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Click . . . and the door to our dreams had opened.
We’ve just had our dinner and wine, and now we’re finally here. The hotel suite smells fresh and clean, like raspberries and starched linen, and the faint odor of chlorine from the enormous hot-tub that sits like a sentinel or tank to the left of the room is quite strong. The place is immaculate, cozy, warm, potentially erotic, and everywhere I see ghosts and images of my wife’s future pleasure---at the bed, in the pool, on the floor, in the chair---I see it all, fantasizing almost immediately as we enter the palace of pleasures for this night in heaven.
Our friend, Adam, enters last and regards the room much like a schoolchild on his first day of kindergarten, not knowing whether to walk forward, sit down, say something or just stand on the threshold and wait for permission to enter. My wife, Christine, is much more daring and enters with bold determination, going straight for the kitchenette and opening the bottle of champagne already chilled in the bucket on the counter. Nice touch by the staff, nice indeed, because each of us are looking for a distraction, and we’re nervous. No one wants to be the first to insinuate or suggest anything forward or sexual, so we move like molasses and take in the entire visual of the room, joking, teasing, talking---all of this to make the tension and anticipation bearable.
I am consumed by her, wanting to take Christine at this very moment---her tight yellow flowered sun-dress hugs her salacious hips and breasts, and her ivory skin, smooth and fragrant from the scented lotion, has just a visible sheen on her thighs that stretch and reach from the bottom of her hem and extend to her sandaled feet. The two are giggling, talking nonsense, and I continue to trace my wife’s body with a trance-like gaze. She is 5’ 10" and has a short bobbed haircut that bounces and jiggles with her every move. Her calves are so strong and supple; her thighs seem to call my lips into action; I can taste and feel what its like to nibble on them, to tenderly nibble of her flesh and tease that precious fold of skin just below her ass cheek---I feel and see all of this as we casually relax in our room of fantasy, without the slightest inclination or hint that, perhaps, they are thinking and dreaming of the same wonderful thing—that my friend, Adam, will fuck my wife tonight.
Adam sits on the chair, taking the glass of wine from Christine, and drinks it nearly too fast—so fast that we all laugh, breaking the nervous tension that hangs like a cloud over this room. A million things seem to be racing through our minds, I imagine---sexual positions, fucking Christine over here, then over there, and there, and over there, too---and we drink our drinks in silence not knowing what to say or do.
I can’t wait any longer, so I finally say, "I don’t know about you two, but I am dying to try this whirlpool out." There, it’s done. A beginning. Has to start somewhere and I really don’t particularly care if they wait awhile to get in. The thing is, I really do want to be in the water right now—hot, scalding water with wonderful bubbles, relaxing as hell, the drunk-like feeling you get, that wonderful clouding of the brain that comes from the steamy water. So I fill up the hot-tub, the echoes of crashing water gives me goose-bumps, and I feel slightly dizzy. I think about what will happen in the next few hours as I stare at the water and the swirling foam: How far will it go, and where will it lead, and will I get lost in the moment and suggest things that I shouldn’t, and will she forget about me and lose herself in his touch, in his kisses, in his organs, and isn’t that the whole point and, and, and . . .?
Christine is up, now, and is going into the bathroom, and she stops and kisses me and there is that look in her eyes that I need, that I’ve always needed from all of this perhaps---as if she knows what I am thinking, knows me better than myself. She’s telling me it will be just what we wanted and nothing more, everything will be about us and only us in a sick, twisted way, and mostly she tells me in that long, full kiss that she loves me and always will.
While she shuts the door, Adam is up and sits by my side on the whirlpool ledge, running his fingers through the water, probably doing the same mental exercises that nearly made me momentarily lose my mind a minute ago. He doesn’t say anything, because, if he does, it will come out all wrong. He’s waiting, waiting for me to initiate the whole thing, not wanting to presume or ruin any possible moment with my wife. I wanna make a joke or bring up something completely unrelated with my best friend, but I can’t. And just when I think one of us is going to say something, Christine opens the door, and both of us look up and see her standing in the doorway in a red swimming suit, her enormous breasts nearly falling out of the smooth, tight bikini top
I slip into the tub, while Adam goes over to the kitchenette again and starts to pour wine into our three glasses. Christine quickly slips into the whirlpool. Not ready, yet, for us to take her entire body into picture, into focus, still self-conscious. Not long. Not long from now.
I am sitting across from my wife in the hot-tub and I am dying to rush to her and take her, embrace her, make love to her right there, but I do my best to relax, closing my eyes, wanting her to read my thoughts and come over to me.
It has to be you that touches me. I so need it, even after all of this, I need you to touch me and reassure me, love me. Let him stay out there for a while, just let me have her like this
—I feel her toes on my ankles and I open my eyes and she is looking at me, her beautiful eyelashes are damp and the look and smile that says,
I love you
, but oh yes,