Hi, I'm Jean. I was Chantal's lover and I've decided to fill in some blanks in her story.
Chantal's own words in Part One were true as far as they went, but she left out a very great deal. She and Dan enjoyed a lovely romance for a while, but the full story was quite a bit richer.
You've read that Chantal and Dan got together through work, where Chantal and I -- two loving women roommates - worked in a downtown office building as security guards. What you do not know, because Chantal had not known, was that I wanted Dan all along.
Dan fell gradually into our lives, stopping to chat when he came to work on the weekends. I thought he was a very handsome man of about our own age -- mid 20s - and he always spoke to Chantal and me in a soft, confident and respectful voice. He did not ask prying, personal questions and he never threw an F bomb. I was always gladdened when I saw him walking into the foyer. I admired his easy walk with his shoulders back, confident and manly. I used to wonder, had he been walking in the nude, what his package would have looked like as he walked. I hid my disappointment when Chantal told me that Dan had asked her out. I'd been hoping he would ask me out and I had been -- or so I thought -- flirting with him as much as my professional poise would allow. After all, the only times I ever saw him was at work.
Dan was, in short, definitely attractive and sexy. I wanted sex with him, I wanted to give my body to him. He would have been strong, manly and safe, I was certain, but he picked Chantal first. I don't think she'd even been trying.
Before I go on, I will tell you a little about my own sexuality. I had been pretty inexperienced when Chantal and I first got together, but I was no virgin. I was new to lesbian sex, but I had had a male lover. Chris was a jerk, but we did it a couple of times when he had been into the rum. He was able to penetrate me but although I enjoyed the physical sensations of intercourse neither of us had an orgasm and I soon stopped seeing him. I admired men and I assumed I'd eventually encounter a man who would give me a better experience. I decided I would simply go about my life and wait for a better man than Chris to show me what proper lovemaking could be.
Chantal and I met at school, became friends, then roommates and, well, I can't improve on Chantal's description of our life together. It was good, most times very good. I was uneasy at first with the idea of falling in love and enjoying sex with a woman -- that lesbian taboo thing so many of us struggle with -- but Chantal was so sweet and she had such bright dancing eyes for me that she made it easier.
I watched Chantal and Dan's secret romance build with some anxiety and some jealousy. Oh, I knew what they were up to, all right. Chantal's lies to cover her increasingly frequent absences didn't fool me. I feared losing Chantal yet at the same time I wished she would talk to me plainly about her relationship with Dan. I wanted to share Dan with her. I lusted after him and I had a voyeur's interest in knowing what they did.
I examined my feelings quite a lot while those two were so into each other. I felt jealous that someone else was enjoying Chantal's body -- her lips and smiles, her eyes, her kisses, her sometime nakedness -- which in some way I felt she should have been saving for me and for my hungers. I also felt jealous that she, not me, was enjoying Dan's embraces and kisses, his body and the sensation of Dan's deep orgasms. I felt left out. I felt jealous that she knew what his body looked like, that he was learning how to pleasure her -- and to take pleasure from her. I wanted him to take his pleasure from me, too.
Chantal was no less loving with me. Dan was not stealing anything from my relationship and sexuality with Chantal. It gave me a delicious thrill to make love to Chantal, knowing she was also enjoying sex on the side with a man I wanted so much. I kissed her with relish, knowing a cock had penetrated her. Did Dan taste her here, too? I was desperate to know what it looked like, how big it was. Was he big enough? Was he as gentle as I thought he would be? Chantal and I enjoyed each other's company and sensuality just as much as we ever did. Was I going to resent the missing slice off a cut loaf? I decided to ride it out, but to be alert.
One time at work one Saturday, while Dan was working in his office, Chantal came back from a patrol and I was sure I could smell semen on her breath. That was the last straw. I decided then and there, I was going to find a way to have sex that man.
I felt that what I had in mind should first be spoken of in intimate darkness. One night, just after Chantal and I had retired and pulled the covers over ourselves and were all snuggled down for sleep, I asked Chantal "Chantal, have you ever had sex with more than one person? At a time?"
Her body became very rigid. "No, Jean, only with you! Why do you ask me that? Why do you ask me that now?"
I sat up cross-legged in the darkness and faced her. "Chantal, I know what you and Dan have been doing. I am okay with it. I'd have sex with him, too, if I had the chance. I don't feel he's taking anything away from us, I only feel you are having the time of your life. I am happy for you."
"Jean, no, I..."
I cut her off. "Chantal, I know you've been enjoying Dan sexually. I've known for months. Just last week you went to his office and gave him oral sex. I would have liked to watch -- I would have kissed you after! You don't have to lie about it anymore. I'm telling you, it's okay."
Chantal was silent. I continued "I have something in mind. I want you to know something and tonight I couldn't hold it back anymore. Are you ready for me to tell you something you will probably think is too weird, at first?"
"Okay..."
"Something taboo, maybe?"
"Okaayy..."
"I want Dan too. I want you to share him with me."
"What! How!"
"If you're okay with it, we could all make love together. It would be awesome fun!"
"Jean! You want to fuck my boyfriend!"
"What woman wouldn't?" I countered. "Dan is gorgeous!"
Chantal fell silent. I turned on the light beside the bed so I could study her face. She was looking down quietly. I was sure she was thinking about Dan. About me. About how. About what would happen and if she would like it. If Dan would like it. I gave her space.
"But Jean, what about our relationship? What we've done has always been special, just for us."