Editor's note: this story contains scenes of incest or incest content.
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I don't know how long I ran for, just that I ran till my lungs were on fire and my heart beat so hard I thought it was going to explode. When I did stop, I hutched over, huffing and puffing for a few minutes till I got my breath. Finally I looked up and saw I was at the forest on the edge of town. I continued to walk in till I found a big rock and sat down.
As I sat down I felt my cell phone vibrate. I pulled it out of my pocket and saw it was my mom calling. I waited for it to go to voice mail and then saw 13 missed calls, all from her. I turned my phone off.
I took a deep breath and when I exhaled, all the delusions I had made up crumbled. Mom wasn't forced the first two times, she gave in to his seduction. Mom wasn't too drunk on Friday, she invited him to come over. She wanted it. She wanted him.
Tears started to fall but I didn't sob. I had done that too many times because of Marcus and, now, because of her.
I started to question what I was going to do next. I had nowhere to go. I didn't have any friends so I couldn't go to them. I could go to aunt Cindy's but as soon as I walked in the door she would call mom and mom would come over. I could get a hotel room, but needed money.
That's when it dawned on me. I did have money. A lot of money. I could get an apartment and get out of the house. It would take some time with packing and moving.
I realized if I was going to actually do that, I wouldn't take anything she bought me. Not my clothes, not my bed or furniture. Just my computer I had built and laptop.
Only problem I saw was that mom had access to my banking information. That was an excuse I thought. She wasn't on my accounts. She just had the log in and password, which was easy to change.
I went to pull out my phone but remembered I turned it off. I didn't want to turn it on and get interrupted by her calls, texts or having to listen to her voice mails. I decided I would wait.
I sat on that rock for a long time. My emotions running all over from depression and anxiety to fear and horror. As night started to fall I settled on anger and rage.
I had no idea what time it was when I finally stood up and started walking in no direction in particular. It wasn't till I was a block or two away that I realized I was nearly home. No, not home. Marcus had destroyed my home. I was going to a place I could sleep.
I walked to the back door and took a deep breath before I opened it and walked in. I tried to be as quiet as possible. I glanced at the clock. It said 1 AM.
I started to walk towards the living room to get to the stairs to go down to my room. The sound of pounding of feet coming towards me told me I hadn't been quiet enough. When I was halfway across the room the light turned on.
"Oh god! Kevin! Where have you been? I have been so worried!" Mom said as she ran towards me with open arms.
"Don't you dare fucking touch me!" I said with pure hate in my voice.
She stopped dead in her tracks. It was probably the first time she heard me swear. I don't know if it was that or the tone of my voice that stopped her.
I slowly turned to face her. Her eyes were swollen and puffy. Tear lines streaked her face. She had a look of shame and hurt.
"I am so sorry." She started to say as new tears started to form. "I don't know how or why. It-it-it was the first time. I swear. It will ne..."
"Liar." I spat at her. "For 8 years I have told you what a piece of shit Marcus is. How many times have I told you the only thing he enjoys more than torturing me is bragging?
"Do you honestly believe he didn't tell anyone that would listen about eating your hairy pussy in the shed? Or that you shaved it after he told you and then fucked you multiple times? Do you think he wasn't on the phone bragging 5 minutes after he left on Friday?"
I didn't know for sure if that was true, but I had no doubt it was. She looked at acted like every word I said was a slap to her face. She collapsed down on the couch. Her face went white, her mouth fell open.
"Oh don't worry. He hasn't said anything to me. He just let's EVERYONE ELSE FUCKING DO IT FOR HIM!"
"WHAT DID YOU THINK WAS GOING TO HAPPEN?" I continued to yell at her. "WERE YOU PLANNING TO MOVE INTO HIS DORM WHEN HE WENT TO COLLEGE?"
" YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN? THE SAME THING HE HAS DONE TO EVERY OTHER WOMAN HE HAS FUCKED!
"HE WILL FUCK YOU TILL THE THRILL US GONE. TILL HE MAKES YOU WHAT HE WANTS AND THEN THROW YOU AWAY LIKE TRASH!"
"You weren't trash! Not to me!" A sob escaped my before I could control it.
I turned and started to walk away when I glanced at dads recliner. I guess mom had thrown a towel on it. I walked over grabbed the towel off and looked at the stains. I turned towards her. She was cowering as I through the towel at her.
"THE ASSHOLE WHO SAID DAD KILLED HIMSELF TO GET AWAY FROM ME, AND YOU ARE FUCKING HIM ON DADS CHAIR?!?!"
Mom slumped off the couch onto the floor holding the towel and staring at the recliner. She was near hysterical as she cried. I turned and walked towards the stairs.
"Kevin!" She called. I ignored her and kept walking.
"KEVIN!" She screamed as I turned the corner and walked down the stairs.
I skipped school on Thursday but went on Friday. I knew no matter what I was going to be ridiculed, even if only behind my back. I figured going the Friday they could get it out of their system and have the weekend to move on.
Over the weekend, I started looking for apartments. I realized I getting an apartment in town was still to close. I started looking in the small city 30 miles away. Only problem with that was I needed a car.
In between doing the last of the game testing, I started looking at cars. I found a few I liked and was considering booking test drives.
I didn't see mom till Sunday night. She had been making me meals and leaving them on the table. I didn't want to touch anything she had touched. It may have been petty, but I just couldn't.
The Sunday night, I had gone up to meet the delivery driver dropping off my order. Once the door closed, I turned and saw her standing in the hall. She looked at me then looked at the floor.
"Kevin." She said as I started to go downstairs. I don't know why, but I stopped.
"I wanted you to know. I blocked him and deleted his number. I will never seen him again. I swear to you on your father's grave, on being your mother. Never again."
I wasn't expecting that. I didn't know what to expect anymore. "Okay." Was all I could say.
"Do...do you think you can ever forgive me?" I could hear the pain and sorrow in her voice.
I stood there for a moment. I wanted to scream not a chance or go to hell, but before I knew it I said "I don't know." I quickly ran down the stairs before she could answer.
Over the next few weeks we both tried to work through things. It was small steps. First being in the same room. Then it was talking about nothing that mattered and been guarded with what was said. Slowly things started to go back to the way they were.
I sent into the copyright request for the game, the title, and logo. It took a while to do all the paperwork. I was hoping to get it back before my birthday.
It was a week before mid terms when I had a meeting with the guidance counselor. She told me cause of my GPA and current grades that if I scored 85% or higher on all mid terms, I would qualify for early graduation. She advised that after midterms, I could submit the application. I would still have to come to school in the morning, just for attendance, but could check in with her. After I did that, I was free for the day.