We continued to kiss, all the while feeling each other and learning the others erogenous zones. He found one of mine, my wrist. He held my right wrist to his lips and began to kiss and lick it. I felt my insides melt as he began to nibble on my tender wrist, sucking softy and licking with his warm mouth. I thought I was going to cum but I managed to hold back until he finally released my hand.
I looked at him and smiled, he looked so sexy standing in front of me with his smooth dark skin and flawless looks. Even his cock was perfect. It was long and thick and had that perfect upsweep, the small curve that manages to hit your g-spot without much effort. He puts effort into though, and that makes it even more difficult because he can make me cum like a woman possessed. His effect on me is frightening; it's scary to feel something so powerful for someone I just met.
The days turned into months and pretty soon autumn was upon us. Jackson and I had been carrying on our affair for over 4 months. I couldn't believe I was getting away with it. Part of me was proud of myself for managing to keep it a secret but the other part of me was in utter turmoil because I was betraying my husband.
After 5 months I knew I had to come clean with Howard. I couldn't continue to carry on secretly, I love Howard but now that I've experienced another side to myself and to life I had to take the opportunity. I made up my mind that I would sit down with Howard and tell him what was going on. I knew in my heart that he does love me but I also know he doesn't feel for me what I've felt with another man. I didn't know sex could be so liberating and wonderful. I used to be so naïve about sex, I had limited partners and we did limited things. I thought oral sex was something that should be done occasionally (like once a year) rather than several times a day.
I look back at my life and wonder, how the heck did I become so inexperienced when it came to sex. Why did I let myself believe it had to be only one way and that way was usually a few minutes of humping before he came and rolled away (falling asleep in mid roll). I had no idea the sensations and tastes that were waiting for me "out there"; I was going to be selfish for once in my life. I was taking control of my actions…
I had no idea what I was getting myself into.
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After Halloween I sat down with Howard and told him everything. At first he was angry (I expected that) then he was hurt (I expected that as well), he even cried (so did I) but then…he said something that blew my mind.
"I already know Raquel." He said quietly.
I thought my heart had stopped beating.
"What?" My voice sounded flat and strange.
"I knew something was going on with you, I had a feeling you might have been seeing someone so I sort of spied on you." He actually sounded embarrassed.
"Are you serious? Why didn't you ask me? How long have you known?" I was stunned.
"I found out for sure two months ago, I knew you weren't at your sisters so I followed you one day." He looked up at me and what I saw in his eyes was a mixture of pain and such hunger it made my insides do a flip. "It didn't take me long to figure out who he was, Jackson, that's his name, isn't it?" He looked intently at me.
"Yes."
"Once I knew who he was, I followed you to a restaurant and watched you two eating. My first reaction was to storm in and confront you. I couldn't believe how beautiful and sexy you looked. I started to get out of the car and when I stood up; I realized I had a huge hard on. I sat in the car for over 2 hours before you finally came out, then you drove to his place."
I took the opportunity to apologize to him; I didn't mean to hurt him. I wasn't sure how to react about him being aroused so I didn't mention it. He continued to talk quietly about what he saw.
"I parked the car around the block from his house then walked back and sat on the side of his house, I think it was his bedroom because I heard the two of you…making love." He stopped talking and went to fix himself a drink. When he sat down he sipped his whiskey and continued to tell me about that night.
"I couldn't believe what I was hearing. You were screaming like a crazy woman, you were saying things I knew I'd never hear. I wasn't upset anymore, I was happy that you found someone that could do that to you. I also knew that I had to see the two of you doing it, you know, with my own two eyes. Hearing was one thing, seeing was different."
He drank his whiskey in one smooth swallow and placed his glass on the coffee table.
"I finally saw what I needed to see. You told me you were spending the weekend in Santa Barbara with your sister but I knew you were going to be with him. I followed you two to a hotel off the coast. While you were out to dinner with him the first night I paid a maid to let me in your room, I said I was your husband." He chuckled softly before continuing.
"I pretended I needed to get something out of the bathroom, when she turned her back to me I unlocked the connecting door and we left the room. Later on I checked into the same hotel and requested the room next to yours. I waited for you to get back and relax before I opened the door." He looked up at me and he was blushing, I couldn't believe what he was telling me.
"I heard the bed moving and knew you two must be getting ready so I quietly opened the door leading into your room and watched the two of you kissing. You were half naked and your skin was all flushed and you were breathing heavy. I was never so aroused in my life. I watched him undress you completely, when he removed your bra I saw him devour your breasts. I couldn't believe you were letting him kiss and touch you that way. I never imagined doing that sort of thing."
He got up and refilled his glass. He offered me a drink but I said no, I didn't think my churning stomach could handle the booze.
"You were sort of straddling his lap with your breasts in his face, he was mauling you and you were loving it. I saw him stand with you still attached to his body, you were clinging to him like he was your lifeline and all I could think about was how sexy you looked."
He swigged his whiskey in one shot and sucked air through his teeth.
"He had stripped his pants off by now and I watched you writhe around in his arms then I heard you begging him to…fuck you. You were saying such erotic things; I couldn't believe my wife was that woman clinging to a strange man with muscles I couldn't compete with. He sat back on the bed and you pushed him back. You had your back to me and watched you position your…vagina over his penis; you screamed his name as you slid down him. I came in my pants right then, while you made love to a stranger named Jackson. I closed the door and locked it but I could still hear you screaming and moaning, I heard him yelling your name and grunting like a wild animal. I came twice more before I finally fell asleep."
I didn't know what to say so I just sat silently while he refilled his glass and sat next to me.
"You're not the woman I married Raquel. The woman I married doesn't have sex with strangers, the woman I love doesn't scream other men's names, the woman I fell in love with would never cheat on her husband."
He sipped his drink then set it down; he took both of my hands in his. I was trembling as he brought them to his mouth and kissed the tip of each finger. He took my hands and pressed them into his lap. I felt the unmistakable bulge of his erection. He felt enormous and hot through his slacks. I looked up at him and waited for him to speak.
"I don't know you anymore Raquel. Part of me is sad that you're gone but the other part of me is so excited at the new woman I'm living with. Every night after you fall asleep I go in the bathroom and masturbate with the image of you on top of that man. I don't know why but seeing you that way gets me aroused and I can't explain it."
He leaned his head back and closed his eyes; I took that as my cue. I slowly began to open his fly and ease his swollen cock out of his shorts. I had never seen him so hard, the head was almost purple and it was covered in pre-cum. I licked the tip of his cock and he moaned softly. I slowly wrapped my lips around his slick head and began to ease him down my throat. When he was more than halfway down my throat I began to swallow and contract my throat around his cock. He moaned louder this time and placed his hands on my head.
