The video taping was over much to Patrick's relief, he felt like a prisoner being interrogated as Veronica and Eustace fired questions at him, all that was missing was the bright light hanging above his head and his hands being tied behind his back. He didn't even bother to ask what they thought, they would only tell him that it was too soon and that they'd call him as soon as they knew anything. Eustace stayed after the girls left and took Patrick aside.
"You up to talking?" he asked.
"It doesn't matter if I'm up to it or not." Patrick replied, "I want this taken care of."
"Good answer." Eustace replied and led the way to Ethan's office.
He waited until they were both comfortable and started the session by asking about Kevyn.
"How is she?"
"She's good, we had coffee tonight." Patrick replied.
"Did you tell her about last night?"
"I told her everything except that I almost raped Melissa but I think she knows that I didn't tell her everything." Patrick said.
"Why do you think that? Did she question you?"
"Yes but it was more about what would have happened if Ethan and Martin hadn't come." Patrick hesitated and Eustace waited. "She feels drawn to me."
"Is that a problem?"
"No, it's just that I need to start thinking about how to tell her everything sooner than I had hoped or planned." Patrick replied.
"Tell me about tonight." Eustace said.
"Not a whole lot to tell except that when I was with her, I felt cocooned from the world and she's a very jealous and protective woman."
Patrick told Eustace about how Kevyn had confronted Melissa one night after class and how she had intervened with the woman at the restaurant.
"What I find interesting," Eustace said, "is that she feels the need to protect you as much as you feel the need to protect her. The jealousy is understandable, that's normal mate behavior but for her to step up for you like that.... It intrigues me."
"What are you thinking?" Patrick asked.
"I don't know yet and I know that you're tired of hearing that but I don't want to say anything until I've had more time to think about it."
Patrick gave a dry chuckle, "I have the feeling that I'm going to be hearing that a lot between you and the girls."
Eustace smiled, "Probably so." he conceded as he shifted in his chair.
Patrick tensed and then relaxed, he knew what was coming and it wouldn't help anything if he was already tensed and nervous.
"I want to talk about last night again." Eustace said, "Not so much about what happened but about what was going through your mind as the almost rape was happening, start with when you walked into the office."
"I knew that it wasn't Robertson, he has a smell that reminds me of stale corn chips."
"But you went in anyway."
"Yes but I didn't think that she would be in there, I thought that.... I don't know what I thought."
"Go on."
"I turned on the lights and there she was on my desk practically naked. I told her to get out but .... She pulled the straps of her..... She..."
The red haze and anger began to rise.
"Tell me about Kevyn" Eustace said calmly.
Patrick took a deep breath.
"Kevyn is my mate, she's taking her prerequisites so that she can apply for the nursing program."
"What else?" Eustace asked watching Patrick carefully.
"She likes sports; she plays on the softball team for her job."
"Sounds like your kind of woman." Eustace remarked, "Are you ready to continue?"
Patrick nodded.
"What was your first thought when you saw the girl?"
"That she had to leave and I told her that but she didn't listen."
"Then?"
"That we were both in trouble.... That I... we needed help so I called for Ethan and Martin." Patrick replied. "I should have left, but I... I was so angry at her. I was alright until she came along and kept pushing me. I'm not saying that I'm innocent, I know that I'm not but why in the hell did she keep pushing me? I tried to warn her."
"After you called for Ethan and Martin, what were you thinking?"
"I'm not sure that I was thinking." Patrick replied, "All I felt was rage at this girl who in a few weeks almost destroyed me and all of the progress that I thought that I had made. I wanted to teach her a lesson and I wanted to hurt her.... Eustace, it felt good, my touching her and scaring the shit out of her felt good but at the same time, I knew that it was wrong and I knew that I would feel as guilty as hell when it was over but I wouldn't have stopped if Ethan and Martin hadn't come when they did."
"Are you telling me that you didn't want to stop?" Eustace asked. There was no judgment in his voice as he asked the question, just a need to know.
"Part of me wanted to but part of me didn't, so if you're asking if I had more control than I realized then the answer would have to be yes." Patrick said softly.
"I need a drink, call Kevyn and I'll be back in a few minutes."
Patrick waited until Eustace was gone before calling Kevyn, he was fairly certain that she would still be up studying and was relieved when she answered the phone.
"How's the studying going?" he asked.
"Alright, I read the rest of the chapter last night and answered the questions at the end of the chapter."
"Good, do you use the disc that comes with the book? Some of the instructors take their test questions from there."
"I haven't been but I guess I will now, thanks for the heads up. Did you need something?"