Falling For You Ch 02

Chapter 3

I was fucked, that was the honest to God truth, when I read the blurb for Emilia's story I knew I shouldn't read it, it seemed to close to comfort.

She was an amazing writer honestly, but the idea that what she wrote projected any of her fantasies was too much for me to handle.

It seemed I was exactly her type, it seemed like she likes the power exchange games I used to like in my youth, she seems to have a fascinating dirty mind, I find myself waking up with drenched in sweat and with the hard on from hell for the third night in a row from dreaming about reenacting her sexy book with her.

If it was only sexual I probably would have been able to get over it, but everyday I go sit next to her near the lake and we talk about everything in life, how to make the community better, I even told her about my family which I never do, how losing my brother and then both my parents in quick succession have sent me into priesthood.

I even told her how I thought my brother was gay and how I hated that he didn't tell me while he was a life and how horribly I probably treated his ex since his and my family's passing, even though Ben have tried extremely hard to be a good friend to me, and he was the one who encouraged me to finish my engineering degree before joining the church.

"You know he lived with my family for awhile, his parents weren't the nicest and my mom just took him in he was even John's roommate in college, he was there when they died, both of my parents, I never really gave him credit for that, I think I just punished him for knowing something about my brother that I didn't, and he also didn't think I should become a priest. "

I don't add how I'm staring to think he was correct, that she was making me hope I didn't take any vows.

"Why didn't he think you should be a priest? "

"Well, he said it shouldn't be a decision to make while grieving, he thought they shouldn't have used my grief. "

I do air quotes with my fingers and she just stared at me.

"What? "

"How long between losing you are parents and entering priest training? "

"Well as I said he nagged me about finishing school, so maybe 9 months or so. "

She keeps looking steadily at me.

" You agree with him? "

"Look I think you are an amazing priest but I just think people shouldn't make life altering decisions when they are grieving, and I think you should give Ben a break, I mean he lost what could be considered his family as well and from all your stories he tried to be a good friend to you, I wasn't his fault your brother wasn't ready to come out to you yet. "

The truth, she made me think, she made me want and she made me feel and I wanted her like crazy.

It went for a more than a month I read her books, I talked to her everyday and I wanted, and I prayed like never before for the craziness to end but it seemed like every prayer was going unanswered.

Till the day I entered the soup kitchen, there was a commotion, shouting and the door closed shut loudly.

"What is going on here? "

I inquire loudly, mother Claire is wringing her hands, Paul an eager but annoying volunteer is looking every where but at me.

"Well? "

"Well father, it's miss Emilia, she got upset and left. "

Mother Claire explains but since Emilia is least temperamental person I know I don't think that's the whole story.

I direct my gaze to Paul.

"Explain!! "

"Father, I asked her out and she said no, maybe I persisted a little and she lost it. "

I glare both at him and mother Claire and leave.

I know I probably shouldn't go to her house but I don't care I can't leave her alone when I know she is upset.

She opens the door and there she stands eyes red from crying, looking prettier than she has any right to be.

"What happened baby? "

The endearment slips and I don't give a damn.

"Nothing Garrett, really, I think I maybe over reacted. "

She hangs her head,and I take her hand and pull her to the couch, I sit close to her like she's almost in my lap.

"Hey, none of that, nothing you feel is an over reaction, you don't need to give a reason for being uncomfortable. "

And with her in my arms she tells me to her parents how they almost sold her for drugs, how she feared relationships and was gun shy about men and I started getting a picture.

"Are you a virgin?!! "

I am probably stuttering and acting like an ass. She looks down shyly, her face a gorgeous pink and nods.

"But your books? "

She gives an amazing laugh.

"It's called fiction for a reason Garrett, they're fantasies. "

"Well you have a fantastic imagination. "

I look between us and she is literally in my lap and she understands me perfectly.

"I trust you, you make me feel safe and has nothing to do with you being a priest, it's just you. "

We are looking at each other and I just find my hands around her and my lips on hers, she opens for me and I enter mouth, my tongue is rubbing hers and I have one hand on her ass and the other in her hear, devouring her, swallowing her moans as she rubs her body against me, I am so hard I can burst and then I put my hands inside her pants to touch her and she jumps away.

We are staring are each other from opposite sides of the couch.

"We can't Garrett. "

"I'm sorry. " she shakes her head.

"No, I want you I really do, but you would hate me and yourself when it's over. "

I don't say anything till I reach the door.

"Can I come back tonight? "

She seems like she wants to argue but then she nods her head sadly like she doesn't have and choice, and I wonder if we ever had a choice since we met.

I walk out and I do something I never did before and test Ben, the only non church friend I seem to have.

" I need to talk, can I come to your house? Do you have alcohol? "