I broke up with my first boyfriend in 1999, right after my 29th birthday. Though we had been together 13 years and had a nine-year old daughter together, he still wasn't willing to marry me. I felt the relationship had run its course, but it was still a difficult decision to make because I didn't think I had a good chance of finding another man. Being fat, black and only interested in white guys, my options were few. And over the next 4 Β½ years, I had only a few dates; no serious boyfriends. I masturbated a lot but that's not a good substitute for the real thing.
Finally, in late 2003, I broke down and finally bought a computer and got on the internet. I felt that was my best chance to find someone. I put up some personal ads on dating sites but didn't find anything. So on New Year's Eve, my longtime best friend Kim and I planned to do what we do every New Year's Eve -- go to a weed party.
I wasn't planning on picking up anyone there, so I dressed very plainly, with jeans, a sweatshirt and running shoes. As I was rolling up some joints and waiting for Kim to pick me up, she called me and told me and told me to check my e-mail. She's white and knows I'm into white guys and she had e-mailed me the URL of a white man-black woman community for my state. I went there and found out they were having a party that night just about 15 minutes away from me. I instantly called Kim back and asked if she'd take me there on the way to her party. She said yes! I quickly grabbed a plain white T shirt and navy blue mini-skirt.
I smoked a cigarette in the car and one on the front porch of the house, to hold me over for a couple of hours, then stuffed a handful of mints in my mouth. I didn't want to turn off any hot white studs with my nicotine breath! I knocked on the door and a few seconds later a very young black woman and a middle aged white man, who I later found out were a couple, answered the door. They were very welcoming and guided me down to the basement. I first went to the bathroom down there and changed into my T shirt and mini-skirt. I walked into the party wearing just those two items -- barefooted and with no bra or thong. I set the clothes I came in down in a corner.
I grabbed a beer and observed the crowd. About 30 people were there, about equally divided between men and women. Most appeared to be in their 20s, 30s and 40s. The lights were pretty dim and a DJ was there, cranking out contemporary black music.
I talked to a couple of girls and couples but no single men. After about an hour, it was 12:15 and I hadn't seemed to attract anyone. I was thinking about calling Kim, hoping she wasn't stoned yet, and asking her to come over, pick me up, and take me to the weed party. But a few minutes later, I noticed a handsome man standing about 10 feet away and staring at me. He was skinny and barely taller than me, had a very light complexion and looked much younger than me. He didn't at all look like the kind of guy I would expect to be into a black BBW.
But he kept staring at me. His eyes glanced all over my body and he seemed particularly interested in my 46DDs and my size 11 feet, which were highlighted by maroon toenail polish. To entice him, I shook my body to make my knockers jiggle and struck several different poses with my feet.