when he literally just turned my word upside down? I stared at him, unable to find any words that I could use to retaliate against that statement. Of course I was mad at him! How could he honestly think that I wasn't going to be mad at him? "I didn't do anything with Adam." He finally broke the tense silence between us. "And I know you didn't send that email." He added.
"You do?" I asked, unable to control the squeak in my voice.
"Of course I do." He returned, pushing himself off the bed and coming towards me. "Jay, you really think that I would do that to you? I was trying to keep Adam from making things worse."
I stared down at my hand, where he had taken it in both of his. His giant hands looked like paws wrapped around my slender fingers, and I couldn't help but smile at it. "I don't understand why you would do that though. If you knew it was a lie, why would you let him treat me like that? You shoved me out of your room and told me you never wanted to talk to me again. No part of that is okay, no matter what the excuse is."
"I really was trying to protect you." He told me, the sad tone back in his voice. "I didn't really think about how it would effect you. I kind of figured it would be enough to make Adam think we were done, and he would leave you alone."
"Yeah, too bad he outed me to the entire school during my exam today. He was kind enough to block you, though, so you don't have to worry about your precious reputation."
"What are you talking about? I know that video only went to me. I saw the email. He was just messing with us."
I shook my head. "There was a different video that went up while I was in my exam. It froze the whole system and everyone got to watch me perform various things with you. But don't worry, Adam had the decency to cover your face so no one knows it was you." I pulled away from him and moved over to my bed. "You chose to back yourself up. You can say whatever you want about wanting to protect me, but you had your own interests in mind, just like you always do. I have spent this whole semester living in the shadows for you, and I was the one who got hurt by all of it. I went to your room because I was freaking out, and you reacted by shoving me out. I can't stress that enough. I don't care what Adam was going to do to me. We could have faced it together, and instead, you ultimately protected yourself."
"Jay, it's really not like that. I didn't know about the other video."
"I tried to tell you!" I snapped, and he winced at my harsh tone.
He sighed and moved closer to me on the bed. I felt my heart rate increase as he got near, as if my body wanted what my brain should be telling it to ignore. There seemed to be a major disconnect in communication between the two at the moment. I wanted to be really mad at him, but just his presence was enough to make me go crazy with desire. My body loved Matt as much as my mind did, especially one certain body part. I watched silently as Matt climbed onto the bed with me and pulled me close to him. I wish I could say I resisted even a tiny bit, but really, I didn't even put up an ounce of a fight. I let him wrap his arms around me and hold me close to him as he trailed kisses down my neck. "I'm so sorry he did that to you." Matt murmured between kisses. He nipped at the pulse along my neck before soothing the skin with a swipe of his tongue and another kiss. "I wouldn't have acted that way if I knew. I really thought I was helping you." He moved his mouth up to my jawline and I sighed as I relished in the feeling he was giving me. All blood was rushing south, and it was hard to remember why I was upset in the first place. Matt gently pushed me down onto my back and settled above me, hovering just inches from my face. I glanced at his lips, cursing him for having such a perfect mouth I couldn't resist. "I mean it, Jay. I love you. I'm so in love with you. Adam means nothing to me."
"I believe you." I whispered. I'm not sure why I caved so easily. Maybe it was the fact that I was in love. Maybe it was the fact that I was stupid. Either way, my heart belonged to Matt, and there was nothing I could do to stop myself from falling into his arms again.
"I promise I'll help get through this." He whispered, leaning closer. His lips were millimeters away from mine, and in that moment, I didn't care what he did. He could support me, he could feed me to the wolves. I didn't care. I just wanted his body pressed against mine. We could work out the rest later.
Matt finally stopped torturing me and lowered his lips to mine, meeting them with a gasp as we settled against each other. All the stress of the day melted away as he let his weight fall on me, pressing his groin against mine. I let my hands wrap around his broad shoulders as our mouths worked together, tongues dancing as I enjoyed everything about Matt. This was the Matt I knew and loved. He had to be telling the truth before. I should have realized that it was another part of Adam's ridiculous behavior that was causing all these problems. Matt wouldn't purposely hurt me. We were in love, we belonged together. It just didn't make sense that he would spend all this time trying to get with me just to throw it away on something stupid with another guy. I knew him better than that, and it's just not who he was.
I let my brain turn off and really enjoy what was happening in my bed. Matt continued to kiss me gently, letting his actions speak volumes. Everything was tender and sweet, and it was hard not to relax into his embrace, so I stopped fighting and just let it all melt away.
Matt pulled back for a second and looked down at me, his gaze filled with lust as he took in my face. He leaned down and kissed my nose, making me chuckle before his mouth captured mine again. He pushed himself up slightly as he kissed me, creating just enough space between us to get his hands onto my shirt and start undoing buttons. He wasn't overly successful, so he finally sat up and undid them one by one at a tauntingly slow pace as I struggled to breathe normally beneath him. His hard length was pressed against me, and I knew that at the rate we were going, I was going to feel it a hell of a lot better soon. I lifted my shoulders up off the bed so that Matt could pull my shirt off, and then helped him out of his. He quickly settled back down against me, his mouth finding mine once more. He began to trail his kisses down my neck again, and I was panting in anticipation of what was likely to come. He stopped briefly to play with each nipple, biting them gently before he rolled his tongue over them, making my eyes roll back in my head. He let out a chuckle as my hand inadvertently found his head and gently nudged him further down. It wasn't intentional, but Matt took the hint and continued to trail his kisses down my stomach, dipping his tongue into my navel and making my muscles tighten at the teasing contact. By the time Matt got to the top of my pants, I was panting with desire. His fingers nimbly undid the button on my jeans and tugged them down over my hips along with my boxer briefs. He sat back long enough to pull them all the way off, before he repositioned himself on my bed between my legs, my hard cock dripping in front of his face. He gazed up at me as he slowly dragged his tongue along the underside of my shaft, completely taking my breath away. He let me recover before wrapping his lips tightly around my head and giving me a firm suck, holding for a few seconds before flicking his tongue over my slit, lapping up whatever juices were starting to leak out.
"Matt." I groaned out as he continued to tease my cock with his mouth. I was so hard for him, and having a difficult time remembering why I had been upset with him in the first place. "Oh god." I moaned as he took me further into his mouth. "Don't stop." Matt pulled off of me and grinned as he pumped my shaft with his hand, teasing every tiny speck of skin he could get his firm grasp on.
