Walks like a duck, quacks like a duck but might not be a fucking duck. I think that sentence describes me perfectly. My name is Heidi Tremblay, and I was born in the City of Montreal, province of Quebec, to a French Canadian family. From early on I've been a tomboy, excelling at everything from soccer to basketball and cross country. I played rugby at McGill University, where I studied criminology before moving to the City of Ottawa, Ontario, where I started working for the RCMP in a civilian capacity. Not everyone who works for the RCMP is a gun-carrying federal cop. Some of us are office workers.
When people see me, they always tell me that I'm tall. It's true, at six-foot-one while barefoot, with my blonde hair and icy green eyes, I'm not what anyone would consider short or unremarkable. I stand out in a crowd. Still, there's more to me than that, you know? Also, even though I'm heavily into bodybuilding, I don't like people constantly commenting on my muscles or treating me as though being tall and muscular makes me less of a woman. Are female bodybuilders less feminine than other women? I sincerely doubt that. I am very much a woman, thank you very much. Why am I into bodybuilding? I like being fit, and I like being strong. I wish people would stop gawking when they see me but whatever. We live in a world full of idiots, I've realized that a long time ago.
Given what I do for a living and my private hobby, it's not easy for me in the dating game. Tell people that you work for the RCMP and they automatically think you're a cop. And if you look like you could bench-press a truck ( people think I can, I've never tried ) people make all kinds of assumptions about you. A lot of guys are intimidated by me because of my height, my being a bodybuilder, and my level of education and professional achievement. I don't mind dating men shorter than I am. If I like you, then I like you. Yet men seem to think that just because I'm taller than they are means that I somehow look down on them. That's not true. The only people I look down upon are those who hurt the innocent. I run into a lot of them in my line of work. That's why I don't date guys from work or even remotely connected to what I do for a living.
Yeah, it's not easy being me. I'm thirty two years old, and I've been single for about a year. I honestly cannot recall the last time I've had sex. I'm honestly starting to wonder if I might have to start the online dating thing or consult a professional matchmaker to meet a man. Yes, I'm interested in men. I'm one hundred percent heterosexual. Not curious about women in any way, shape or form. You'd think a woman with my good looks, education and money wouldn't be spending most of her Friday nights on the couch, watching TV and crying herself to sleep at night, but you'd be wrong. The loneliness I felt ran deep, and cut through me like a butcher's knife. I went to singles events, did the speed-dating and mingling thing and still ended up alone. Yay, welcome to my life.