The next morning I woke late and it took a while for the events of the previous night to intrude on my sleepy mind. But as soon as I did remember I felt a wave of self-disgust rush over me. But, if I am honest, I also felt a sharp tingle of excitement -- I may not have chosen to lose my virginity in that degrading way but I could not deny I had enjoyed it a lot.
I tried to push the memories aside but it proved difficult to keep my mind off it. Yesterday I had been a virgin and completely inexperienced in all things to do with sex, now, only a few hours later I had had full sex with two different men. Part of me felt kind of proud -- I was now a woman and judging by the events of last night it was obvious men wanted me.
It was then that I remembered that both Abdullah and Mustafa had come inside me. Whilst that gave me another little thrill of dirty excitement it also made me concerned -- what if they had made me pregnant? I knew there was something called the morning after pill for this sort of occasion and so I went over to my computer to look it up.
Sitting at my desk I noticed that what had been an eye watering soreness between my legs last night was now just a dull ache. It only took a couple of minutes to find out what I needed to know -- I could get the pill from my GP but I had to take it within three days of the event. Being a Sunday the doctors would be closed but I resolved to get round there straight after school the next day.
Just then my annoying little sister barged into my room -- she never knocked!
"What you looking at?" She asked in her typical nosy way. I slammed the lid down on my laptop -- had she seen the page?
"Nothing." I said, unconvincingly. "Just get out will you, I'm trying to do my homework."
She didn't move -- she was so irritating back then! She walked over to my window but then noticed something.
"Wow!" she exclaimed. "You get this much for working at that takeaway?" She turned round and had the enveloped that Mustafa had given me in her hand, the thick bundle of money clearly visible inside it.
"God, there must be a couple hundred quid in here!" She correctly guessed.
"Just give it to me and bugger off." I said angrily.
"Alright, alright. No need to flip out." She said. "It's just a lot that's all. It can't be from just serving behind the counter - what do you have to do for it? Suck him off?" She was always trying to shock me like that.
I must have gone red at her almost accurate guess.
"Don't be disgusting." I hissed as I snatched the envelope away from her.
"Calm down." She said. "I wasn't serious. It just seems like a lot, that's all."
"He likes me because I work hard." I lied quickly. "We had a really good night and he gave me a bonus."
"Wow, some bonus." She exclaimed. "Think he'd give me a job there? Wouldn't mind a bit of that myself."
"No!" I almost shouted at her. "You're not to go anywhere near there, you got me?"
She looked a bit taken aback by my outburst and more than a little curious.
"Why's that? I like his food, me and my mates go in there after school sometimes and he always gives us loads of chips. Especially if you show a bit of leg." She laughed.
"Just stay away from there, ok? It's not a nice place." I said as I shoved her out of my room.
I sat back down and took a deep breath, the last thing I wanted was my sister to find out what had happened and I most definitely didn't want her going into Mustafa's!
After school the next day I walked quickly to my GP's office. Inside I could see the waiting room was pretty full and the normal noisy and officious receptionist was on duty.
"Yes?" She said as if I was a nuisance.
"Can I please see one of the female doctors?"
She snorted as if I were asking for the world. "Both lady doctors have a full clinic today. The earliest I can get you into see one of them would be next week."
Damn I thought, that was way too late. I needed that pill today or tomorrow at the latest.
"Doctor Hadfield has a small amount of free time later on but that's it."
Doctor Hadfield was our family GP and a very nice man. In his early sixties now he had been our doctor for as long as I had been alive - he had given me all my immunisations as a baby! What was worse was that he knew my family well, he even socialised with my parents, sometimes coming round for dinner.
"Is there no one else?" I pleaded.
"Nothing." She said, almost pleased.
Reluctantly I agreed to the appointment and went and sat down. It seemed to takes ages and by the time I was finally called I was the last person in the waiting room.
Doctor Hadfield greeted me warmly and I sat down in his consulting room. He was what people call portly and had thinning grey hair. His blue eyes twinkled from behind half-moon glasses.
"Now then Emily. What can I do for you?" He said in his gentle Edinburgh accent.
"Umm, well... it's a bit embarrassing actually." I said not really knowing how to say it.
"Now, now Emily. I've known you since you were a baby and I hope you know you can tell me anything."
I nodded. "Well..." I trailed off again, this was hard. "It's just that, ummm, I need the morning after pill."
He sat back, obviously a little surprised.
"Ah, yes. Well, that shouldn't be a problem." I felt relief flood through me.
"And I'd like to go on the pill." I said, feeling bolder.
"Of course." He said. "Very sensible for a young women."
He shuffled some papers around.
"Now I will have to ask you a few questions first." He said, smiling warmly at me. "Bit embarrassing I know but it's very important in these situations."
"Yes, no problem." I said eagerly. What a relief it was to know I wouldn't be getting pregnant -- perhaps I could put the whole sorry affair behind me.