Chapter 6 -- FUELING THE FIRE THAT BURNS
(NOTE TO READER: One of my followers suggested that I might start my chapters with a comment about my story. As many have surmised, this is not a story of fiction. My writing reflects real events in my life. As described to one reader, "
As written, the timeline is probably 90% accurate; the dialogues are probably 85% accurate. But the overall story line is 100% accurate. From beginning to end, my story carried on for almost 6 years. The earlier days are actually the most vivid and those are the experiences that I share in my writing." I cannot change who I was. I truly enjoyed the majority of my experiences. The major casualty of my chosen life was the damage that happened between my family and me. My family would eventually discover my activities and banished me from the family. Chinese shame is not something to be challenged. Unfortunately, I have been fully estranged from my family for over ten years.)
Sunday evening my parents came home and told me all about their visit with my brother. I didn't bother telling them about my visit with one of the neighbors or the show that was given to two others.
Monday morning, it was back to their regular grind. Generally speaking, my parents didn't like me sleeping in. So even though there was no school or work for me, I still woke every morning around 6:00 AM. They actually got up earlier than me as they were usually out the door before 7:00.
I had already showered and was wearing only my robe when they left. Lucy was yapping away at the back door; she wanted breakfast. I walked up to the door and reflected about what happened that previous Saturday. I untied my robe sash, dropped the robe to the floor, opened the door and stepped outside naked. I immediately looked up towards Pete's window. The curtains were open, but he was not there. I was disappointed.
I walked up to Lucy's bowls and picked them up; the food dish was already empty and I poured the remaining water from the dish. I looked up again and still no Pete.
I started to go inside with the dishes and stopped, turning around one more time. Still no Pete. Then, I purposely dropped one of the metal bowls onto the concrete. It made a loud clang. A few seconds later, I dropped the second bowl with the same noisy effect. I knelt down to pick up both dishes and waited. Less than a minute later he walked into view. I looked up, smiled and waved. He did a slight wave back.
Satisfied at being seen, I walked back inside to fill Lucy's bowls and then returned to the yard. Pete was still there. With my back to Pete, I bent down at the waist to give him a clear shot of my behind. I wondered if he could see the cotton string dangling from my pussy. I set down her bowls, did another wave and went back inside.
That would be the first of what became nearly a daily Monday through Friday routine. But it was the only morning that I would need to drop the bowls. He would be there waiting every morning from that day forward.
Later that morning, Mae finally responded to my text that had asked if she was interested in lunch on Tuesday. We agreed on 11:30 AM which would give us a little more than 75 minutes to talk, not so much to have lunch.
On Tuesday, I have to admit, it actually was a little awkward when we first met. Should we hug? Should we kiss? Should we shake hands? How should I first reconnect after the little episode that ended our evening on Friday night? We didn't do anything other than wait to be seated.
As we stood there I laughed to myself recognizing that we were both wearing slacks; the business attire of choice for women on the rag.
We sat down, gave our orders and waited for the waitress to leave us alone.
Mae started, "So, are we ok?"
I smiled and said, "Of course we're ok."
She asked, "Are you mad at me about what happened?"
I laughed and said, "Seriously? You act like you were an aggressor. As I recall, everything that happened was practically simultaneous. I never backed off and neither did you. In fact, I'm pretty certain that it could have easily gotten more intense, not that it wasn't intense. You told Terry, didn't you?"
She asked, "Yes. But I know you don't really care, right?"
I didn't answer, "I wish we didn't stop. I wanted it to go further. Call it curiosity or whatever. But I liked it."
Mae smiled and said, "Me too. Tell you what. Now that we've cleared the air a little bit, let's not dwell on this ok? We can still be normal and who knows, maybe someday something more serious could happen."
"Am I still invited for Friday? Does Jason know what happened?"
She chuckled and said, "Jason doesn't have a clue. Of course we're on for Friday. But let's see what happens. You're not a lesbian, you know. And neither am I."
I said, "Trust me, I know I'm definitely not a lesbian."
It was the way I said it that she knew something was up. She said, "Hmmmm, something you want to tell me?"
I said, "My score is no longer 14, it's 15."
She said, "Oh my God, you met someone! That's awesome!"
"Well, not exactly met someone." I proceeded to tell her all that happened on Saturday, including the little show for the two basketball players.
When I finished, she said, "Oh my God, you're a total slut-whore! And you were totally reckless. You practically fucked in public. Why didn't you fuck him on Sunday too?"
"I didn't see him and my period started."
She said, "Well doing it during your period can still be fun, but if you didn't see him then nothing was going to happen. I really can't believe you did that. You're some heavy competition, I feel challenges are in the works."
I laughed and said, "Very funny. What's the current score? 15 to 200, 300, 400?"
She said, "Maybe a little higher, I don't really know."
I said, "See, not much of a competition."
Mae countered, "You have plenty of time to pass me."
Mae leaned toward me and quietly asked, "So did you like it? Did you like doing it with a complete stranger?"
I just gave a big grin.
She said, "Of course you did. That's why you did it, right?"
I still just continued smiling.
Then she asked, "Do you think you would do it again? I don't mean with him. Just another stranger. Someone you've never met. Maybe someone older, maybe someone younger. White, black, yellow brown. Just some guy who comes onto you, you know what he wants, he has you and then leaves. Just like with Pete, just someone else is all."
I smiled even more and said, "I'm pretty certain I would. No, I know I would."
She said, "What about him?" She was looking over my shoulder. I looked back in the direction she was looking. There was a guy sitting having lunch by himself. Nothing spectacular about him. Just another white guy. I looked back at him again and could see his wedding ring.
I said, "Sure, him or anyone like him."
She said, "I think I believe you."
"Why shouldn't you believe me?"
"No reason. He was just the first guy I could point out, that's all. Would you let him know you want to fuck?"
I said, "Mae, if you're trying to dare me to go over and introduce myself, after what happened Saturday, yes I'd do it. But, I'm on my period. Now is not the time to waste my energies. Trust me, I have no doubt that I will be naughty again. Why? Because I want to be naughty again."
"You know, I had my hunch about you the first time we met. You're more like me than not. I just wish I was more like you when I was your age."
I asked, "What difference would it have really made if you were younger?"