About a week later Pat and I were sitting in the living room after dinner enjoying a glass of wine as we usually do. Something had been on my mind and this seemed like a good time to bring it up.
"Sweetheart" I said. My lovely wife looked over at me quizzically and replied "Yes dear."
"We haven't heard from the Boss for a week or so and I was wondering what he might have in store for us next and when. He and his gang have explored your body thoroughly, face fucked you and deep throated you, and they have gangbang fucked you anally. I am not sure why they have not fucked your pussy but that must be next. How will you feel about that?"
"Steve I'm not sure what you are asking me."
"Pat I know that you get something special from our visits with the Boss and his gang. We could walk away any time yet we don't. I know what I feel but I'm curious about what emotions you feel when you are having sex with all of those black men."
Pat looked at me for a moment and took another sip of her wine. Then she said "Steve I am not sure that I can explain it to you but I'll try. We have been married long enough for you to know that I am not an adventurous person. Still, on the inside, I want to do outrageous things. Those two emotions can only exist within me if I am told or forced to do those things that I would never normally do."
"When you take me to an appointment with the Boss I convince myself that you are forcing me to go. When we get there the Boss takes over the dominate role and he tells me what to do. My submissive self needs to be dominated so that my timid self can come forward and play."
"Well I thought that it might be something like that and you have explained why you go along with the Boss and me when we tell you what to do. But you have not told me what emotions you feel. What gives you the high?"
"Oh now I see what you are asking" Pat said.
She smiled broadly. "There are so many things I'm not sure where to start. I am a somewhat timid person and that makes me a little insecure. It is a high to know that for those few moments I am the center of attention. The eyes of every male in the place are riveted on me. They all want me and lust after my body. They want to dominate me completely and to use me in any and every way possible and that is what I want also."
"What!" I said. "Pat you are gorgeous. There are a lot of women who are beautiful on the outside but you are one of those beautiful women who remain beautiful even without your clothes off. You have lovely long blond hair, a perfect creamy white complexion and a stupendous figure. You've got to be kidding me. You have a figure most women would kill for. Your tits are large enough but not too large. Your small waist flairs into nice full hips and you have a well rounded ass as well."
"And that's with your clothes on. With your clothes off your full firm white tits are topped with the sexiest pointed nipples I have ever seen. Those erotic tits and nipples are tipped with the circular bar bells that the Boss had inserted when he had your nipples pierced. Your tummy is flat and below that your little girl's pussy is covered with a fine blond bush."
"Then we come to your legs. Your well rounded thighs are firm, full and muscular. Your calves are nicely shaped."
"Patricia my dear you are the complete package. How in the world could you possibly feel insecure?"
My love was smiling broadly by this time and shaking her head. "It's funny but when I look in the mirror that is simply not what I see. Any way the combination seems to work well."
"What do you mean? What combination?" I asked.
"The combination of my insecurity which fuels my need to be dominated and used and the fact that men see this complete package as you put it and want to possess me."
"Is that all?" I asked.
"Oh no, that is just the beginning. It's complicated."
"The first time that I was forced to suck a cock other than yours I was totally humiliated. The fact that it was a black cock, which goes totally against my southern upbringing, rocked my emotions so strongly that I almost came when the head passed my lips. When I realized that he wanted to shove that black piece of meat down my throat I could hardly believe it. I was shocked but then my inner self wanted more and I found that I wanted that cock shoved down my throat until my nose was crushed against his pubic hair. It took some work but I was proud of myself when I felt it buried deep in my throat. Then his dick throbbed with spasms as he pumped load after load of cum into my white tummy."
"The last time that we went to the Boss's place and all the gang members used my ass I felt the same kind of thrill. Each cock you placed into my ass felt different and each time I felt happy that I was wanted and I was thrilled to be used for the satisfaction of others. I almost came myself as each hot load of cum was pumped into my clutching ass hole."
