Let me describe myself. My name is Tony. I am about 5'7", 153 lb., brown hair, blue eyes and have a 7-inch cock with an average body. I usually love extreme sports and am up for anything new or exciting.
Another day as usual. After work, I headed to the bar I usually frequent to grab a few beers. I had just been dumped by my girlfriend of three months. I decided at that time that I would not worry about relationships for a while. So I decided to go home and finish getting wasted. Anyway, I grab a case of beers and head back to my place to plop my ass on the couch and channel surf. I stopped at a standup comedy show. The guy who was up had me all-out bawling. I calmed down after a minute and he made another joke that I laughed at briefly but it made me think.
He joked that "We're all gay to some degree. Think about it. You're watching a porn movie with this really hot girl. You don't want to see her fucked by some guy with a weak, flaccid penis, do you?"
"No." He said mock answering.
"Well, what do you want?"
"I dunno."
"Tell me."
"I dunno."
"Tell me."
"I want a big, hard fucking dick!"
This made me think for a split second, but not real seriously, before I decided to rent some PPV straight porn. I ordered what looked to be a normal heterosexual porn movie. When it came on, the intro sequence shocked me. There were many scenes displaying in rapid succession with electronic music in the background. One scene had a man and a woman who were both on their knees and licking up and down opposite sides of a second guy's huge erection. Another one had a guy and a girl both on their hands and knees facing each other in a kiss as both had a ripped studd pounding them hard in the ass. I had never had a gay thought in my lifetime, but this movie was really getting me off. I was starting to see this as a kinky, new experience rather than being a 'sissy'.
Society had always taught me as a guy that this was to be a threat to my masculinity, but I then thought if I'm secure with my manhood, anything I do in bed or sex shouldn't matter. I had never been one to care for social rules, so I thought fuck it. Looks like a fun new experience to be the one getting fucked and trying all these new group situations. It seemed like the male and female couples were getting off and bonding by sharing the same partners and experiences in bisexuality. And the guys in the movie were not your stereotypical sissies either. Most were buff and tattooed. I guess, like a lot of guys, I had always grouped guys into either straight or gay categories. I had never really considered bisexual males as a group fantasy. It was as if a whole new world of open minded exploration suddenly occurred to me.
I was still cautious about trying anything that wild myself just yet. Over the next week, I started to study bisexuality and the history of bisexuality. I found a lot of things that started to change my views on gay and bisexual men as the media strictly portrayed to me as flaming feminine men. Nothing wrong with this but I never really considered a man's man able to be this way in society. I read a lot of books and articles where gay men and straight women praised the joys of anal sex and how celebrities as diverse as late actor James Dean, punk rocker Iggy Pop, and the late John Lennon to historical figures like Shakespeare and Julius Caesar were bi or have dabbled in bisexuality. Or at least they were very strongly rumored to be. And apparently, in ancient Rome, the whole double standard with bi women being more excepted than bi men was reversed. It supposedly showed that the dominant male had lack of control over his woman. My views on bisexuality and gay men started to change the more I looked into it.