"No, I bet they were from Randy," I replied quickly.
"Oh. She's pissed. What should I tell her?" Why is this guy asking me this question, I thought to myself. "Tell her he did it as a joke," I said.
"We didn't do anything did we? I really don't remember," he said. "You don't remember?" I asked somewhat incredulously. "You wanted to taste me. We got way drunk and then high. And then we made out and then, and then it moved on from there."
"No, we didn't," said Isaiah.
"Ummm, yes we did." I started laying out the facts. "There was even penetration. There was, well sort of. I guess I was as much responsible for that one." "You were?" He asked.
"Yes. As much as you were saying you wanted to taste me. I was saying I wanted to feel you inside me," I confessed.
"But seriously, I can't do this," I said as solidly as I could.
"Well, OK, thanks, but I just can't think that night between us was like the song Earned It, by The Weeknd, do you know it?" he asked.
"No, I don't, and I have to go," I hung up.
I checked out the song. A recent hip hop hit from 50 Shades of Gray Part II. Oh great I thought, what is this going to be? It was a really cool song, although the video, a bit shocking. It was about a woman that had it going on and deserved to have a good time. I had doubted both for myself, for far too long. A long marriage, that began when I was only 19 to a man more than a decade older that had been lacking in affection, love, and respect, for many years. He wouldn't go with me to the party where I had met Isaiah, or much anywhere else with me for that matter, a common argument. I was still a model mother, worker and daughter. The song hooked me. I responded to his next text. Yes, I liked the song.
We began to talk, a lot. On my hour long commute to and from the city. Sometimes mid-day calls too and texts, mainly while I took a bath or before bed. We had fun. We kept our texts PG-13 saving XXX ratings for when we stole precious time alone together.
That first such time would come that weekend. Marriott. He met me by the side door. He said we'd just hang out, nothing serious. My body was betting on him lacking in the restraint department. We smoked a cigarette, drank Old English which I liked, and also got high.