All characters are above the age of 18 unless otherwise specified.
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I sat on the edge of the bed, awaiting my wife's response. I knew I was going to get lambasted for what I had suggested.
Caroline looked a little taken aback, but thought for a moment. "Okay. We can try it."
My jaw nearly dropped to the floor. There was no way I thought she would be okay with it.
"I really want to make this work again, and if you think it'll help and it's worked for other people, then I'm all for it."
I couldn't help but smile.
"But under one condition."
My expectations were reigned back in. There weren't too many conditions that would dissuade me, but I awaited my wife's next words on bated breath.
"We balance it out and do two. One the way you want. And one the way I want."
"Absolutely," I responded.
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Five minutes earlier, Caroline was in our bathroom washing her face before getting ready to go to bed. I was sitting on our bed, reading an article on my phone, waiting for her so I could brush my teeth.
Caroline finished and began walking out of the bathroom. She was wearing a thin nightie that made her look quite sexy. I had gotten it for her as a gift a few years ago, and she wore it often in the summer.
She stopped in the doorway and leaned against the wall. Her arms were crossed over her chest, like she wanted to talk about something.
"Steve?"
"What's up, sweetie?" I asked, not looking up.
"Do you want to have sex tonight?" she bluntly asked.
I looked up this time, caught by surprise. She usually didn't broach the topic.
"Uh, I'm actually feeling a little tired and have to be in the office early tomorrow. Raincheck though?"
Caroline smiled a little. "Sure." Her eyes told me that she wasn't happy with my response though.
"Something wrong?" I asked.
"No," she shook her head.
"That's clearly a lie," I responded. "Tell me."
"No, it's nothing."
I hated it when she was coy like this. I always felt like the bad guy for not reading her mind and diagnosing the issue.
"Alright, then, if you don't want to talk about it."
"Well, it's just that we never really make love anymore," Caroline continued.
"That's not true," I rebutted.
"And that's clearly a lie."
I sighed. It was, in fact, very true. Caroline and I had been married for seven years. She was 24 and I was 26 at the time, so we were a little young. But everything seemed fine for a while. We loved each other and worked well as partners, and sex was fairly regular.
But we had hit a rough patch over the past two years. It had started when I got into a car accident, and was severely injured. Caroline had been focusing on getting her PhD, but had to start working again. I could barely move at first, and the physical therapy took a long time before I was back to normal.
Money had gotten tight then, and between the injury and increased stress, we didn't have sex for more than six months. But we considered it a bump in the road, and moved on stronger as a couple.
Then came the change in jobs. I switched to a different company in a much higher-paying role to alleviate some of the pressure, but it meant that I was constantly traveling. I was on the road probably 75% of the time I worked there, and that put a strain on our relationship as well. Everything seemed okay on the surface and we were now doing fine monetarily, but Caroline and I had grown more distant.
Even after finding a new position that let me stay home, things never really returned to how they had been before. The passion, both physically and emotionally, had sort of burned out.
And that's where we had been left. Maybe it was the seven-year itch. But Caroline and I almost never had sex anymore. We had tried working through the issue, but nothing had really seemed to fix the problem.
"Well, it's been busier. We don't really get a lot of time anymore."
"That's not true. We don't make time."
"I mean, I think we've just matured maybe? It's not as big of a part of our life anymore. We're not still teenagers."
"Yeah, obviously. But just because we don't want to fuck each other all the time doesn't mean we never have to do it then."
"I think you're making a bigger deal out of the situation than it really is. I mean, the past two years have been very stressful on both of us, and I think now that things are returning to normal, the dust will settle and we'll be all the better for it."
I was lying, both to Caroline and probably a little to myself. But deflecting the problem was easier than trying to fix it. Some part of me hoped that our relationship would fix itself, but I rationally knew that the growing disconnect would only get worse if left to fester.
"It just seems like having sex shouldn't be a chore. We should want to do it with each other. It's an important part of having a healthy relationship."
"You're probably right," I said. "Do you really want to talk about this right now though?"
"Why not?" Caroline rhetorically asked. "If we keep avoiding the issue and saying that we're fine and back to the way we were before, things won't change or get better. And I want things to get better. Don't you?"
"Of course-" I began.
"I want that spark again. I want to just rip your clothes off and have sex with you as soon as you get home everyday."
"I mean, I wouldn't complain if you did want to do that," I joked. "But its not like we haven't put in any effort. We have tried to spice things up. You hated bondage, roleplaying was a pain, we've done other things. What else do you suggest?"
Caroline sighed. "I don't know. I don't know the answer. But something's got to work. Unless you want to keep on going like this."
"No, sweetie, of course I want to make things work and to... to get closer and get that spark again," I said.
"Then what are we supposed to do?" she asked.
I thought for a second. I had something in mind that I had heard worked for couples to reignite their sex life, but I didn't think Caroline would like it. It had been a fantasy of mine for twenty years. She'd probably yell at me for suggesting it though.
But Caroline was the one who brought the subject up. And it was actually helpful for other people, so I did have some basis for it. What did I have to lose?
"Well, I've heard about one thing we haven't tried that's been used by many couples."
"I'm all ears. Whatever will make this work again."