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For three days I wandered around in a daze, not catatonic, just uninspired. Realizing that John Sawyer had had a piece of Jennifer without permission, had raped her with seduction and temptation, not with violence, he had taken her and taken what was mine. When that came clear to me, I seriously challenged my approach. Despite Sharon's desire for revenge, my revenge was subtle. I wanted to fuck the 20 women of Holdingsfield without giving any of them any rights to me or my life. I wanted to own them but not dominate them. I wanted them to come running, or run coming when I summoned them and for them to view each other as being in the same situation without competition or resentment.
I know, women not resenting each other and not making your life miserable with incessant carping is a stretch of the imagination but that was why I needed to have something over each of them, more or less the same thing. Yet distinct, personal and utterly intractable, I wanted a hold that connected their desire to me, to my cock would be best but if some preferred to be connected to a woman I owned, I could work with that.
My objective was to make them docile at the start but ravenous in the end, discovering their most lascivious desires and inviting them to surrender to them. I wanted them helpless in the presence of their own desires, utterly seduced by the promise implicit in my investment, that their darkest, most private desire could be had, if they bent their will to me, to my will, and let me use them as I wished. This, this ambition infused me, both as a psycho-sexual experiment and the additional purpose of making them helpless before me.
This new development threated this tame version of domination I offered. I say "tame" but it must be understood that my version is far more absolute. I want to hold them in the prison of their own desires, not my oppressive control. I wanted the collar around their necks to be their own passion and lust, tethered to me by the hope and perhaps certainty that I would give them what they longed for down between their legs where lies always surrendered to the truth of actual, consuming carnality. A woman can lie to the ignorant man about her orgasm but not to herself. At least I don't think so. Hmm. What if a woman did, lie to herself about her own pleasure? Perhaps every woman does? Perhaps that is my opportunity, to own the knowledge they cannot bear to face but cannot resist. Perhaps what I actually wanted was to own the desire that originated between their ears, to convince them using their body that if they prostrated their will to mine, they could feel their greatest longing fulfilled. Perhaps.
I struggled to get my mind wrapped around this pebble in my oyster head.
This mental block included what I was to do with Jennifer. She, the fear skittered in her and though she flinched when I came near, I refused to penalize her for it. I understood it, or actually, I thought I understood her behavior. I didn't but my ignorance and arrogance did nothing to remove the block on moving forwards. I just had no idea how to proceed, given what John Sawyer had done.
That left my control on Friday when I got a phone call from a number I certainly did not recognize. The number connected me to a woman's voice I did not recognize. I like to think I have all my senses engaged but this woman's voice made me think I had gone through life stone deaf till then. Her cultured voice puffed breathy phrases into my ear, pushed through the aether at me but ensorcelling me completely.
"Mr. Gale? This is Victoria Grayson." She hesitated, waiting for me to respond.
I was responding, just not with sound. She needed a working camera connection to see my cock rising in my pants. This immediate response to a voice rattled my sense of my own sexuality. Who does that? Get hard at the sound of a particular woman's voice? Me, apparently. I felt helplessly entangled in something I did not understand, but god I wanted to. I wanted first to be hopelessly entangled and then maybe to understand. Priorities matter.
Aroused by a mere voice? That is an arresting experience!
"Mr. Gale?"
"Yes, this is he." I managed. Funny how the cock can make it difficult to breathe. It has nothing to do with respiration, right?
"I am Mrs. Victoria Grayson. Do you have a moment?"
I said I did, consciously trying not to pant into the phone. I just could not seem to catch my breath.
"I am calling about your Virgin Services? I believe your contact has been communicating with me. I am wondering if we could meet for lunch. I am in town. I'd be happy to buy you lunch if you have time in your busy schedule?"
I shuddered. "Virgin Services?" I said blankly. "Don't you mean the airline? I think you have the wrong number."
"No! No, I don't. I, I know I don't. Please listen to me for a moment. Let me explain."
I waited so she could.
"Hello?"
"Yes?" I managed. "You, you asked me to listen. I am listening."
"Oh, yes of course. Please, Mr. Gale, your Mr. Crowley, I spoke with him and he thought, I, he thought it would be acceptable for me to contact you directly. Particularly since I am in town."
"When did you speak to Mr. Crowley?" I understood in a distant way; Crowley had given her my number!
"Just a moment ago."
"How did you contact him?"
She did not answer immediately. Finally she clicked her tongue. "I have to admit I used some of my resources to trace the emails we have exchanged back to him."
Through the purple haze of my penal intoxication I had a fleeting thought, that she was prevaricating for some reason. The haze ate that thought, perhaps my little devil put his pitchfork up my little angel's ass. At any rate I focused on the feeling of that voice in my ear and believed what she told me. It was the truth, just not the whole truth.