The majority of the week was spent studying. It was hard enough to keep up with that while getting texts from everyone asking,
"U gonna do it?"
,
Or others telling me not to do him. Scott kept shooting pix of himself to me, hot and tempting, which added more fuel to the fire culminating between us. Thursday came, but instead of school, Philosophy was meeting at the public library for our essay final. I hadn't seen Scott all week, so this was gonna be the first time since the incident at his house.
Walking up the steps to the library, I was nervous and unsure. Part of me wanted to turn and leave before he saw me, yet, I still wanted to see him. He had texted the past few days, asking if I was avoiding him. I told him 'no' but the truth was, yes. Why was I doing that when I wanted to see him so bad? It was scary wanting him as much as I did, it felt like too much - too fast. However, Wednesday night, I wasn't going to be indecisive anymore. I would let him know that I wanted to be with him. If he could take a risk by defying his friends he had known all his life, I could take one, too.
I found everyone sitting at different tables in the reading area set aside for our class. The instructor pointed at it and told me where to sit. It was his table. There were two guys besides us, with the only seat being directly across from him. I smiled at everyone and Scott put his head down, his hair covering his face. The other guys at the table kind of smiled/leered at each other then looked me up and down. At first, I thought maybe they had seen what happened between Scott and I in class last week, until I remembered what I was wearing.
My tits were just barely covered by the strappy black, tank top I was wearing. I didn't wear a bra, either. My long, black hair was curled and wild. I even wore a little jean skirt with a thong. I had on sandals that were 3 inch platforms and my toenails were painted red. Like my lips and nails. Yep, they were leering and whispering. Probably saying,
'What a slut.'
or
'I'd like to fuck that.'
The guy next to me leaned in and said, as he tried to look down my top, "I think you're gonna make it hard for us to study." He snickered as he licked his lipped, in a lewd, disgusting way.
God, guys could be so stupid. Like just because a girl wears something sexy, it gives them the right to act like asshats? No...that day, this girl's booby shots were only for one guy only. I pushed my the heel of my shoe into his foot and gave him a look that said
'Die scum.'
and I dug it in. His friend looked confused when he didn't say a word but got up, took his stuff and sat at another table. Scott looked around real quick then went back to writing on his paper, his cheeks were bright red. The loser's friend got up and joined him at the other table, a questioning look on his face. Good. We were alone. I pushed my chair in closer and leaned across the table to whisper to him.
"Hey, what's up?" He didn't look up, just keep writing.
I wasn't sure what that meant, so I tried to get his attention, "Psst. Hey..." but the instructor came by and said to not talk since we didn't have much time. Like I would listen. I just waited til he left and whispered Scott's name again.
Scott looked up at me, gave me a half-smile then went back to writing.
Oh hell, no.
I knew he was pissed because he thought I was blowing him off. Jeez. This was like being iggied by a girlfriend, but worse. I stretched and looked around, taking stock of everyone. Our table was in a corner behind some half-cabinets of books on one side and on the other was an empty table. The rest of the class was seated farther away, most of the other kids didn't want to be too near the professor. I turned back to Scott and caught him looking at my tits. Perfect.
I grinned and stared back at him, before he put his head back down. His long hair was drooping over his face, so I couldn't really see his expression. I wanted to push it back and try to see what he was thinking, but then everyone would know what was up between us. I didn't know if I was ready for that just yet. I liked the idea of our flirting and no one being aware of what was going on between us.