I was at his house again last night, and I swear to god after every time I go, I always say that it will be the last. But of course, it's not. He's like my vice; my addiction...he puts his hands or his lips on my body and I am euphoric. Better than any damn pill. And like a drug, he's terrible for me. But also like a drug, if I don't get my fix, if he's not inside me, I start going through withdrawal. So, I'm going to tell you about last night, and hope that I am purged, at least for a little while.
I live in an old apartment building with very narrow hallways, so when he comes home, I can hear him stomping around in his tims as he climbs the stairs and shuffles past my door. Sometimes I look out my peep-hole to see if I can get a glimpse of him. And he is delicious to look at. He stands about 6'5, a good foot taller than me, and is almost twice my body weight. He has a mass of curly, kinky brown hair that sometimes gets braided, but most of the time is just wild. His skin looks like caramel, and his body looks like it was carved out of wood. I am in awe everytime I see it. His arms are twice as big as my thigh, and he can almost wrap one of his hands around my waist. But the thing that actually attracted me to him was not his body, but his eyes. They are the color of honey; I've never seen anyone, black, white or polka-dot, with eyes that color, and shaded by long, thick lashes. When he cuts his eyes at me a certain way, I can barely stand up.
So, last night, I look out my peep-hole and I can barely make out his form passing by my door. I start heading back to my couch when I hear a light tapping on the wall. He's knocking on it so I'll come over.
He's outside his damn mind if he thinks I'm going over there, I tell myself. I just saw some young chick leave his apartment this morning as I was heading to work.
This is the debate that goes on almost nightly between my reasonable brain, and the very unreasonable spot between my thighs.
And as usual, reason is put aside and I find myself at his apartment, again.
Okay, okay, I tell myself. So you're sitting here, nothing's going on, we're cool.
Until he starts talking to me, in that deep southern drawl that I hear in my sleep. His voice is like thunder rumbling in the distance. "Tell me how ya day was, Jess? Beat up anyone today?"
He likes to make fun of me because I'm a cop, and I am a whopping 5'3.