Chapter 02: Round 2 and 3
It was about 2:30 am when I woke up. I was dazed, still buzzing from all the alcohol. I was naked, in a bed that was not mine, next to a naked man who was not my husband. I have the crossed the line into infidelity.
I would like to blame it on the alcohol, and say I didn't know what I was doing. But that would be a lie. The truth is I knew what I was doing, and I wanted this to happen. I have no one to blame but myself.
I got out of bed and put on a robe. To be honest, I have always been kind of shy showing off my body. Marriage and children choked on one's past inhibitions. I watch Charles as he continues to sleep. He was my former student four years ago; tonight he is my lover, best lover I've had at that. It is a strange feeling. I gaze outside the hotel window and saw the Las Vegas lights. It's funny, I feel guilt but not regret.
I grab a bottle water to quench my thirst and sit on the edge of the bed. Watching my beautiful Charles sleeps. He was always a good looking kid, but he turned into a great looking man. At 6'2 and about 220lbs, he had a body that looked like there wasn't an ounce of fat on him. He is such a powerful lover; so intense, so passionate. My heart began to race and body tingle just remembering it. I stared at him thinking how I got into all this. How did I become an unfaithful wife? I could turn it around all on my husband. After all, it was his cyber-action that pushed me off the path of the straight and righteous. I caught him socializing and having cyber sex with women online. I even caught him posting a profile on a dating site. He swore to me he never cheated, but I always had my doubts. In a sense of payback, I would eventually browse the cyber sites myself.
As much as I would love to make that my excuse, I can't. The truth is I had fantasized about being with another man for awhile. I began to flirt with men online. And I enjoyed it. I began dressing nicer, working out. I got into pretty good shape too, only five pounds heavier than when I got married. Not bad for a middle age woman with a teenage child. There were many time I have been asked out by my guy friends online. However, I always declined. I was very good at never crossing the line. That was, until last night.
I sipped my water, keeping vigil over the rise and fall of his muscular chest. After a little, he began to stir. It seemed like he was learning over to reach for me, started, and then woke. He looked at my vacant side of the bed, and then scanned the room in slight panic before he saw me.
"What are you doing?" he asked.
"Nothing," I replied, "just needed some water."
"For a moment I thought you left." He propped himself up in the bed "Thinking maybe you're one of those girls who just use a man and leave him, laughing on their way home."
I didn't say anything at first, just smiled. "Not my style got to at least make you cook me breakfast."
"Are you OK?" he asked.
I nod, "Why do you ask?"
"Well, I kind of feel that I took advantage of you; you were pretty drunk, I know you're not the type to fool around on your husband."
I laughed. "No, I wasn't that drunk. Well, I was drunk, but I knew what I was doing."