"Anjali, I'm the kind of person who switches gears pretty fast, and it works for me, so, later, it's your loss," I said to my ex, a lovely, diminutive and curvy brown gal from Kerala, India, whom I made the mistake of giving two years of my life to. Anjali Shaji looked at me with those big brown eyes of hers, and folded her arms. Shaking my head, I walked away. I really didn't feel like having an argument.
Why did you do this to us, Anjali? I thought angrily. Once upon a time, the very sight of her made my heart skip a beat, and I looked forward to seeing her. Not anymore. Not after she wrenched my heart out of my chest by telling me there was someone else. Apparently, she'd been seeing a certain Indian fellow behind my back. Isn't that peachy keen?
"Stefan, that's just the way it has to me, Sanjay and I are back together," Anjali said, and I shrugged and continued on my way. My good friend and attorney Francis Tsegaye warned me against getting involved with an Indian woman, since the strong dislike that many Indians have for people of African descent is actually well-known. I ignored Francis's advice and started seeing Anjali, and look where it got me.
"Whatever," I replied, and I walked off the third floor of the Carleton University library, the very place where Anjali and I met two years ago, and went for a walk around campus. I needed to clear my head. It was early November, and the City of Ottawa, Ontario, felt lukewarm on this fine Tuesday morning.
I walked from the library to the university center building, and went downstairs to get a coffee. Long line at Tim Horton's downstairs, but for once I didn't mind. The wait didn't seem that bad. I needed to clear my head, as I said before. I have a habit of falling for the wrong woman, and everyone can see what's wrong with her except for me. Welcome to my life.
A couple walked by, and I found myself staring at them for some reason. Arab guy walking around with a young black woman. Lovely couple. I have nothing against them. Nevertheless, they made me think of those times when Anjali Shaji and I walked around the Carleton University campus, and went to movies and restaurants together, and got stared at, mainly by brown people, ten times out of ten.
I understand the reason for their stares all too well. A lot of Arabs and South Asians have a fondness for women of African descent but hate seeing Black men with Arab women or South Asian women. Fascinating state of the affairs, isn't it? I found myself lamenting the loss of Anjali Shaji. How I missed her little smile, her charm and wit, and that big ass of hers, of course. Life is beautiful, isn't it? Pardon my sarcasm.
"Hey, Stefan, is that you?" came a loud feminine voice, jolting me out of my murky thoughts. I turned around and found myself facing a vision of feminine beauty. Six feet tall, curvy and dark-skinned, with long hair and almond-shaped brown eyes. Bleria Olusegun, a lovely young Nigerian woman whom I met on the OC Transpo bus a while ago. We had a long chat about Nigerian politics, which have always fascinated me. I hadn't seen her in quite a bit.
"Good morning, Bleria, how's life?" I asked evenly, and Bleria joyfully launched into a long tirade about how wonderful her Law classes were, how much she loved Carleton University, and the various activities her church was involved in. I listened attentively, and smiled. How I remember being that young. I'm twenty seven years old, and in a few months, I will graduate from the Sprott School of Business at Carleton University with my MBA. Bleria is nineteen, so full of life and optimism. It's...touching.
"You seem a bit glum, Stefan, what's up?" Bleria paused to say, and I sighed, then gave her the rundown of what happened between Anjali Shaji and myself. Bleria looked at me, and narrowed her eyes. I kind of guessed what she was thinking. Lots of black women don't like to see brothers with women of other races, and when those interracial liaisons don't pan out, they mock our suffering.