It wasn't unusual for Billy to feel like this. The feeling of being empty and desolate that was left behind once the men had come and taken their pleasures from her body, whether she writhed in pleasure or in pain, it was theirs to take. They always left just as quickly as they had come, throwing their money at her feet without a second glance, their pants in a pool at their feet as soon as she had put the money in the jar next to the mattress that was on the floor. They always asked the same questions, whether or not she was sure she didn't have any STD's and if she had any condoms. They didn't always come prepared, some showed up right after work looking slightly afraid, as if they had no idea how they had gotten there, or if they were sure that this was what they wanted. But they didn't stay baffled for long, she may have felt used up and dried on the inside, but she tried to look as youthful as ever. She kept her coco toned skin glowing with store brand lotion, she washed her hair nightly and let her son brush it to his little hearts content, and she brushed her teeth often. There was never enough food in the house for her to gain weight, any excess food went to her son and his lunches. It was never good to look like a rundown ho, like her body had been used by a brutish army, though men took what they could get, they never came back for seconds if the merchandise wasn't satisfactory the first time. She refused to look like a stereotypical whore.
She ran her operation out of a room in a rundown warehouse along with a few other women. Their faces changed just as quickly as the days, never the same girl for more than a week. As far as she knew, she was the only one that had decided that being a nomad was bad for business. Billy had made friends when she first found the place, but they had long since abandoned the place. Some had died or they had never planned to stay there for long in the first place. She had one friend in particular that had promised to stay with her as long as it was safe. She hadn't lasted very long, her pimp didn't approve of the location, or the type of men that had come looking for her "services." The last Billy had seen of her friend, she had been covered in bruises and shaking, it wasn't the first time she had been beaten by her pimp, but it had been the first time that he had done it to that severity. Billy's friend didn't come back the next day, nor did she say good bye. She had left no trace of her existence and she had broken her promise. Billy tried to steer clear of pimps, they were always trouble. With them came the plague of drugs and beatings that would leave her looking like a shell on a dirty mattress. She had come close to being taken by them on several occasions, but she had gotten out of the deal. She kept a small gun under her mattress and took it with her in her bra when she walked home. She refused to end up like her friend, afraid and controlled by a man that took her earnings when he didn't have to complete the degrading act himself. Plus, if she was ever to be controlled by one, he would want to know of her personal life, and her son. She would be damned if she let some disgusting waste of sperm and egg near her reason for breathing.
Her son looked just like the perfect combination of Billy and his daddy. His daddy was a man that had come in a business suit with a thick wad of cash. He was someone that had come by before, but had only looked and assessed the women that were there. His strides echoed throughout the small hallways as he glanced at each girl in each room. When He passed by her door she had been "busy" on all fours facing the door. The man atop her at the moment had been a brutish pig that sweated as much as he weighed and snorted and grunted like he was being beaten. Her eyes were open and her long hair was being pulled on by the pig's meaty hands when she saw Him pass by. His eyes had only glanced into her room for a second, but it that was all it took for her to know that she needed Him. She needed him like she needed her next breath. His face wasn't spectacular, nor was his hair something to gawk at, but his eyes, his eyes had pierced her. They were an ice cold blue that bespoke of a story untold, as though he had seen and experienced things in a different plane of existence. She needed to drown in his eyes, she needed to know all there was to know about him. She needed what she never had had before, she needed intimacy. As quickly as she had glimpsed him, he had disappeared and her mind would be lost in translation for the rest of the day. She would not remember the Russian man that smelt like an odd combination of baby powder and raw meat, nor would she remember the man that had come in and chanted "Tina" in her ear while he rutted atop her; she would only remember those eyes.
The next day, she arrived in her small hovel that always smelt of body fluids and body odor to see Him standing there with His arms behind his back. As soon as she walked in His eyes zoomed in on hers and her steps faltered. She walked by Him and placed her small purse between the mattress and small jar on the floor. She got herself situated in her "home" away from home, all the while keeping her back facing Him, afraid of what she would do if she stared into His eyes for a prolonged amount of time. Once she was done with her "situating" she was out of things to distract herself with and she needed to attend to the waiting "client." The whole time she had been building up her courage to look at Him, He had been silent, but as soon as she had turned and looked at Him he spoke.
"I'll give you as much as you want for one weekend with me. But there are conditions that you must abide by."
She looked at him with her wide honey colored eyes and her lips slightly parted. Why would this man want a hooker for a weekend when he could just as easily get himself a nice woman from a local coffee shop? Why would he want someone that was damaged, and most likely carrying an STD in his bed with him, and would she ever be able to leave him if she went with him? All these questions and more zoomed around in her head, but the only one that came out was,
"2000$?" She didn't want to go too steep with her price, he may just look at her like she was crazy and walk out, and she couldn't go through her life never knowing him as she yearned to. He gazed wordlessly into her eyes for what seemed like hours on end, but was really only five seconds, before he finally spoke.
"If that is what you want, then it is what you will get."
She didn't smile, she didn't grin, smirk, simper, beam, she stared at him with wide eyes and thought of the bills she could get caught up on with that money, the essentials that she could attend to for herself and the back rent that she could give her landlord if she had that money. While she silently contemplated her life with 2000$ he began to speak again.
"Don't forget the conditions," he gave a small smirk as though he could read her mind. "You don't need to tell me your name; actually, I don't want to know your name. I don't want to know your personal life and I don't want you to dig into my personal life. When you come with me, you will be required to wear a blind fold, and you won't be allowed to speak once we exit this room. One word out of you without my permission and the deal is off. You will receive the money when I am done with you, if at any moment you are uncomfortable with what I am doing, you will speak the safe word; pea. There isn't anything that you need from your home, I can provide you with the essentials you will need for the weekend. If there is a pet you need to make arrangements for, someone that you need to let know you will be gone, let me know now." He stopped speaking and looked at her inquiringly; however, she didn't have anyone that she was worried about, or anyone that would be worried about her.