I am wearing high-heeled shoes that highlight my calves. Today I wear a black skirt that does not reach my knees and allows anyone to appreciate them perfectly. My blouse is see-through and underneath it shows a flesh-colored bra that simulates nudity. Today I dress as a whore and I enter a bar. The atmosphere of the classic bars always makes my libido tremble. Many spend their time in chic places with excessive lighting and fictitious colors, thus missing out on the benefits that the night offers in the clubs.
The smell of cigarettes, the almost silent music, the cheap whores at the bar, and, of course, the pool table full of rascals. In this underworld, I dive in search of adventures. I need to escape from every day and give my life a sip of freedom. I steal the gaze of those present. I walk firmly wrapped in my pride. They all look me up and down. I dress like a whore, but my clothes are expensive. I must be seen by many as a "good whore" assuming I get paid for my services in bed and then spend my earnings on fancy clothes, unhappy fools.
I have a problem, I admit it. At least I did the first necessary step, according to my shrink. I have a problem with sex and I lie in the sessions saying that I fight against it. The truth is that I have never even tried to resist when the desire calls. I own my body and my life, I use it and live it as I want, respectively. I like to be used, period. I like to feel that men take advantage of me, but I don't like men taking advantage of me. It's not that confusing, if I spot someone being smart with me I'll cut it down in the blink of an eye, but if someone thinks they're using me when I'm the one driving it, I love it.
I don't know where this disorder comes from, not even my shrink knows. After numerous sessions, he continues to ask me to tell him about my parents, even after mentioning that everything was fine with my childhood. The source of my problem doesn't matter. The truth is that I enjoy it more than anything in life. The only worry that bothers me and why I decided to go to therapy is that I run the risk of contracting a disease, or maybe getting pregnant if I don't change my lifestyle. But today will not be that day. Today is just one of many days where I surrender to fate and wait patiently for an addictive and dangerous future.
It's been over 2 hours since I've been at the bar. I've had about a dozen "shots". I went to the bathroom and when I came back, I pretended not to be able to stand up. Before I let my hair down in front of the mirror and I sprayed my face with water to damage my makeup. Now I return to my place transformed into a whore who is also drowning in tears and grief, I love it.
The brainless begin to fall, the first one approaches me to buy me a drink but I reject it, I like to play with men. Then I decide to get up and move towards one of those wonderful L-shaped seats, on which you can smell the stories of the poor souls who frequent places like that. I've pretended to slip a little on the way there, stealing a few glances, garnering attention. I have touched one of the animals on the pool table, using it as a wall to keep my balance in my supposed state.
I fall onto the seat and let my head rest back. My sitting position is not the most suitable, enough to keep the previous gazes on me. Now I enter an ethyl coma in full view of everyone, and the fun begins. After 5 minutes the man who previously invited me for a drink approaches. He sits next to me and talks to me, but I don't react. Amusingly, he begins to talk nonsense, talking for the sake of talking.
I have experienced this before; I know perfectly well what he is doing. He pretends to have a conversation with me so as not to alarm the other people in the bar. This is just a little strategy that he applies so that everyone assumes that he has my consent for what he does next. The moment has come. The pig has a hand on my thigh and is moving slowly, groping before lunging. I don't move, I don't make any gestures, I don't do anything, I just enjoy.
His hand begins to gain ground little by little. Now it's between the junction of my thighs. I take care not to open them easily to make it a bit difficult for them, I love to see how the very bastards get desperate trying to get their hands on me. With more abrupt movements he manages to move forward and his thumb is now on my panties, caressing my clit. I remain motionless for a few minutes, then I let out a small moan and spread my legs a little, almost nothing, but just enough to increase his lust. I feel the heat rising in my pussy and apparently, he does too.
With more careless movements he begins to pull on my panties, looking for a way to make direct contact with my pussy. At that moment, I apply my next movement, letting my back fall on the seat. This has not only forced that stranger to remove his hands from me but has also once again stolen the attention of the rest, who are now beginning to slowly approach like hungry hyenas. No one goes directly to where I am, however, they stay around nearby, they just want to see what happens and clarify the situation.
Now I depend on how horny the pig sitting next to me is. If he can't control his desire to feel my pussy with his hands, he'll try to put them there again. Luckily for me he doesn't think about it too much, he drinks the rest of his drink in one gulp and now tries to put his fingers inside me again, but this time from behind, touching my pussy, hams, and anus in the process. I keep my eyes half open to be able to observe the panorama a bit, thanks to this I can contemplate the rest of the vultures approaching.
The first of them sits next to my head. He lifts it gently and moves under it. Now I use her thighs as a pillow. His hands go straight to my breasts without care. He slides them gently over them at first, but gradually increases the pressure as he becomes convinced that I'm too drunk to know what's going on. The first cheeky has already made its way into my pussy. With the tip of his thumb, he gently massages it, at least he treats me delicately.