Step by Step Submission
This is a continuation of Model Wife to Mleccha, and readers would benefit from having read that. It is a complete story on its own. Please be respectful in the comments or I will disable them.
My name is Jan Thomas, I was once the model of the good wife, but since meeting Vivek, I was on a journey to become a good Mleccha instead.
It had become normal, this most abnormal of things. Here I was, good redheaded wife, mother, and teacher, starting my day by going up to the roof, undressing for Vivek's webcams and sunbathing. Discovering the cameras were there and he was watching had followed the first time I caught myself almost masturbating out of sexual frustration. Vivek, that beautiful dark Hindu man, our IT support teacher, didn't just give me permission, but ORDERED me to do so. Now I went each day to perform for his cameras. It slipped into more. He would come to the roof and direct me. How can I explain, to do what he said gave me intense pleasure. To be driven to the edge, then ordered not to cum made me almost helpless, but when finally given permission my body just about came apart I orgasmed so strongly. Vivek was engaged to Sitta, and would not lay a finger on me. He was going to be a good husband; a better one than I had because he could please me more than any love I have had without even touching me.
Vivek and I did lunch together in the cafeteria every day. It was a natural progression I didn't even notice happening. I would be floating on a cloud of relaxation and pleasure from Vivek's direction, and never had I been allowed to give him anything in return. I was raised to always give a gift for a gift, so I felt so deeply in Vivek's debt that I began to look for any way to make even a little of that debt up. I needed to please him even a tiny bit as much as he pleased me. I began by cleaning up his tray and dishes, then I just seemed natural that I let him sit down and I went to fetch both of our foods for us. Soon I was baking things for him at home and bringing them in. Soon I was bringing things to his classroom, and for his students as well.
His students and mine began to wonder what it was about Vivek that had me waiting on him hand and foot, me being married and him being engaged. The girls in the classes all understood. Vivek was a dark, well dressed Hindu man. Soft spoken and lithely muscular. He had a rich voice and easy laugh. He wore his hair a touch long, and was always tossing his head to take that one stray lock out of his eyes, His eyes were, as the bulk of the female staff and students will attest, quite dreamy. Dark, deep and very expressive. For me, the thing that I obsessed about were his lips. Dark and so very expressive, sensuous. I dreamed of their touch more than I dreamed of sex with any lover I have ever had. He had become the whole of my fantasy life, and the whole of my sexual life. Without laying a finger on me, he had claimed me more completely than I could have dreamed was possible.
You would think that I would be the one being chased. I stand a very toned five foot seven, long red hair, pale skin only lightly freckled, bright blue eyes (behind glasses since I turned 40), and a 48GG-40-46 figure that was as fit as when I was twenty and in the army, even if gravity and three daughters had left the breasts both heavier and droopier than I liked. I had half the male students, and a few female, and most of the male staff looking at me all the time, but I had zero interest in cheating on my husband. Only, as the years past, my husbands sex drive died, and mine only got stronger. Channeling my sexual frustration into exercise only bought me time and worsened the scope of the problem as my body was fully awake and aware of its needs, and I had no channel to release them. Until Vivek. Oh Vivek, you tapped something in me that I cannot control, but because I understand that you can, I feel so safe in exploring it.
My visions of security in our new normal died at the beginning of February. I was serving Vivek some apple pie that I had baked at home (the cafeteria's desert selections were somewhat sad) after our butter chicken, when he broke the news to me.
"Listen Jan," Vivek said, touching my wrist gently, and catching my bright blue eyes in his deep brown pools "I have a wedding to go to in India. I will be gone two weeks. I do not know how much internet connection I will have there, but I will be thinking about you even if we won't have a chance to talk."
I collapsed like a string cut puppet onto the chair. I felt my skin go pale, my eyes fill with tears and a deep howling abyss of fear well up before me. I was a strong independent woman damn it! I was a teacher, a veteran, a mother, I didn't need a man not my husband simply to stay sane! Did I? I began to shake, my body reacting like an addict in withdrawal as the sick feeling built in me that perhaps I did NEED Vivek the way my body needed water, food, even air. Tears began to fall, hot and ugly as I wept silently.
Vivek's hand cupped my chin and turned me to face him. His voice was stern now, commanding. Knifing through my grief and panic like an axe through a sapling, his voice stilled my fear and fired my blood at the same time with an almost magical caress of sound.
"Are you mine, Jan? Are you my little Mleccha slut? Will you be mine even if I am not present to see you? Will you obey me when I cannot see that you do so? Will you please me by doing as I say, simply because it brings me joy that you do so?" Vivek's words washed not over me, but through me. Deep into my body and blood, into my mind, into my soul. There it was, spoken. The thing we had been dancing around for months now. I had been aware of how much I needed to please him, of how much I was starving for what he gave me, almost without effort on his part. We had never done anything irrevocable like expressing it out loud, but we had been both aware of how deep and how natural our path down my submission to him we had walked, without so much as a kiss.
There it was. In the old days, oaths were sacred. Your soul was in your breath, and when you gave your word, your bound yourself body and soul to the words you spoke. Before lawyers, before paper contracts, we understood that offering your word and pledging yourself was a sacred thing, a true thing. Is that what I wanted to do? I was married to my husband of twenty years, had three beautiful daughters and a life with him, yet he could not give me what I needed. I was not being offered marriage, i was not being offered even a partner or a lover. I was offered the chance to pledge myself to be his Mleccha, a plaything for this beautiful Hindu man, this fiance of another woman,. Become his property, even though I would get only those scraps of his affection he deigned to share, and his beautiful Sitta did not require.
On the face of it, it wasn't a choice at all. You did not ask the air for better terms; you could not give up breathing.