There's a clichΓ© saying, "the silence was deafening," well, that morning over breakfast in the hotel bedroom, after our first night as swingers, that clichΓ© was very apt and very, very, true. Mark and I were both loath to speak; to say anything that might upset, or worse, hurt the other. Neither of us wanting to discuss what we had done; how we had felt; how we wanted to continue now; were we going to continue? Was it a one-off? An experience to look back on, or was this going to change our marriage, possibly even end it?
"Mark," I said, "we can't just ignore last night, we need to talk about it. How did you feel, did you enjoy it? Do you want to do it again, or was it just a one off? Whatever you want is ok with me, but please talk to me."
Mark looked at me sheepishly, then whispered, "Watching you walk out of the bar with Dan, knowing that he would soon have you in his arms, see you naked, soon be making love to you, broke my heart."
I gulped and tears filled my eyes. I had been the one pushing to try the swopping scene, and now I knew I had lost my husband, my marriage was over, it couldn't survive last night. I'd broken the heart of the only man I could ever love.
"But then Anne explained how Dan had felt on their first time, and that made it easier. And well, the sex was good, I enjoyed it, Anne was different. I'm not making comparisons with you, God no, I wouldn't do that, but it was different. And then I knew that it would be the same for you, with Dan. That was when I realised I love you even more than I have ever done and that what we were doing was just physical, and I could accept that. I knew that it wouldn't change things for me. What, what about you."
I smiled shyly at him, "The same, Dan was, I don't know, as you say different, but to be honest, looking back he didn't rock my boat, he was mesmeric and controlling, and that was exciting, I was willing to do anything he asked, but it wasn't earth-shattering sex. I thought it was at the time but looking back on it, it wasn't."
"Yes, different but not what I expected."
"Do you want to try it again? Dan gave me a list of people they recommend if you do."
"Do you?"
Hesitating for a fraction of a second, I didn't want to hurt Mark, or pressurise him, "Yes, I'd like to, but only if you want to, and only if it doesn't hurt you, but I think we need to try it a couple more times, then decide, I'm sure our marriage is strong enough to survive a couple of more tries. I think it's even stronger after last night. But I don't want to jeopardise our marriage, if continuing will do that then no I don't want to go on."
"OK, a couple more, then we decide, God, Helen I love you," with that, breakfast was abandoned for a while whilst we made love together, our first time as swingers. The sex was slow and gentle and loving, each aware of the need to please and reassure the other. In some ways to reconnect physically with each other.
That episode was a couple of months ago and we had had one meeting with the couple that was on the top of Dan's list and it was ok, again nothing to write home about, the sex was average, like the first time we swopped. The excitement came from being with a different partner, and knowing that Mark was with another woman turned me on. Learning how to please and get pleasure from another man was also exciting.
So, now we had decided to up the ante, and try the younger couple Dan and Anne had recommended and we were due to meet up with them later tonight. This time things were going to be a bit different, we were all going to be in the same room together. With all that suggests and leaves things open too!!
When Mark was on the phone to Simon, setting things up I suddenly got apprehensive and got him to ask a couple of questions about something I was very worried about.
"No. OK. Yes, that's fine, yeah she'll be fine with that. Great see you soon, bye."
"What, what did they say? What will I be fine with?"
"Helen, calm down, give me a chance to speak. Now Zoe is not into heavy girl-girl stuff, so you can forget worrying about that. Well partly, Zoe is ok with a little kissing between you if you want, and some gentle fondling as well, but above waist only, she doesn't go all the way. So you're ok, no heavy lesbian sex."
"Why do I think you're disappointed in that?" I giggled at him. "So, you've just agreed for me that I'm ok with a little girl on girl stuff. God, it's like being on a first date, as a schoolgirl, ok to touch above the waist but not below," I giggled again this time with relief that I wasn't expected to go all the way with Zoe. I wasn't sure I was into that sort of thing. Curious yes, but not ready to try things just yet.
"Well, it only seems natural that you girls would get together a little bit, and it seems Zoe isn't into it in a heavy way if it happens between you fine if not then Zoe will be fine with that too. They are just keen to meet us, apparently, Dan and Anne gave us a good recommendation."
"Oh. That's great, we're being rated on how good we are at sex now. And why is it natural for Zoe and me to get together, what about you and Simon?" I teased.
Something in the back of my mind was troubling me, Zoe, where did I know that name from?
Well tonight was the night, and it couldn't have come at a worse time, there was a massive charity event in Manchester tonight, and all my salons had been full to overflowing all day, with clients wanting their hair done. I'd even had to ship clients from the main salon in Alderley Edge to the others as we were that busy, it was the only way we could cope with the demand. I had even brought Troy my main stylist into the main salon from the one he normally runs for me.
Now the rush was over and we were finally able to relax, I'd opened a couple of bottles of champagne for both clients during the day but also the staff now that the rush was over and we were closed. Now it was time to get me ready for the nights fun. Troy had done my hair, he is a genius and knows just what to do with it. We were in the back room, well the waxing room, my feet were up and I was recovering from a full bikini wax, I was hot and burning down there so had no panties on, letting the air waft over my newly nude pussy, and my robe didn't exactly cover much. So Troy was getting a good view of the goods on offer tonight.
Now I was totally ok with Troy seeing me like that, he is the epitamy of a gay hairdresser, a total queen, camp as anything going. A complete gossip, but despite the gossipy nature of him he never reveals anything truly confidential, he has all the clients in stitches and eating out of his hand. On top of that, he is a brilliant stylist and quick with it.