After Rosie left Chris' apartment, I decided that I would go for a walk to clear my head. The events of last night played through my mind, and I was still in shock at what happened between the three of us.
Was that me?
I wondered. I experienced desires that I didn't know I had.
I left the apartment and walked down the street. There was a coffee shop nearby, so I ordered a small coffee and found a seat by the window.
I had visions of Rosie, Chris and I all dancing together at the bar.
What were my thoughts in that moment?
There was alcohol involved, so it was hard to recall. But some part of me wanted to go home with the two of them. Some part of me wanted to experience making love with a man and a woman. And some part of me never expected it to really happen. But it did, and truthfully I felt as if I'd stepped outside of my body.
I took my coffee and walked up the street to the nearby park. I didn't force any thoughts onto myself. Instead I let my mind drift. Every so often I would have a flashback: Rosie's hair falling down over her shoulders. Chris grabbing me and kissing me. The two of them kissing each other as I watched. I felt as if I wanted more.
So I walked back in the direction of Chris's apartment, wondering how I would fill the events of my day. Much to my surprise, I saw Chris and Rosie outside on the sidewalk. They were smiling at each other, and as I approached they both turned to me and smiled.
"Well this is a surprise," I said.
"Yes it is. I left work early, hoping you guys would still be here," Chris said. "As it turns out, Rosie had the same idea."
I walked up to them. Rosie put one arm around Chris' waist and the other around mine. I felt the energy from last night returning. Standing out on the street, embracing the two of them, I felt electric again. I didn't care at all if the entire neighborhood knew our secret. In that moment I felt so very connected to my desires that I only wanted one thing. Luckily for me, the two of them wanted it as well.
We walked up the stairs and back to his apartment. I felt my heart pounding again.
What was going to happen this time?
I wondered.
When we stepped inside, Rosie approached me and rubbed her hands onto my chest. She smiled and slowly stepped towards me, and then planted a kiss on my lips. Chris was right behind her, rubbing her shoulders and her back as she kissed me. She let her tongue run over the tip of my lips.
Chris stepped in closer this time, and the three of us embraced as we had on the street. As Rosie pulled her lips away from mine, Chris leaned in and kissed me. Much like I remembered from the night before, her kiss was soft and sweet and his was rugged and masculine. If I had any doubts about it before, those doubts were gone: I was definitely bisexual.
"Why don't we go to my bedroom this time," Chris said.
The three of us walked to the back of the apartment. It occurred to me that we hadn't even seen his bedroom the night before. We were so wrapped up in one another, we never left the living room.