I clicked my heels nervously as I waited for the elevator to arrive and carry me the 28 floors to Mark Sterling's office. My heart pounded excitedly in my chest as my mind raced with ideas of what was in store for me today.
The up arrow to my left signaled the end of my wait, and I took a deep breath and stepped forward as the large metal doors before me opened to swallowing me whole.
Being alone in the cold and confining space seemed to quiet my anxiety. This was far from my first trip up to see Mark, but it could quite possibly be my last, and that disturbed me.
The episode had begun 3 weeks earlier on a whim. Seeing a commercial about casting for the latest in the reality TV shows, I impulsively responded. Personally, before all this began I could never have fathomed participating in such a display. Not that I don't possess a sense of adventure, quite the opposite actually. It's just that I prefer to keep my private life private. But something about this particular idea had intrigued me. Maybe it was the shear idiocy of the premise, meeting the man or woman of your dreams through a series of 24 hour long dates with total strangers.
I've always known that love at first sight was the biggest load of crap ever spewed to get someone in to bed. So perhaps my motives were cynical and sarcastic at the start. But since then, something in me had changed. As I came closer and closer to being chosen as the woman at the center of it all, I cared more and more, and thought less and less that this was just a game. It could be that I just didn't want to lose, after I had gone so far, but really, I think I was daring the world to prove me wrong. To force it to justify this notion of spontaneously falling madly in love with someone you've just met, to put up or shut up once and for all.
The elevator came to a stop and the doors to my cage slid open, revealing the perfectly decorated reception area of one Mark Sterling, Executive Producer extraordinaire of "Love Quest", what was soon to be the next big hit in reality TV.
I stepped out and approached Stephanie, Mark's secretary, perched dutifully at her desk.
"Hello Claire, nice to see you," Stephanie said in her usual polite manner.
"Hi Stephanie, nice to see you to," I answered, feeling the nervousness begin to tug at my stomach once again.
"Mark is expecting you, you can go right in," Stephanie replied with casual confidence.
"Thank you," I replied quickly, forcing an unnaturally large smile.
Mark looked up at as I entered the room. He exuded his usual air of confidence, and I immediately felt my tension ease under his soft gaze.
"Claire, I've been looking forward to seeing you," he said with a warm smile. "Come sit down a relax, we have a lot to discuss."
I walked quickly over to the leather chair in front of Mark's imposing desk and settled into it. Taking a deep breath, I resolved to enjoy this final stage of the interview. Whatever Mark decided was beyond my control so why should I waste my time worrying.
Leaning slightly forward, Mark stared at me intently as he spoke. "Claire, as you know, our meeting here today is the last step in the selection process for Love Quest. First of all, I want to thank you for all the time and dedication you've shown us, me, so far. It's been great getting to know you and I really think you'd be great for the show. There are just some loose ends we have to tie up first. How 'bout we get started, ok?"
I took another deep breath before responding, "Thank you Mark. That sounds good." My mind buzzed as with anticipation as I awaited the next series of questions. We had talked so much in these interviews that I felt a strange sense of closeness to Mark. Not something tangible or real, but rather a sanctity that existed between us, within these walls.
"This stage will be a bit different than the others," Mark continued. "I've asked Stephanie to help us out with it."