"Wanna play hooky with me for a few hours? There's a new movie I want to see. I'll pick you up in 10 minutes." Hanging up, I smile and let out a quiet laugh. I like seeing him during the week, having him all to myself for a few hours. I look forward to our long lunches, shopping trips, movie outings. He listens to me and thinks I'm smart. Sometimes we don't even have to finish a sentence because the other knows what we're thinking. He calms my inner turmoil and says and does things that touch my heart. I let him be him and let him know he can tell me anything, trust me. He lets me make him laugh. I like seeing him laugh and smile because his whole face lights up and his beautiful brown eyes get a little twinkle. I find it very sexy.
You drive up and I hop in. Hmmm, I take in your scent, it's so intoxicating, and like so many times before I want to reach out and touch you. Just a soft touch of my fingertips on your arm, your leg or a caress of your cheek. But like every other time, I resist. Although we've talked about being more, we've been friends for so long we agreed it was more important to remain friends than lovers. We are both painfully aware of a burning desire just below the surface, but like you, I keep my feelings pushed down and as innocent as possible. Thoughts of us as lovers remain in my private thoughts, my late night fantasies.
When we arrive at the theatre, as usual, you come open my door, walk beside me inside, hold the door. This is just one of the many things that touch my heart. For a little while I pretend we're a couple. We head to the top row and grab a couple of seats. The waitress comes up to get our order. I don't have to say anything, you know what I want. Perfect timing, drinks arrive as the previews start. I love sneaking out for a movie during the week in the middle of the day; we always have the theatre to ourselves. I reach for my drink just as you're sliding it to me, and there it is that light touch that races through my entire body. I'm glad the lights are down or you would see then flushness of my cheeks.