i remain rooted to the spot. i don't know what she plans, but i will not allow her to make my mission a complete failure. i will slip away and find a better spot for tomorrow.
"If you don't come along I will scream and all the men will come running."
Her words don't frighten me too greatly, i have stopped many larger groups than the one around this campfire.
"I will say you attacked me!"
While i don't fear their death bows, my mother gave me protection against the rocks, an attack against the Chief's daughter would be a prelude to war. That would ruin the whole plan. Defeated i stepped towards her - showing my willingness to follow.
She smiled. Ripped my heart out!
"Good little boy"
i didn't understand how she could call a mighty warrior like me, little, but i couldn' t argue.
She walked carefully, like an native, to her cabin. Once we were inside she closed the door.
She stood face to face, i could feel her warm breath on my neck, i could feel her chest points almost touching my chest. She was almost my height and yet she never looked up at me. i felt almost like i was looking up at her, but that seems so weird.
Her hand reached to touch my face. Like so many before her, my face is such that she can't help but touch. Her hand pauses by my cheek and for a moment i feel like leaning in to complete the transaction, but i can't figure out why i would even want that. i just know i do.
After that moment, she lowers her hand onto me, and she pets my cheek, like i was a horse. i feel like yelling at her or asking what she is doing, but i keep to my warrior code and stay silent.
"You are just the cutest thing. You must be tired from standing all day. Why don't you rest on the floor?"
i look around for something to relax on, seeing nothing i drop to my knees and i begin to adjust myself so i can sit normally.
"That's a good position" she giggles, "Let's see how strong you are. Stay like that"
i yell on the inside, 'what kind of game or you playing. First, you tell me to relax and now i'm kneeling on my knees?' but i remain stoic.
i find myself facing her midsection, and now i am truly looking up at her.
Her hand covers my long head hair and she pets me.
i want to run away. i want to grab her and throw her on the bed. i do nothing.
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Part Four:
i feel her hand on my head. She is pushing my head, down!
i allow her to push me down, and instinctively my hands drop to catch myself.
i sat in that position for a moment. Then i felt her hand on my backside, she lifted my waist covering. i couldn't believe that she was looking there. Now i felt her hand curved around my bottom. She patted me softly. i could feel my bottom jump and fall from her touch. i felt her hand moving about my nether region, and then i felt her finger on my hole. i almost screamed out. i almost jumped up and punished her for putting me in the position of a lass. But i did none of that. Instead i crouched there meekly, while her finger made circles into me. i'm ashamed to say i stayed there like a mare as she mounted me with her finger. i felt her finger rub parts of my body i never knew existed and i felt my snake rising up. Just as i was realizing the connection between her motions inside me and my awakedness, her other hand reached around to incircle me. With her soft hand she was stroking me, and with her hard hand she had completely penetrated me. i could feel her palm pressing against my end and i knew at this point i was her puppet.
i tried once more to summon the strength to return things to normal. i focus all my energy and called of the Spirit of Breath, and just as i was about to release my hands from the floor and push her away...
she cooed, "I see you really like this pony boy" and she gave a little laugh. Not an evil laugh. A laugh that said she was surprised at how happy it was making us.
With her casual putdown and her amaxazing laugh i gained insight. i think i really did enjoy this! Maybe not as much as sinking my snake into her rabbit hole, but still...
And so i stayed docile, tamed? and ready for her to release me;)
But, just as i felt the poison welling up within my snake. Just as her hand was about to get coated. She released me.
And then after one last twist from deep within me, pressing all my internal buttons, she withdrew her finger.
i was confused.
She took her hand up to my face and held it there. i could see her finger was clean, but i could smell my sweat on her.
"I should make you clean it with your mouth" she teased, but then she moved her hand away and wrapped it in a leaf.
"you may get up now" she said. Without another word she rose and walked out of the room. i followed her with my eyes. i enjoyed the waves Her bottom made as She sashayed out of the room. i thought to myself, next time She'll be the one kneeling.
i slowly raised up to a standing position, my bottom hurt a little from the intrusion, but it wasn't terrible. i made my way outside and once i found shelter i contemplated what i should do.
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Part Five:
i knew that the right thing to do was to return to camp and report to my Chief that i had failed. i wasn't able to hide properly and for all knew she had already told her father that i was there.
If she did, it wouldn't take very long for the second-in-command to convince the pale man's chief that he should send out a hunting party. And while i could withstand their death bows, my tribemates could not. We would need all our finest on the front lines ready for an invasion.
i knew that if i returned i would be disgraced before the tribe. No one would ever want to talk to me. Perhaps even the Medicine Women wouldn't heal me when i was ill. i knew that i would be seen as a failure of the lowest order. my dreams of one day leading the tribe would never come true.
More than my desire to keep my tribe safe, my still unsatisfied body wished to remain right here and figure out how to get the white woman of my dreams.
Deep down i knew She was my destiny. i knew that even if i returned to camp She would eventually be mine, but i didn't want to wait for destiny. i wanted Her now!
And so i spent the night debating and justifying that She wasn't going to tell anyone. i justified that She just wanted a good time and there was no reason to panic. i justified that i should be proud for having kept silent, even as she "tortured" me. Mostly i justified staying, because i wanted to be with her again.
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Part Six:
Shortly before the sun arrived, i found a quiet place to sleep.
When i woke up i was instantly alert. Had i miscalculated? Was there a posse on it's way to my friends now? i quickly stole over to the white man's camp and saw that everything was calm. There was no hint of panic or stress. Since the sun was still overhead i tread very carefully.
Once i satisfied my curiousity i walked back silently to my hiding place.
As i walked i imagined She was watching me. i wondered how She knew where i was hiding last time. Why had She degraded me so badly last night? What did She get out of it?
i had so many questions in my head, but i was still very alert and i am extra careful to make less noise than even the ant walking the soil.
When i got back to my hiding place i surprised to find that my pile of leaves had been disturbed. i looked about and realized She was up the tree watching me!
She descended quickly and stood before me. She was so quiet i wondered again if she descended from the fox.
i couldn't even wonder how She found my place again, or why She was here, before She grabbed my hair. It hurt! She pulled my hair down and i quickly got into the position from the previous night.
i was not surprised when her hand once again held my bottom. But this time, she started massaging my snake ( Sioux means "Lesser Snake" in Chippawa. :) ), and immediately it grew and appeared furious. i felt Her rub something around it, and then She peeled it off. i looked down, but i couldn't understand what She was doing.
i felt her teasing my hole and i found myself hoping She'd enter and relieve me, but She didn't... and before i knew it, She was gone.
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Part Seven:
i began to dread and anticipate my time here. i knew that made no sense, but i worried what was happening to me, and i looked forward to feeling her pleasure. For some reason all the girls in my camp didn't excite me half as much as this Girl's hair grabbing.
There's no reason for a warrior like me to submit to her demands. Why hadn't i pulled her hair back? She has more than i. Why did i kneel like a lovesick dog before her?
i resolved to pin her to the ground next time. i know i will hold her down and force Her to take me into her mouth. And once She tastes that, She'll be begging me to feed it to other parts of her body. And this time i will surely empty the quiver before we finish.
The sky began to mourn the sun and the moon ascended it's throne. i cautiously made my way to the gathering place. i listened carefully. The settlers were talking about religious nonsense and community gossip. Everything seemed calm, and i let out a deep breath i had unknowingly been holding.
i was not at all surprised when out of nowhere She suddenly was at my side.
"Come" she demanded. Without a fight i followed her again to her cabin.
"Are you going to talk tonight or will i have to torture you again."
Suddenly, i understood. She hadn't been trying to excite me? She was trying to make me speak! That would explain why she stopped it early, before i spewed, but why was She letting me stick around? It was then that i knew that She had been following me since i arrived. That's how She always knew where i was, and that i was not a threat.
Did this also mean She had kept quiet about me?
"I see. Still keeping quiet. [sigh] okay drop down. or do I have to set you down?"
i saw She was preoccupied with Her silly games of domination, and seeing my chance, i sprang at her.
One of my hand reached for her neck, while the other went to circle Her waist.
As fast as i was, and as sneaky as i can be, i was not fast or sneaky enough this time. She smartly stepped to the side and my hands barely grazed her vest. i crashed to the floor and immediately She was above me, pushing my head against the floor. Hard!