"That's so fucking sick! It's a wonder that his dick didn't fall off!" Sean said, making a face. Even he had to admit that he knew he wasn't helping Kassidy's situation by talking about the Tina-Jackson incident, it was just so hard not to. He felt a flicker of hope for them when she finished telling him the story. Honestly, he hated this for his friend, she deserved better but he couldn't help the feeling that he may have another chance with her.
"No kidding," Kassidy grumbled, taking another sip of her 'girly drink' or so Sean called it. She wasn't feeling up to going out, so she just invited Sean over to her place to hang out. They were sitting on the floor of her living area with a few bottles sitting on her coffee table.
"It is really fucking cool that your dad finally kicked her out, though," Sean said, shrugging... he couldn't be a complete dick.
"Yeah, there's always that," she said, a small smile playing on her full lips. As much as she hated that her boyfriend was a part of it, this cloud does have a silver lining... She would never have to see Tina again.
"I just don't get how he thought she was you... I've been feeling that mouth for years and there's no way in hell that I would be able to confuse it with anyone else's," Sean said, leaning back against her sofa. Kassidy took a nervous sip of her drink....she could see his muscles flexing under his thin, white tee shirt. Her breath hitched in her throat when he stretched, exposing about an inch of his bare lower abdomen.
"Gee, thanks," she said, rolling her eyes. She threw a throw pillow at him, hitting him in his hard chest. She had no idea what to make of his comment, though she knew that knowing Sean, he meant that as a compliment.
"I'm serious! Plus, I meant that in the best way possible," he said, setting the pillow behind his head. Sean took in her appearance for what seemed to be the thousandth time since he'd been there. She looked damn near irresistible in her white tank top and plush pink and purple Hello Kitty pajama pants... he could almost swear that she was trying to test him to see how long she could tease him before he took her up on her nonverbal offer. There was always the slim chance that she was completely oblivious to the sexual agony that she was inflicting on him... he preferred to think it wasn't the latter.
"Well, I'm gonna get some water to dilute some of this alcohol," Kassidy said, setting her glass down.
"Oh, please," Sean said, rolling his eyes, "The alcohol content in that girly, fruity shit you're drinking is damn near nonexistent."
"Some of us don't drink 364 days of the year," she said, getting to her feet, "Do you want some?"
"Hell yeah," he said, his mind going a different route. Kassidy stumbled into the kitchen, knocking Sean's keys to the floor with a carelessly swaying left hip. "Easy there...Oh, and I don't drink 364 days out of a year, I drink 50 of the 52 weekends of the year... there's a huge difference, Kassidy."
"Is there?" she asked, filling two cups with water and carrying them back to the living room. She had nearly made it to the coffee table before she tripped over the rug, spilling the water.
"You okay?" Sean asked, rushing over to her. Kassidy watched in awe as his muscles flexed enticingly under his shirt... had he been working out more? She had nearly forgot about the nagging ache in her elbow as he go to his knees beside her.
"I-I'm fine," Kassidy stammered, avoiding his green eyes. Her heart thudded audibly in her chest as the scent of his cologne made it to her nose . She absent-mindedly nibbled her lower lip. Between the alcohol and the intensity of her feelings for Sean, she could hardly think straight and him being in that close of proximity to her wasn't helping at all.
"Are you sure?" he asked, taking her chin between his fingers forcing her to look into his eyes. He was taken aback by the amount of emotion and lust that etched her features... Without another word, he leaned forward and kissed her. Not a demanding kiss, not a possessive kiss, but a kiss that told her everything she needed to know about where he stood. She closed her eyes and returned the kiss, allowing him to wrap his arms around her waist and pull her into his lap.
After a few minutes, she began to return to her senses... She felt his erection prodding the crotch of her pajama bottoms, she felt his lips moving against hers, and she felt the heat of his body all around her... This wasn't good. "Sean," she whispered against his lips. He knew that whatever followed his name at that point in time couldn't be good. Instead of responding, he left her lips to nibble along her collarbone. "Sean," she moaned as he grinded his cock against her clit.
He pulled her shirt over her head and tossed it carelessly to the floor. "Fuck, I love you," he said, running his fingertips along her shoulder blades. Kassidy tilted her head backwards as he peppered her cleavage with kisses. She knew that he loved her, she also knew that she felt the same way about him but Jackson... Jackson!
"Sean, I can't do this," she said, attempting to get off of his lap but was held in place by his strong hands. The look of hurt on his face made her chest ache.
"Kassidy, I love you. I love you more than you'll ever believe. I swear to God if you gave me the chance, I'd show you everyday that you made the right choice. I've loved you since the sixth grade when I first moved to Greenland and didn't know anyone. I was just so fucking stupid... I've been stupid for a long ass time. Shit that didn't fucking matter took precedence when I've had everything I ever wanted right here with me all along," he said, sincerely.
Kassidy felt the tears well up in her eyes. This wasn't fair... not fair to her and especially not fair to Jackson. She loved Sean to pieces but something was telling her that Jackson was who she should be with. She swallowed the lump in her throat before she began to speak:
"Sean, I love you, too. I really do, but I just can't do this to Jackson. He deserves better than this, he's a really good guy and I want to see where things go with him," she said calmly. Several emotions passed behind his eyes before he took a deep breath and exhaled for a prolonged amount of time. Kassidy could have almost sworn that she could almost hear his heart break in the deafening silence.
Without another word, he released her and looked away from her. The crushing that he felt in his chest was nearly unbearable which under any other circumstances, he would have been embarrassed. Now, he felt nothing other than pain and the occasional stab of regret.