Donna's toes felt so good, but she was right. I needed to slow down. It was shaping up to be like our discussions when we she was in the woman superior position. Only this time she was on her back and I was the one theoretically in charge my climax.
The conversation would last only as long as I could.
Donna began, "After our dinner where he told me about impregnating another woman I was torn. I wondered if he just employing a different approach to hit on me. What they did seemed so irresponsible. A biracial child who looked nothing like the dad. How awkward was that? And wanting to show me his dick seemed cliche. I did wonder if he was sexually harassing me. Is that why my predecessor left? Did he plant his seed in her womb?"
"Marvin sensed my conflict because he pulled back. He was more businesslike, still friendly, but there was more formality to our interactions. He made sure I left on time. After two weeks of that I realized how much I missed our dinners and our chats. He was a really neat man. I had fantasized about making out with him before I knew he had impregnated another woman. I decided I shouldn't be so close minded. He was still the same great boss. I thought of us as a team. I also had to admit I was jealous of the other woman."
"I decided I would make the first move. The Tuesday of the third week I asked him if he needed me to stay. He paused before answering. He told me there wasn't much work for me to do, but I was welcome to stay. I asked him if we could have dinner. He smiled and said of course we could, that he'd like that very much. Quitting time came, the building emptied out. I found some work to keep me busy. I did think about you a lot. I knew I was playing with fire, but convinced myself it was strictly platonic. I felt incredibly guilty because I was falling hard for him."
Once the building emptied out Marvin came by. He had a book for me. It was a paperback. A little over 100 pages. I looked at the title, "Real Women Dont Do Housework." He said it was a reading assignment and we would discuss over dinner.
I spent the next two hours reading it, but the whole time I'm wondering why. We had a marriage of equals. We didn't fight often. Since I worked longer hours than you I thought it only right you do all the housework. I envisioned you quitting your job and being a stay at home dad while I continued to pursue my career. You weren't a spendaholic, but you did make some bad choices buying things we didn't need. Learning how to bend you to my will appealed to me. I just didn't know if I could do all the teasing. It seemed like a lot of work and struck me as manipulative."
"I brought the book into Marvin's office when he told me dinner had arrived. I tried to return it, but he told me to keep it. I asked him why he gave it to me. He said while he had never met you he had watched our interactions over the phone. He concluded this book would emancipate me, put me in charge of our marriage. I was still very confused by it all. He told me to give it a try. I told him I would. He asked me to give him periodic reports on your status. He laughed and said my monthly bonus would be tied to what he jokingly called my homework assignment."
"It was incredibly weird, but I reminded myself I shouldn't be surprised. Hadn't Marvin knocked up a married woman? Some parts of the book I found very arousing even as I told myself I didn't know if I could do them. Getting a bigger bonus at the end of the month motivated me to try it. Marvin didn't say I had to be successful, but knowing his outlook on life I knew he expected me to succeed. Looking back, it turned out to be much easier than I ever imagined. You eagerly embraced submitting to my authority."
"Once a week over dinner Marvin asked me for a progress report. He focused less on the sexual denial, domination, and manipulation and more on the results. He wanted to know if I had taken complete control of the finances, had you agreed to quit your job and be a stay at home dad, and if you had agreed to be responsible for all the cooking, cleaning, laundry, yardwork. He and I actually worked on the list together, sitting side by side and we would go over the list the following week to see how you did. It was really arousing to have him so close as we plotted, but it was also frustrating as he didn't make a pass at me. Not even a kiss."
"At the end of the fourth week I got paid. True to his word he had generously compensated me. My bonus was double what it had been the previous month. I was thinking you and I would celebrate. I even called to tell you to be ready to go out because I wanted to go clubbing, something we rarely did anymore."
I interrupted, "I do remember that night. I was thinking about what to wear when you called and told me we would have to go out on Saturday night because Marvin needed you to put in some overtime. He had a big project due Monday."
Donna smiled, "It was a lie. By now you've figured out I've told a lot of lies this past year. Marvin must have heard me on the phone because he came up to me afterwards and asked If I had seen my pay statement. I told him I had. He asked what did i think of it. I wanted to hug him right there but didn't. I thanked him and told him he was too generous. He said I was a valued employee and deserved every penny. He then said loud enough for others to hear, 'I am flying out tomorrow and my presentation isn't ready and I don't have all the reports I asked for. I will need you to stay after work today.' I looked at him. He just stared back. Of course I told him yes. I called you and broke the news apologizing for having to postpone our plans to Saturday night."
"I went back to what I was working on, but I wasn't very focused on what I was doing. You see, everything Marvin had said was a lie. He had all the reports because I had given them to him and his presentation wasn't just complete, but he had given several dry runs. He liked to set up his slides to change at times intervals. He would time his presentation, never looking back at the slides, so when he was done with one slide he made the transition to the other as it popped up. It was very impressive and I never got tired of listening to his voice or watching him as he walked around the room. I imagined he looked even more impressive on a stage in an auditorium filled with hundreds of major shareholders."
"The reason I was staring is it was decision time for me. I could have diplomatically reminded him he had everything and he was prepared, but I would stay if he needed me to. He would have interpreted it to mean I was making a choice between my husband and him, and you, little Stevie, had won out. I don't think it would have ultimately changed anything, just delayed the inevitable."
"Anyway, I stayed and was glad I did. I was getting hungry when he told me to grab my purse. I thought he is telling me to go home. He said we are going out. We left the building, went to the garage. He opened the door for me. I got in his car. My heart was pounding. I was aroused and excited. It was like we were going on a date. We arrived at the restaurant having said nothing the entire ride. I had already made up my mind that if he made a pass at me I would accept it, but I wasn't going to be the one to initiate it."
"He ordered us a bottle of wine. We looked at the menu. Everything was expensive. Knowing he didn't even think about the prices inflated my opinion of him even more. I thought this handsome, powerful, man wants to spend time with little old me, a wife from the suburbs. We started talking mainly about work. He apologized for his deceit, but said it was important we talk. He was flying out the next day. He took my left hand in his and as he talked he toyed with my wedding and engagement rings. It was the first time he actually touched me in such an intimate way. I am very sure from the look our waiter gave us they knew we weren't married. He had no wedding ring on and we were of different ages."
"He wanted to know how I felt a month into taking control of my marriage. I told him it was wonderful. He asked me to describe it in one word. I told him emancipating. He smiled, 'Donna, you have just scratched the surface you have no idea how much power you have. The rules only apply to him, not to you. The marriage contract is for you to amend as you desire. I'll be gone next week, but I have some more books I want you to read. You'll find them even more empowering."
"We took our time, finished the bottle of wine, and even had dessert. We talked about a lot of things. I wondered if we were going to a motel or his house afterwards. How would I explain it you if we did? How would I maintain control of the situation, make you not grudgingly accept it, but lovingly embrace it? He didn't make a pass. We just drove back to the office. He dropped me off at my car. I was a bit embarrassed because I had obviously misread him. He had the books in the back seat. He handed them to me. I thanked him. He waited until he was sure my car started, then drove off. We waved goodbye to each other. It was so weird. I was angry and horny. More reading I thought. Why doesn't he just kiss me?"
Donna asked, "Do you remember that weekend?"
I told her, "I do. You were horny, but in a horrible mood. You found fault with everything I did. It makes sense now. You were upset with him but took it out on me."
Donna said, "Guilty. I was very upset with him. Even worse he embarrassed me by just dropping me off so unceremoniously. I couldn't take it out on him. He was my boss. I didn't purposely decide to take it out on you. It just worked out that way."