My name is Ella and my story began before I was born. I was adopted at birth and my adoptive parents provided me with the best of everything. We lived in a large house set some distance from the road in manicured gardens set behind a high hedge. They were wealthy and made sure that I went to the best school and when I went to college my tuition was fully paid for by them, along with a generous allowance.
They impressed on me from age five that, while they were not my biological parents, I was special to them because they chose me. It wasn't until just before I left for college that they revealed to me that my birth mother had been a whore. This came about because they were concerned that I may have inherited some of my mother's character traits and I was warned about the many pitfalls of allowing boys to 'take advantage' of me, the inference being that if I succumbed once there would be no stopping me. They also impressed on me our religious belief in my 'saving myself' for my future husband.
I was a good girl, and while I went to parties, I let it be known that I wasn't interested in a sexual relationship of any kind. I would be friends to all, but that was as far as I would go. As a result I was part of a circle of friends who did not feel obliged to bow to the pressure of conformity to the social mores of the time, so I was still a virgin when I returned home on vacation.
I arrived home on Saturday afternoon and we had a family dinner at a fine restaurant where I was asked about my studies and my friends and, eventually, my still virgin status. My answer to the question of that status was to confirm, much to their ultra-conservative moral code, that I was still in fact a virgin. Sunday we went as usual to church where I met my many pre-college friends and where, strangely enough the status of my virginity was mentioned. I somehow got the feeling that some of my friends had strayed from the path of celibacy.
On Monday Mother left for a women's conference sponsored by the church, leaving me alone while father was at work. I sat around doing not much until lunch time when I made myself a sandwich and tried without success to watch daytime TV. The rest of the day I mooched around until it was time to reheat the food for Father and my evening meal. After dinner we sat and watched TV for a while but I felt uncomfortable alone with him so at around 10.00 I made my excuses and went to bed.
About half an hour later I heard Father come up and I heard the shower hiss into life. I put the book that I had been trying to read down and turned off the light to go to sleep. Minutes later I heard my door open and felt him sitting on my bed. "Ella, are you awake?"
"Yes." My tone of voice implied that I didn't appreciate being disturbed.
"I need to talk to you," he paused as if he was trying to find the right words, "it's about your mother and me."
"Can't it wait until morning?"
"No, I don't think that it can."
"What is it?"
"Well, you see, we haven't been getting on at all well this last year. We just don't seem to communicate any more. The spark has gone out of our marriage."
"Have you discussed it with her?"
"Yes, she just tells me that I'm imagining things and that she's happy as things stand."
"And you're not I gather."
"No, I'm not. Do you know that we haven't had intimate contact in over six months?"
"You haven't had sex in six months?"
"No, and every time I raise the issue she finds some excuse for not wanting it." As he spoke he leant across and in doing this his hand brushed my breast. I thought the contact was deliberate and I was beginning to get scared. His face was close to mine now. "I'm so lonely, and I'm frustrated at not being allowed to make love to her. I don't know what to do." He was working on my sympathy now, a sob, a tear and the pleading voice. "I'm so afraid that I'll lose her and end up a sad and lonely man, unloved by anyone." He dropped his head and rested his face next to mine and sobbed.
"I'm sure that it's not as bad as all that." I felt that he was waiting for me to put my arms around him and comfort him but I resolved not to do that. "Have you spoken of this to any of your friends, or people at the church, they have counsellors don't they?"
"They're no use, all they tell me to do is to pray about it."
"I don't know that I can be of any help to you, I haven't had any relationship experience."
"Can you just hold me for a while, please?" I didn't want to but I couldn't refuse him either, after all he had supported me all of my life. I put my arm around him hoping that it wouldn't last long. He slipped between the sheets and put his arms around me, pulling me to him. We held each other for several minutes and then I felt the hardness of his cock pressing against me and his lips against my neck.
This was really freaking me out. "What are you doing?"