Todger65 provided the editing and has my gratitude.
Being Neighborly Part 3
Jeff makes a choice while neighbors become so much more.
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Fortunately, I didn't fall asleep after our last round, or Tammy would have been late getting home to Tess. I can't imagine the mad scramble that would have ensued if Tammy's parents walked into our house looking for her. I had been on the verge of dozing off, but I started watching Liz and Tammy sleeping and the way they nested together while they did so. I felt such a huge rush of emotion that I sat in bed and watched them for the longest time.
I loved my wife more than life itself, and now I found myself feeling something much deeper than friendship for Tammy. I wasn't sure how to reconcile that. The purpose of pulling the trigger was to have some fun without becoming emotionally involved with someone outside of our marriage. Normally, if that were to happen, the relationship would be ended. There was no way we were ending our relationship with Tammy. Tess and I were at a loss for what to do.
Tammy needed to live again, and that meant to me that she would eventually meet the right guy, and they would be happy ever after. I knew if the guy showed up today, Liz and I both would be devastated. We had just discovered the wonders of sex with Tammy, and that had grown into something so much more for both of us. I'm not sure either of us was ready to give Tammy up.
By the same token, Tammy was more than eleven years younger than me and nine years younger than Liz. She didn't need to enter into a dead-end relationship with us. She needed the thrill of new love, the loving heat of a new lover, and someone she could happily spend her life with. I didn't think we could be that for her.
What if we were? What if she fell for one of us or both of us? Would we want to commit to loving her? What would that even look like? What if she only fell in love with Liz? Would I be relegated to the sidelines, only to be brought in for relief? What if it was me Tammy fell in love with? How could I possibly ensure that I treated them both fairly? Is it possible for one man to be everything that two women needed? The thought of meeting that challenge was pretty exciting, but this was turning into something way beyond recreational sex. I knew one thing with certainty, we had to be extremely careful with Tammy's heart, as well as our own.
I woke them both with little kisses, and between Liz and me, we got Tammy on her way home. She stopped in the kitchen and put an arm around each of our necks, and pulled us in for a hug, "I wish I could stay in bed with you both. I'm so happy when I'm with you, and sleeping alone in my bed isn't what I want. I wish we could be together all the time."
Liz kissed her lips, "I do too, Tammy. I do too. That's the elephant in the room, isn't it? I can see the signs. We're all three falling in love, and I don't know if that's what's best for you."
Tammy got a bit of fire in her eyes, "While I always appreciate your help and guidance, I'm perfectly capable of deciding whom I fall in love with thank you. That's one decision you can't make for me or protect me from.
"The truth is that I'm falling deeply in love with both of you, and that makes me very happy. I don't know how to make that work, even if you were to feel the same as I do, but I want to try. I guess it's up to you guys. I hope you're willing to take a chance on me, but I'll still love you and want to be with you even if you don't feel the same. I don't ever want to lose our friendship."
Liz and I took turns giving her a loving kiss and watched through the kitchen window as she walked home. When she made her way inside, I pulled Liz into my arms, "What are we going to do, Babe?"
She looked up at me and smiled lovingly, "We're going to see where this goes. We both know we want her as more than a friend. We're both falling in love with her. So, why don't we let it happen and see where it goes? She's a fully grown, intelligent woman and is fully capable of making her own decisions. She just took one hell of a chance by telling us how she feels. She trusts us that much, and the least we can do is trust her in return."
I gave her a squeeze, "As much as I want a perfect life for Tammy, with the perfect husband, whom she loves isn't my choice to make. I suppose the age thing isn't that big of a deal...
"Honestly, I'm worried that I won't treat one, or both, of you the way you deserve. I'm afraid I won't be enough to make you both happy. How do I give everything I am to you, then give it to Tammy as well? I don't know how to do this. I'm scared, honey. I'm scared I'll lose you to Tammy. I'm scared I won't treat you the way you deserve, and I'll lose you. I'm afraid falling in love with Tammy will take something away from us."
Her gentle gaze silenced me, "Dan, do you feel less for me because you have feelings for her?"
"Of course not! That's ridiculous."
She smiled, "Well, I feel the same way. We're not losing us because we have feelings for Tammy. I don't believe that will happen at all. Can you think of one thing in our relationship with Tammy that was anything less than wonderful? Love isn't finite. It grows as long as we embrace and nurture it."
"Think about it for a moment. If you weren't so concerned about me, you would be so over the top happy right now. That amazing woman is falling in love with you, just as she is with me, and while I have the same demons trying to bring me down as you do, I can't help but think we're starting something wonderful. We need to do what we have always done, communicate. We share our concerns and overcome them together."